“They’ve all got worry-lists of girls or kids they think are promiscuous. But whether any of those girls were for sure pregnant at the time Angel’s mom had to be-no one knows. One minister gave me a couple of names to check out. So did one of the vice principals at the high school.”
“But…?” He held out a tidbit of pork chop on a fork, until she bit into it and chewed.
“But it could be an adult woman. It’s not like the mother
“Win,” Justin stopped trying to coax her into more food. “Are you positive that you want a lead?”
The question startled her. “Are you asking me if I’d drag my feet because of wanting the baby for myself?” She shook her head, fast, fiercely. “I admit I’ve fallen in love with her. I know it’s only been three days, but I swear she already feels like she’s mine. But there’s only one way I can make this right, Justin. To find the mom. To know what the whole story is. Then to legally go after doing whatever’s right for Angel. I admit, I want her. But there’s still only one way to drive down this street, and that’s the right way. You know how it is. The truth’ll come back to bite you in the butt if you don’t face it down to start with.”
“Um, is that a Texas saying?”
She grinned. “No, but it should be, don’t you think?”
“What I think, Ms. Raye, is that you’ve got too much on your plate-and that’s a problem that you’d be really, really stupid not to let me help you with. What the hell good is it to have a friend with a ton of money unless you use him now and then? You know my house. You know Myrt, my housekeeper. And while you’re trying to work full- time-”
“No,” she interrupted firmly.
“No? No? This ‘no’ is in reference to what? I never asked you a question.”
Since Sheila was nowhere in sight, Winona got up herself and carted their plates to the old Formica counter, out of their way. The baby was still snoozing, but starting to stir. With a little more space, she could use a hand to keep the baby carrier in a gentle, rocking motion, but her gaze stayed glued on Justin’s. “Somehow you managed to get me talking all this time about Angel and my problems, Doc. But that isn’t why I wanted to see you today.”
She could see him brace, his eyes pick up a wary glint. “Yeah. I suspect you wanted to talk to me about weddings.”
She nodded. “You’re not going to bamboozle me into a marriage, Doc,” she said gently.
“Do you think you’re announcing something I didn’t know? Why on earth would I want to bamboozle you into anything?”
But she was all through being fooled by that easy, lazy teasing tone. “That’s exactly what confounded me for the last few days. Trying to understand. You’ve asked me to marry you a gazillion times, but I always knew you didn’t mean it. I mean, it’s one of our favorite private jokes together. But this time-you sounded serious. So then I started thinking. Maybe something was really bothering you.” She watched his eyes. “I know something happened to you in Bosnia.”
He stilled. “What is this? A guy can’t ask a woman to marry him without her thinking he’s mentally ill or has some deep dark problem?”
“Don’t even try throwing feathers in front of my eyes, Doc. You know perfectly well that’s not what I meant. Answer the question. Or is Bosnia something you can’t talk about?”
She’d seen that exasperated look on his face before-and that unwilling hint of humor in his eyes. Somehow, some way, they’d always been able to talk honestly together. Even when Justin fought it tooth and nail. He threw up a hand. “How Bosnia got in this conversation beats me. But yeah, of course things happened to me there. I went through a year of real hell.”
She nodded gently. “I know you did. And you’ve always pretty openly admitted that…but I meant, was there something that happened that you didn’t talk about? Or couldn’t? I know you saw horrors. I know you went through hell. But you came home and changed from trauma medicine to plastic surgery.”
“So?”
“So…when I realized that, I tapped into my memory banks and it seemed like that was around the time that other things changed for you, too. You picked up a reputation as a devil-may-care playboy. It’s stupid.”
“I don’t know about stupid. More, hard to avoid. I’ve got money and I’m single, so the press naturally-”
“Don’t try to sell me cow patties, darlin’.” Winona leaned forward, feeling better now. In fact, feeling downright good, now that the subject was off her and on him, and Justin was no longer looking at her as if she were whipped cream. “I’m talking about how the media regularly pegs you, Doc. I’m talking about the kind of reputation that you’ve let happen. And it isn’t at all true.”
“It’s not exactly a
She snorted. Not particularly delicately. “You make out like you spend all your time on tummy tucks and boob implants. Nothing wrong with boob implants, mind you-but why is it that no one in town realizes you’re the reason we have that fancy Burn Unit at Royal Memorial?”
“Who told you that?” Justin yanked on his ear, a clear clue that he was feeling edgy. “And for the record, I do my share of tummy tucks and nose jobs. If you think I’m apologizing for that-”
“No one’s suggesting you need to apologize. If anything, you should take a bow. Some idiots think tummy tucks and boob jobs are about nothing but vanity. You’ve always been a women’s supporter for real, Justin. Reconstruction after cancer or a tumor can make a difference to a woman’s esteem…” Abruptly she stopped and waved that subject aside. She could have ranted on, but he was obviously trying to distract her. “Anyway, the point is-I’m not knocking the work you do. I’m only asking why you give the community the impression that you only take on spoiled rich women for patients, when in reality you donate a ton of your time to some of the worst burn cases over three states.”
“Hell.” He tugged on his ear again. “Who told you
“Shut up, Justin. I’m just trying to tell you…I know something’s wrong. Maybe it’s not my business. But once I started realizing how much you’ve changed since Bosnia, it just kept hitting me in the face. Obviously something serious has been bothering you. Something you don’t talk about. And I don’t know whether that wild-assed idea about marrying me could be part of that, but…”
As if she hadn’t been right in the middle of an important, serious conversation with him, Justin suddenly bolted to his feet and grabbed his jacket. Some instinct made Winona turn around in bewilderment, seeking some reason for his sudden behavior.
At the door to the diner, Willis Herkner was just ambling in. The jerk was still working for
“Justin…” she began, intending to question him, but just then Angel’s baby-blue eyes fluttered open and her rosebud mouth opened in a squeal. The first squeal was fairly sleepy and friendly sounding. The next one, Winona knew, wouldn’t be. The baby needed to be fed, bathed and rocked to sleep. Come to think of it, after this long day- so did she.
Justin, in the meantime, had lunged out of the booth and was zipping up. “You know what? Even when you were a belligerent, aggravating, sullen twelve-year-old, I realized this odd thing about you. You were never fooled by people’s bologna. You always saw past the cover story to the truth. I could never lie to you, Win, even when I wanted to.”
“Well…that’s good,” she said forcefully, and then hesitated. He’d seemed to mean a compliment, didn’t he? Only he’d managed to confuse her by the side comment. She organized the thoughts in her mind again, determined to get back to the point-there was something wrong, something bothering Justin, and she was determined to get him to talk about it.