we spend years trying to understand it and never do. Sometimes it’s the liquor and sometimes it’s simply some dark and deranged impulse. We go back and back to it as if to a great library in search of the one book that will explain it. But that book is always checked out.
‘And you know what’s so funny? I’m the jealous one in our marriage. I’m always worried some other woman will steal him away. I cringe every time I see him around Kathy Tomlin, for instance. Even when I know it’s business, when he’s sitting with a reporter talking and she’s wearing a skirt that barely covers her. I even got jealous one day when I saw him having coffee or something with Mrs Burkhart. At least I don’t accuse him as much as I used to. My first true love cheated on me all the time. I’ve never trusted men since.’
Nothing to say to that. She was talking to herself, not me. I checked my watch. Eight minutes to go. ‘We’re in a lot of trouble. Could you at least hold off calling the police for twenty-four hours?’
‘What if he’s lying somewhere half dead?’
‘We don’t know that.’
‘That doesn’t mean it’s not true.’
‘All we can go on is past behavior.’
‘I don’t want him to die without saying he forgives me.’
Selfish, even narcissistic, but understandably human. She loved him and betrayed him and that was bad enough. But for him to pass on without there being some resolution ‘I understand, Mrs Nolan.’ I was a mere human, too, and I did understand the need for absolution, pitiful as that was.
‘Mrs Nolan. I have a first name, for God’s sake.’
‘All right, Bryn. I understand, but I still have to ask you to hold off for at least twenty-four hours.’
‘You’re all the same.’ She shook her head angrily, a quite pretty child feeling sorry for herself. ‘As loving as David is, he can be the same way. So callous when it comes to politics. Winning is everything.’
‘Is it all right if we watch TV now?’
‘What? Oh, right, Sylvia’s on. God, I hate that bitch. She’ll say anything.’
She was up again. ‘Family room,’ she said, and led us to a door with stairs that ended in a voluptuously furnished room complete with bar, gigantic plasma TV, pool table, and carpeting so thick you could lose your shoes in it.
We waited through six thirty-second commercials, two of them for Burkhart, before the local Ken and Barbie came on and sounded as urgent as possible about several of the headline stories.
Then Ken said, ‘But we begin tonight with a visit from somebody who’s frequently in the national news.’ The camera widened out to a two-shot. Sylvia wore a white silk blouse and the same dark chignon that Audrey Hepburn had worn in numerous movies. Subtle sex. Cameras had always lusted after her and tonight was no exception. But what was that in her eyes? The expression I’d expected would have been joy, trashing and thrashing us with Ward’s infidelity and kinky ways. But Sylvia’s dark eyes were furtive; she was scared. And Sylvia was never scared.
‘Sylvia Fordham is legendary in the business of politics. She is considered one of the toughest, if not the toughest, of all the political operatives in our country. She’s working for the Rusty Burkhart campaign in our district and she’s here tonight to tell us some things she says she’s learned about Mr Burkhart’s opponent, Congressman Jeff Ward.’ Ken gave her his Ken smile. ‘Would you like to make some news tonight, Sylvia?’
‘I certainly would, Chad.’
‘Something’s wrong with her,’ Bryn said.
‘Yeah. For sure.’
She licked her lips and swallowed hard before starting to speak. ‘Our campaign has learned that the state attorney general’s office might finally look into some possible discrepancies in Congressman Ward’s PAC reporting. He may not have reported everything during the last election cycle.’
‘What the hell?’ I said.
Ken blinked a couple of times. The magical coach had turned into a pumpkin and the beautiful maiden into a gnarled hag. This was the freaking big story they were breaking tonight? Some bullshit little routine accusation about PAC contributions — and in the last election cycle, for God’s sake? If they had a mean TV columnist in this town, Ken and Company were going to get worked over big time for spending all night pushing the big reveal only to see it turn into nothing more than carping.
‘I see. But I guess I need to ask if Mr Burkhart didn’t already bring this up at the start of the campaign?’
‘Yes, he did. But we think it’s worth mentioning again now that the attorney general’s office said they might look into it.’
Ken was less of a Ken than I’d thought. ‘But the election commission has already looked into this and said that there’s nothing improper in the filing. And you keep saying that the attorney general’s office might look into it.’ A quick smile. The contempt in it was blade sharp. ‘I doubt Congressman Ward’s going to lose any sleep over this tonight.’
A hint of professional sympathy stirred in my racing mind. Their plans had changed quickly. They weren’t going to mention the DVD. But Sylvia had to go on anyway. She’d once staged a car accident to get out of an interview, but there hadn’t been time for that tonight. So here she was on the tube with a story so lame even the news reader was mocking her. Knowing Sylvia, she’d want to get her hands on his scrawny neck and dispatch him on live TV. Which would have been a hell of a lot more interesting than what she’d done so far.
‘Well, I know we have a lot of viewers watching tonight to see what kind of charges you wanted to unveil. I’m sure they understand the implications of this claim and I’m sure they’ll be eager to learn more about the story as the election draws closer. Thanks very much for coming on, Miss Fordham.’
She was a trouper. She found a radiant smile for a closer and she shook his hand as if they’d just agreed on a pact to end poverty, all wars, cancer, and make prime-time TV more fun to watch.
‘This is what Jeff was so nervous about?’ Bryn asked, clicking off the picture.
‘Either Sylvia changed her mind or somebody changed it for her. Maybe Burkhart himself.’
‘But why would Burkhart stop her?’
‘I’m not sure. Maybe it was as simple as deciding to hold it till closer to the election. It could have been any number of things.’ My mind was already out the door. My body followed soon after. ‘All I can ask you is to hold off calling the police until you hear from me tomorrow. Right now I need to find out what’s going on.’
As I stepped over the threshold she grabbed the back of my arm. ‘Tomorrow’s the night of the debate. If I do it then I’d be betraying David. As much as he hates Jeff, he believes in defeating Burkhart.’ She got all junkie jittery again. ‘God, why did I sleep with him?’
I left her alone with the nasty night. And that miserable question she’d be asking herself for a long time to come.
SEVENTEEN
The parking lot glistened with slick pavement. Dirty moonlight and tumbling trash, like something out of a noir sci-fi film. Both Lucy and Kathy were in David Nolan’s office when I got back. Each had a bottled wine cooler in front of her. They didn’t seem to be in danger of becoming rummies anytime soon.
‘We don’t know whether to celebrate or not,’ Kathy said.
‘We just wish we knew what was going on,’ Lucy said.
‘Well, at least we won’t have to be in at seven thirty,’ I said. ‘No reason to have a news conference.’
‘That doesn’t clear things up,’ Lucy said.
They still hadn’t been told about the DVD and I wasn’t going to be the one who broke it to them. ‘There’s beer in the fridge down the hall, Dev. That’s where Kathy found the wine coolers.’
I went and got one and came back. ‘Right now all we can do is concentrate on the debate tomorrow night.’
‘Jeff was crazy tonight. He said there was going to be this big explosion after Sylvia went on TV. But it was nothing.’ I watched Kathy’s lips. She had an interesting way of applying them to the neck of the bottle. Very neat and tidy. Almost chaste. Fascinating.
‘Well, for whatever reason, it didn’t happen.’ I twisted the cap off my beer. ‘I assume Jeff and I can get into the auditorium in the afternoon and check everything out.’
