Secrets of a Lady

Charles wasn’t sure he had heard correctly. “Poor, stubborn, brave, tormented Elizabeth.” He looked at Charles. “She would have wanted you to know the truth. But I’d stake my life on it that her killing herself had nothing to do with you or with your brother or sister.”

“No,” Charles said. “We weren’t important enough to her.”

O’Roarke was silent for a moment, but he didn’t try to contradict him, which was just as well because Charles would have thrown the words back in his face. “I was always afraid—She couldn’t bear being out of control, and she was out of control far too often. I suspect that’s what finally drove her to pull the trigger.”

“For what it’s worth,” Charles said, “so do I.”

They regarded each other for a moment. Even in death, his mother exerted enough power to hold the attention of two men who should have been at each other’s throats. “I don’t know that I understand her looking back with thirty-some years’ perspective,” O’Roarke said. “I certainly didn’t understand her at the time. But she meant—a great deal to me. Though not as much, incidentally, as Melanie later did.”

Melanie turned her gaze from a contemplation of the pastoral print on the wall. “We’ve had enough of your gambits, Raoul.”

“That last was no gambit, querida.”

“No,” Charles said, “that I believe.”

O’Roarke met his gaze in silent acknowledgment. “Then surely you realize that Melanie and the boy—and you yourself, I might add—are the last people on this earth that I’d hurt.”

“That doesn’t mean you wouldn’t hurt us.” Without pause or inflection, Charles added, “Someone’s been trying to kill Melanie and me.”

O’Roarke’s gaze skimmed between them. “Hadn’t you better tell me about it?”

As succinctly as possible, Charles recounted the events of the past thirty-six hours—the search for Helen Trevennen, the attacks, their meeting with Helen, and their discovery of her body.

O’Roarke’s mouth hardened and his hands clenched at the mention of Colin’s severed finger, but he bit back whatever he had been going to say. When Charles finished, he went right to the point. “You think Velasquez is behind the attacks on you and Melanie?”

“It seems most likely. Though it did occur to me that you’d find it inconvenient if Melanie or I told anyone of your past activities for the French.”

“My dear Charles, I assure you I have faced the risk of discovery more than once. I have never resorted to anything as inelegant as murder to protect myself.”

“You just said you rarely play a hand the same way twice.”

Something glinted in O’Roarke’s eyes that might have been appreciation. “If I wanted you dead, Fraser, you would be.”

“That’s distinctly insulting, Raoul.” Melanie picked up her whisky and took a sip. “And not necessarily true.”

“You really think I’d be capable of killing you?”

“A number of people have taught me not to trust, but you certainly made your contribution.”

O’Roarke whirled away, then spun round to face them again. “Use your heads, both of you. You have two of the finest brains I’ve ever encountered. If I thought Melanie was a liability, I’d have had to worry about her at any time in the past seven years. I convinced you both yesterday morning that I wasn’t working with Carevalo. Surely these revelations about Fraser’s parentage make that possibility less likely rather than more so. I think you’ll understand that, Melanie, when you stop being outraged because I didn’t tell you everything seven years ago.”

“Don’t push me too hard, Raoul,” Melanie said. “I admit you have a point.”

“Progress at least. Charles?”

“Yesterday I decided you were a safer bet than Carevalo. That hasn’t changed.”

“Good. You both have a right to demand explanations. I’ll answer any questions you wish, though perhaps some of them would better wait until after you have the boy back. Now do you want to know what I’ve learned from Carevalo?”

Melanie started. “You didn’t say—”

“You didn’t give me a chance, querida. I’ve received one message from Carevalo. He said he’d been called away by pressing business but he hoped to be back shortly with good news.” O’Roarke’s mouth curled round this last with cold contempt. “The message was given to a hotel porter by a young street urchin. I managed to trace the lad but he claimed that he’d received the message from a man in a brown coat, and no amount of threats or bribes could produce more information from him or anyone in the vicinity. I also tracked down two of Carevalo’s mistresses today, a Covent Garden flower seller and an equestrienne from Astley’s Amphitheatre. The flower seller claims not to have seen Carevalo for a fortnight and the equestrienne insists she broke with him a month ago when her husband caught them in her dressing room. But I have some other feelers out and I’ll make more inquiries tomorrow. Knowing Carevalo, there were more than two women in his life.” He frowned into his whisky glass. “It’s difficult to make sense of the facts, isn’t it?”

Melanie rubbed her hands over her face. “Distinctly. Helen Trevennen made sense up to a certain point, but I can’t think why she was so determined to hang on to the ring.”

“It obviously had some sort of value to her, greater than anything she thought you and Charles could offer. You aren’t sure if Velasquez found the ring?”

“I doubt it,” Charles said. “But questioning him is the next step.”

O’Roarke nodded. “I suggest you try the Rose and Crown in the Haymarket. It’s his favorite place to drown his sorrows.”

Little remained to be said, and they had already wasted too much time dwelling on personal revelations. He and Melanie took their leave, engaged another hackney, and made for the Haymarket.

They sat in silence. In the past hour, their images of each other had been stripped one level deeper. Charles rubbed his hand across his eyes. His body ached with the weariness that follows extreme exertion. Just when he had begun to feel he might make sense of his life again, the ground had been cut out from under him. For years he had wondered who his father was. Why had it never occurred to him that knowing might be infinitely worse than not knowing?

Raoul O’Roarke was his father. What the hell did that mean? O’Roarke had never been a father to him in the sense that Charles was a father to Colin. And yet, when he was a boy, O’Roarke had attempted to maintain some sort of bond with him. And that, perhaps, was more unsettling than anything.

“The term ‘fortune’s fool’ seems fairly accurate just about now,” he said. “It doesn’t really matter. Who went between my mother’s legs and left the spark of a child behind. It shouldn’t matter.”

“But it does?” Melanie said.

“I suppose so. Yes. More than I’d care to admit.” He pressed his fingers against his temples and breathed in the damp, close air of the hackney, as musty as memories. Without looking at her, he said, “Did you love him?”

It was a long moment before she answered. “He took me out of the brothel. He gave me a sense of purpose. He taught me that physical intimacy can be more than violence or commerce. How could I not love him?”

Charles had an image of O’Roarke’s gaze fixed on her face. For a moment, O’Roarke’s eyes had held a bone- deep longing that he knew all too well. “And after tonight?”

“I don’t know that tonight changed things. Living with you did.”

He twisted his head toward her, though he couldn’t make out her expression in the shadows. “Don’t insult my intelligence by pretending you married me for love, Mel. I could no more believe that than you could believe O’Roarke wanted you to marry me merely for your own protection.”

A flash of lamplight outside the hackney window illumined her eyes. “I didn’t say I married you for love, Charles. I said I stayed with you because of it.”

He stared into her eyes. It would be so easy to believe, and he wasn’t sure he could bear it. “‘Truth is truth / To the end of reckoning,’” he said. “The question would seem to be how to recognize it.”

“Please let me know if you ever figure out how, darling.”

“My dear wife, haven’t I proved that I’m the last person on earth who can recognize anything of the sort?”

They rattled over the cobblestones in silence. Then Melanie spoke in a voice so low he had to strain to hear her. “I loved Raoul. But I never let myself become lost in that love. I had to protect myself by keeping some part of