analysing, discussing, and confessing were not enough to make him completely well.
Unfortunately, considering the type of work he does, your husband simply can't live a dichotomous life, she was told after months and years of visiting doctors. Not, that is, if he wishes to be completely integrated as an individual.
She'd said, What? A dichotomous… what?
Andrew can't live a life of contradictions, Mrs. Maiden. He can't compartmentalise. He can't assume an identity at odds with his central persona. It's the adoption of a succession of identities that appears to be causing this failure of part of his nervous system. Another man might find that sort of life exciting-an actor, for example, or, at the other extreme, a sociopath or a manic-depressive-but your husband does not.
But isn't it just like playing dressing-up? she'd asked. When he's undercover, I mean.
With enormous attendant responsibility, she'd been told, and even more enormous stakes and costs.
She'd thought at first how lucky she was to be married to a man who could only be exactly what he was. And in all the years since he'd taken his retirement from New Scotland Yard, the future that they'd worked upon in Derbyshire had obliterated every one of the lies and the complicated subterfuges that Andy had been forced to make part of his life in the past.
Until now.
She should have realised when he hadn't noticed those burnt pine nuts in the kitchen, despite the way the smell had permeated the air of the Hall like overloud music played enthusiastically and in every wrong key. She should have realised then that something was wrong. But she hadn't noticed, because everything had been right for so many years.
“Can't say…” Andy murmured from the bed.
Nan leaned forward anxiously. She whispered, “What?”
He turned, burrowing his shoulder into the pillow. “No.” It was sleep talk. “No. No.”
Nan's vision blurred. She cast back through the last few months in a desperate attempt to find something that she might have done to alter this ending that they had reached. But she could come up only with having had the courage and the willingness to ask for honesty in the first place, which had not been a realistic option.
Andy turned again. He punched his pillow into shape and flopped from his side onto his back. His eyes were closed.
Nan left her chair and went to the bed, where she sat. She reached forward and brushed her fingertips across her husband's forehead, feeling his skin both clammy and hot. For thirty-seven years he'd been at the centre of her world, and she wasn't about to lose her world's centre at this autumnal date in her life.
But even as she made that determination, Nan knew that life as she currently experienced it was filled with uncertainties. And it was in her uncertainties that her nightmares lay, another reason for her refusal to sleep.
Lynley unlocked his front door just after one in the morning. He was exhausted and heavy of heart. It was difficult to believe that his day had begun in Derbyshire, and more difficult to believe that it had ended in the encounter he'd just experienced in Notting Hill.
Men and women possessed limitless potential to astonish him. He'd long ago accepted that fact, but he realised now that he was getting weary of the constant surprises they had to offer. After fifteen years in CID, he wanted to be able to say he'd seen it all. That he hadn't-that someone could still do something to amaze him-was a fact that weighed in his gut like a boulder. Not so much because he couldn't understand a person's actions but because he continually failed to anticipate them.
He'd remained with Vi Nevin until she regained consciousness. He'd hoped she'd be able to name her attacker and thus provide him with an immediate reason for arresting the bastard. But she'd shaken her swollen, bandaged head as Lynley questioned her. All he was able to glean from the injured woman was that she'd been set upon too suddenly to manage a clear look at her assailant. Whether that was a lie that she told to protect herself was something that Lynley couldn't discern. But he thought he knew, and he cast about for a way to make it easier for her to say the necessary words.
“Tell me what happened, then, moment by moment, because there may be something, a detail you recall, that we can use to-”
“That's quite enough for now” The sister in charge of casualty intervened, her blunt Scot's face a picture of steely determination.
“Male or female?” Lynley pressed the injured woman.
“Inspector, I made myself clear,” the sister snapped. And she hovered protectively over her childlike patient, making what seemed like unnecessary adjustments to bedclothes, pillows, and drips.
“Miss Nevin?” Lynley prodded nonetheless.
“Out!” the sister said as Vi murmured, “A man.”
Upon hearing that, Lynley decided enough identification had been established. She wasn't, after all, telling him anything that he didn't already know. He'd merely wanted to eliminate the possibility that Shelly Platt-and not Martin Reeve-had come calling on her old flatmate. Having done that much, he felt justified in taking matters to the next level.
He'd begun that process at the Star of India in Old Brompton Road, where a conversation with the maitre d’ established that Martin Reeve and his wife, Tricia-both of whom were regulars in the restaurant-had indeed taken a meal there earlier in the week. But no one could say on what evening they'd occupied their table by the window. The waiters were evenly divided between Monday and Tuesday while the maitre d’ himself seemed able to recall only that which he had written evidence of in his reservations folder.
“I see they did not book,” he said in his lilting voice. “Ah, one must book at the Star of India to guarantee a seating.”
“Yes. She claims they didn't book,” Lynley told him. “She said that was the cause of a row between you and her husband. On Tuesday night.”
“I do not row with the customers, sir,” the man had said stiffly. And the offence he took at Lynley's remark had coloured the rest of his memory.
The indefinite nature of the corroboration from the Star of India gave Lynley the impetus to call upon the Reeves despite the hour. And as he drove to do so, he fixed in his mind the image of Vi Nevin's ruined face. When finally he'd negotiated his way to the top of Kensington Church Street and made the turn into Notting Hill Gate, he was feeling the sort of slow-burning anger that made it easy for him to persist at the doorbell of MKR Financial Management when no one answered his initial ring.
“Do you have
He strong-armed Reeve backwards into the entry corridor of the house. He muscled him into the wall-easy enough to do since the pimp was so much smaller than Lynley had anticipated-and held him there with one cheek pressed into the tastefully striped wallpaper.
“Hey!” Reeve protested. “What the
“Tell me about Vi Nevin,” Lynley demanded, wrenching his arm.
“Hey! If you think you can barge in here and-” Another wrench. Reeve howled. “Fuck you!”
“Not even in your dreams.” Lynley pressed up against him and jerked his arm upwards. He spoke into his ear. “Tell me about your afternoon and your evening, Mr. Reeve. Give me every detail. I'm done in and I need a fairy tale before I go to bed. Oblige me. Please.”
“Are you out of your fucking
“Nice try,” Lynley said, “but the cops have arrived. Come along, Mr. Reeve. Let's talk in here.” He shoved the smaller man in front of him. Inside the reception office he threw Reeve into a chair and switched on a light.
“You'd better have an eighteen karat reason for this,” Reeve snarled. “Because if you don't, you can anticipate a lawsuit the likes of which you've never seen in this country.”
“Spare me the threats,” Lynley replied. “They might work in America, but they're not going to get you a cup of coffee here.”
Reeve massaged his arm. “We'll see about that.”
“I'll count the moments till we do. Where were you this afternoon? This evening as well? What happened to
