‘Isn’t fighting better than giving in?’
‘Sure, if you fight the right person. But why me?’ he demanded, exasperated. ‘Why am I getting all your aggro dumped on me?’
‘You’re handy.’
‘That’s what I thought.’
‘I’d had a bad time yesterday, what with the flight and getting soaking wet. There’s nothing like half drowning for making you depressed. But I’ve sorted myself out a bit now. Why are you glaring at me? What have I done wrong
‘All day I’ve had nightmares about you wandering Venice alone, confused, miserable. I was sorry for you, worried about you-and now you’re fine.’
‘Well, I’m sorry about that. Last night the pressure made me slip back to my bad time, but I’ve pulled myself together.’
He wasn’t totally convinced. Her smile was too bright, not quite covering an air of strain, and he guessed that part of this was presented for his benefit. But certainly she was mentally stronger than he had feared.
‘I’m glad you’re better,’ he said, ‘but you’re still not ready to go wandering off among strangers. Whatever you may have thought, I didn’t want you to go.’
‘Of course you did-’
‘Woman, what will it take to stop you arguing every time I open my mouth?’
‘I don’t know. If I think of something I’ll make sure you never find out.’
‘I’ll bet you will.’
‘I was just so embarrassed when I found out about your wife and child.’
‘You needn’t be,’ he said, pale but speaking normally. ‘They died nearly a year ago. I’ve come to terms with it by now.’ Abruptly he changed the subject. ‘I’m ready for something to eat, on me this time.’
She knew he wasn’t telling the truth. He was far from coming to terms with his tragedy. His eyes spoke of a hundred sleepless night, and days that were even worse. He looked like a man who could be destroyed by his feelings, and, strangely, it made her feel calmer, as though in some mysterious way they were alike; equals in suffering, in need.
‘As long as you know that I’m sorry,’ she said slowly.
‘You’ve nothing to feel bad about. You’ve even done me a favour, giving me something to think about apart from myself.’
‘Oh, yes!’ she said fervently.
He gave a faint smile. ‘You too?’
‘I’ll say. After a while you get so bored with yourself.’
He ordered a meal, and while they waited he took out his cell phone and called Minna.
‘It’s all right, I’ve found her,’ he said. ‘If you’d just make up her bed-oh, you have. Thank you. Then I shan’t need you again today. Have an early night.’
‘That was my housekeeper,’ he explained, shutting off the phone.
‘And she’s already made my bed up?’
‘She never doubted that I’d bring you back.’
‘Now I remember. Gino once said that none of your servants ever doubted that you could do everything you said you would. It’s an article of faith, and practically heresy to doubt
He made a wry face.
‘It sounds devoted but actually it’s just a way of controlling me.’
‘I suppose people’s expectations can be like handcuffs.’
‘Exactly. It’s one of the reasons I’ve always tried to keep my head down and not be
‘It must be grim if you’re there alone.’
‘I’m not exactly alone. Minna lives there, and Celia, a maid. And Toni.’
‘I love Toni,’ she said at once. ‘He’s so big and shambling. I’m not sure why but he looks terribly vulnerable.’
‘I got him from a rescue centre. Nobody else wanted him because he’s epileptic, and I suppose they thought it might make him aggressive. It doesn’t. Quite the reverse. When he has a fit he just lies there and shakes.’
‘Poor soul,’ she said, shocked. ‘So you gave him a home because he had nowhere else to go.’
‘Well, if I did he’s repaid me a thousand times. He’s the best friend a man ever had.’
But still, Ruth thought, shivering as she recalled that great empty building, it must make for a lonely life, with only his memories for company. She wondered about his wife, and how much he must have loved her to have been reduced to such bleakness by her loss. And she shivered again.
‘Where did you go when you slipped out this morning?’ Pietro asked.
‘Looking for places I’d been before, but I didn’t do so well. It’s all so different in winter. I went to a little cafe where we’d been together. We sat outside, and I remember the sun shining on his hair, but today I stayed inside because it was drizzling. I can’t do it on my own. I’ll have to wait until he returns. Or maybe I could go to see him.’
‘No,’ he said quickly. ‘It has to be here, where you were together.’
Pietro knew he must keep her with him at least until he’d spoken to Gino. Earlier that day he’d sat by the lagoon and put through a call on his cell phone. A female voice had answered. Pietro had left a message for Gino to call him, but nothing had happened.
He’d sent a text, stressing the urgency but not mentioning Ruth’s name. Now, hours later, while Ruth was drinking her wine he did a hasty check under the table, but found nothing.
‘How did you find me?’ she asked.
‘With the help of a few hundred friends. Venice counts as a great city because it’s unique, but in size it’s little more than a village. We all know each other. Sooner or later I found someone who’d seen you, and could point me in the right direction. I even knew what your new coat looked like.’
‘So I’ve been under surveillance?’
‘In a nice way. You can’t hide anything from your neighbours in Venice, but it can be comforting to have so many people look out for you.’
‘Yes,’ she said. ‘Most of them said something about how I shouldn’t be out so early in the cold, and I should be careful not to get lost.’ She gave a sigh of pleasure. ‘It was like being protected by a huge family.’
‘We do that,’ he agreed. ‘Venetians are so different from the rest of the world. We try to look after the others.’
Except Gino, who had simply deserted her, he thought. He wondered if she were thinking the same, but she gave no sign.
‘Go on telling me about your day,’ he urged.
‘Oh, you’d have laughed if you could have seen me. I had all sorts of impractical ideas, take a gondola ride, feed the pigeons in St Mark’s Square, go to look at the Bridge of Sighs. Something really did come back to me there-the first time I got cross with him and we ended up bickering.’
‘About the Bridge of Sighs?’
‘Yes. Gino spun me the whole romantic story, how it had been named after the sighs of lovers. I thought that was lovely until I bought a guide book and discovered that the bridge connects the prison to the Doge’s Palace, where trials were held. So the sighs came from prisoners taking their last look at the sky before going to the dungeons.’
Pietro began to laugh. ‘You quarrelled about that?’
‘Not quarrelled, squabbled. I like to have the truth.’
‘Rather than a romantic fantasy? Shame on you.’
‘I don’t trust fantasies. They lay traps.’
‘But so does the truth sometimes,’ he pointed out quietly.
She didn’t answer in words, but she nodded.
