“Until we’re told to stop, I guess,” Connors said.
“I don’t like watching one of our own guys.”
“You could always quit and become a school crossing guard.”
SIXTEEN
O’FARRELL FELT terrible when he awoke, not needing to feign continuing sleep to check his surroundings. The slightest movement was agony. He was sick the moment he reached the closet-bathroom, dry-heaving long after he couldn’t be sick anymore, the crushing headache worsening every time he retched until desperately he bunched the thin towel against his face to stop. The ache did ease very slightly but it was still bad, worse than he could ever remember any headache before. Or ever wanted to know again.
Because it was the only one available, he had to swill out the brandy-smelling glass of the previous night, briefly causing a fresh spasm of heaves, before he could get some water, which he carried unsteadily back into the bedroom, lowering himself gently onto the disheveled bed. His mouth was gratingly dry but he sipped the water carefully, not wanting to cause any more vomiting. The brandy bottle was on a side chest—like his great- grandfather’s photograph back in Alexandria—and showed just about a third full. So he deserved to feel like he did; he practically deserved to be in a hospital, attached to a stomach pump.
Strangely, ill though he felt, O’Farrell did not actually regret the alcoholic breakdown. That was all it had been, an isolated, unforeseen breakdown like breakdowns always were. And they could always be overcome. Never again, he vowed. A drink or two, sure—and no more of this crap about counting how many or feeling guilty—but never again like last night. Not, as it eventually became, breakneck attempted oblivion. That was wino stuff, like-the hair-matted wrecks lying in their own piss on 14th Street or in Union station. O’Farrell shuddered, immediately wincing at the discomfort the slight movement caused. He wasn’t heading for 14th Street: never. Last night had been a warning. A release and a warning. Now he’d get on with the job.
Which he could do. He’d been thrown off balance, badly, by the woman and the boy, and he shouldn’t have been, but he’d recovered now. Breakdown over. He had to forget the family. Not forget, precisely; that was stupid because he knew they existed. Compartmentalize them; that was the professional phrase. Compartmentalize anything likely to be a distraction, an interference. Hundreds … thousands … saved, he thought, not just lives. Suffering and hardship … Breakdown most definitely over.
It took O’Farrell a long time to get ready but he still found himself among the rush-hour workers when he left the boardinghouse. He made his way to a fast-order cafe and forced himself to consume dry toast he didn’t want and coffee he couldn’t taste, knowing he had to get something into his stomach if he ever wanted to feel better. It didn’t settle easily, but it settled. Just.
When O’Farrell got there, the BMW with which he had become familiar the previous night was still parked outside the Hampstead house. He drove past and concealed himself almost completely in a side street about fifty yards farther on, reminding himself he’d kept this rental car three days, which was long enough. The large package in Rivera’s garage would prevent the BMW being put away, thought O’Farrell, an idea flickering unformed. How long would it stay there?
It was just past ten when Rivera left the house. O’Farrell noted the time and the surprising fact that the ambassador was not driven by an embassy chauffeur. He followed, sure of the destination and therefore not bothering to keep close surveillance, but he was able to anyway, because of the freak lightness of the traffic. He was glad he had because he was able to see a uniformed man—the chauffeur, he guessed—and two other men waiting expectantly at the embassy entrance to receive the man. So just after ten was Rivera’s routine departure time from home and just after 10:30 his routine arrival time at the embassy. The American sighed in disbelief at the nonexistent security. Rivera appeared so unguarded it almost seemed suspicious.
Rivera went inside. The car was driven off by the uniformed man, confirming O’Farrell’s impression. It was a simple around-the-block journey to the rear of the premises, where there was a small, name-designated parking area. Rivera’s reserved spot was in the very center, in full view of all the rooms at the rear. Not possible here, thought O’Farrell, whose earlier idea had hardened. The chauffeur got out and went into the building. O’Farrell pulled in just beyond the embassy, on a double yellow line, watching the vehicle in his rearview mirror. Almost at once the chauffeur reappeared in an apron and with a bucket and cloth and started to clean the vehicle. O’Farrell eased out into the traffic again, expecting Rivera to remain within the embassy for the morning at least. It was unimportant anyway; he had other things to do.
Nausea was still a threat and O’Farrell drove tight lipped, feeling cold but aware that he was sweating at the same time. The headache ebbed and flowed and the light hurt his eyes, causing a different and quite separate pain. His first full-blown, tie-and-tails hangover, he recognized. Even at college and later, in the army, on furloughs or celebrating something, he’d never drunk enough to lose control of himself, like the previous night. And was damn glad he hadn’t, if this were the result. He was absolutely sure—and grateful—of one thing about the binge. If these were the aftereffects, there was no danger of his ever becoming an alcoholic.
He was glad to deliver the rental car at Kennington, retrieving the credit-card slip and paying in cash, assuring the counter clerk that the car had been perfect and he would use them again. O’Farrell crossed to Acton by underground, stomach and head in turmoil from the jolting claustrophobia of the subway car, which stank of stale people too close together.
In Acton he chose a dark blue Ford and arranged the same payment method as before, wondering as he drove east toward the embassy and the first contact with Petty since his arrival in England whether he would need all the rental cars he had carefully reserved. Or the boardinghouse accommodations, either. Hardly, if it remained as easy as this.
O’Farrell was lucky and actually found a parking place in Grosvenor Square. At the embassy reception area he identified himself as Hepplewhite, the alias he had used at the first boardinghouse and which was his agreed cover name during any planned embassy visits. The CIA station chief came out at once. He said his name was Slim Matthews, but he wasn’t, at all: he was a roly-poly man who smiled a lot and rocked back and forth in an odd, wobbling gait when he walked.
“Been messaged you might stop by,” Matthews said when they reached the security of the CIA section.
With a security classification and in a code from which Matthews would know not to ask questions, O’Farrell knew. He said, “At the moment, I just need the communications.”
“You look like hell,” Matthews said. “You all right?”
“Ate something that came back at me,” O’Farrell said, easily. He realized, gratefully, he was feeling better.
“Food in England is shit,” Matthews declared. “Hardly had a decent meal since I got here.”
It didn’t seem to be having much effect upon the man’s weight problem; perhaps it was glandular. O’Farrell said, “There’ll be stuff arriving for me, packed, in the pouch. It shouldn’t be opened, of course. I’ll collect.”
“Understood. Anything else?”
“Nothing,” O’Farrell said. He hoped.
Matthews escorted O’Farrell through the barred, marine-guarded inner sanctum. His verbal authorization was enough. No note was made in the log in which all entries and exits were supposed to be recorded.
O’Farrell used a priority number to reach Langley and was quickly patched through to Petty. The section chief answered the telephone coughing and O’Farrell wondered if the pipe had been just lighted or extinguished. “How’s it look?” the department head began.
“I’ve decided the way,” O’Farrell announced.
Petty grunted. “It has to be coordinated with the move against Belac, don’t forget. We haven’t heard from the Bureau or from Customs yet.”
“The opportunity won’t last,” O’Farrell said. Jesus, don’t say they were going to pussyfoot around when he had the chance to do it and get out!
“It’s got to be in the proper sequence,” Petty insisted. “Which is Belac first.”
“What if it can’t be that way!”
