“Well, of course,” he said. “That’s what this is all about, isn’t it? A couple of guys, getting together. Hashing over old times.” He laughed.
“So,” I said, “where?”
“Let’s not rush into this, no matter how eager you are to see me. You’re not being followed, are you?” The voice was somehow both light and heavy, insubstantial and menacing at the same time.
“You know I’m not.”
“And no wire?”
I leaned my head against the plastic and smelled my own sweat. “No wire,” I said.
“Peachy,” he said. “Just a couple of guys. Go to the park. Los Angeles and Second. Sit on a bench.”
“Los Angeles and Second. A bench,” I said into my second button.
“You were quicker in the old days,” the Incinerator said forgivingly. “A bench, you know? Something you sit on.”
“And do what?” I asked.
“And sit,” the Incinerator said. “Sit until the gods call for you.” He hung up.
The park at Los Angeles and Second was an open-air motel, a local branch of the Motel Zeroes that have opened all over America, patronized by those who can’t afford a bed with a roof over it. Most of the benches were full. Some of them were occupied by people who could still sit upright. Alice was parked half a block away.
For credentials, I’d visited the local brown-bag store and bought a gallon jug of Thunderbird. When I swung my bottom aggressively against the woman at the left-hand end of the bench closest to the curb, she said, “Hey.” I handed her the jug, which I’d already opened, and said, “Shhhhh.”
“You bet,” she said, taking the wrinkled bag and its contents. “How you doing, brother?”
“After you, sweetheart,” I said. “After you. Then I’ll be doing just fine.”
She opened the bag and swallowed many times. “Thunderbird,” she said appreciatively. “Sweet and awful. What do you want?” She handed the bag back to me.
“Just sitting,” I said, looking for cops. “What do you want?”
“A bath,” she said promptly. “I’d sell my soul for a bathtub with no drain in it.”
“Why no drain?” I said, pretending to drink from the bottle in the bag and then deciding what the hell and drinking quite a lot of it.
“Because I could get clean and die at the same time,” she said.
“You don’t want to die,” I said. It was just a reflex.
“Well,” she said, “I don’t want to die dirty.” She gave me a sidelong glance. She was cleaner than Hermione had been, but her gray hair hung matted at her shoulders. She wore an old man’s coat and somebody else’s skirt and nylon stockings rolled halfway down her calves. I felt like Beau Brummel. “How long you been out here?” she asked.
“Not so long,” I said.
Someone pressed something between my collar and the back of my neck. By the time I could turn around, he or she was gone.
“Man or woman?” I asked the old lady.
“Who?” she said.
“Keep the bottle,” I said, getting up.
“You got a tub or a shower?” she called after me.
THE DOOPERMART, the note said, in the glare of Alices’ overhead light. SECOND AND ALVARADO. YOU’LL LIKE IT. THE SOUTHERN DOOR IS OPEN. IT’LL BE NICE TO SEE YOU.
“It’s something called the Doopermart,” I said into my button. “I’m supposed to go in through the southern door.” My mouth was so dry that I could hear my tongue and upper lip clicking like billiard balls. “Let’s remember the rules, okay?”
Second Street took me across a long-disused stretch of railroad or streetcar tracks, lined with buildings of old, grimy brick, four or five stories tall, with faded signs painted on them and plywood over their windows. Once they had been factories, or vegetable warehouses, or even hotels. They all had the same dismal Edward Hopper rectangularity, the blind sadness of buildings with no one in them, buildings that have been given over to the tenancy of spiders and rats and warp and rot.
It was fully dark by the time I reached Alvarado, but it was still hot, and I was soaked in sweat. None of the buildings had lights on inside them, and the only illumination came from Alice’s headlamps and two streetlights, one that I was passing on the left, and one that gleamed in front of me. The one in front of me shone down on a big, low barn of a building with picture windows facing onto the street. The windows had been painted black. A market. Probably the last time it had seen life was in the sixties, when some counterculture entrepreneur had painted THE DOOPERMART across its front and set up business, selling whatever a Doopermart sold-organic vegetables, perhaps, incense, and macrame yarn.
A rutted and broken parking lot surrounded the building on three sides, faded paint lines indicating where the pigeons were to leave their vehicles before they went inside to get plucked. One of the sides of the building that faced the parking lot was the south side. There was, as the Incinerator had promised, a door set into the center of the southern wall, the only door or window to interrupt the blankness of the wall. It was ajar. I had to look at it, then close my eyes and look in its general direction without focusing to see that a very thin, pale light fell through it. The light was cold and chalky and not at all reassuring. It looked like the phosphorescence of decay.
Corruption, I thought.
“The door’s open,” I said softly to the wire. “There’s some kind of light inside. Not much, but enough to see.” I took five deep breaths. “Going inside,” I said.
Feeling like the only man in the world, I climbed out of the car. I caught myself shutting Alice’s door very softly, and then pulled it all the way open and slammed it. Let the man know I’m here. The door made a nice, sane sound, and I started across the asphalt toward the other door, the insane door.
The door was solid metal, painted, no window, and it opened in. I pushed it slowly, but even so I pushed too fast to avoid breaking the fine black thread that had been strung across it, about four inches above the floor. I saw it snap as I yanked the door back toward me, and then all the lights inside went out.
No, not all of them.
I banged the door all the way open and went in. One kerosene lantern, mounted high on a black pole, glowed in the center of the space, more or less directly in front of me. The interior was a single room, dark as fate in the corners and only very dimly lighted in the vicinity of the lantern. Rows of empty shelves stretched away from me in parallel. They were supermarket shelves, too high to see over. That’s a feature of supermarket design: Don’t let the customer see beyond the brand names that are nearest. Each aisle should be a new vista. Each of these aisles was certainly going to be a new vista, and I had a queasy feeling I was meant to explore every one of them.
Like readers of European languages everywhere, I headed left. We’re used to starting at the left. Then I realized what I was doing, stopped, and went to the right instead. Walking on the balls of my feet, I stepped into the aisle that was farthest right.
The upper edge of the shelf to my immediate left cut off the pale glow of the lantern. This aisle was almost entirely dark. Each one to my left would be slightly brighter as I worked my way toward the lantern in the center, and then they would get darker as I zigzagged toward the left side of the store, but this was the only one that mattered now, and it was as dark as the inside of my skull.
“Hello,” I said. My voice cracked.
Someone tittered.
From where? The titter bounced around the room. I couldn’t fix its direction. It probably came from the left, but it might have come from directly in front of me.
“Just a couple of guys,” I said in what I hoped was a friendly tone. No response. I had to go down the aisle, but I couldn’t bear the thought that I might walk right past him and not know it, and then he’d be behind me. The one thing I knew was that the titter hadn’t come from behind me. Nothing was behind me but the south wall of the building. I stretched my arms until I could touch the shelves on either side. My fingers encountered grease and dust and cobweb. It took everything I had to keep them out there, but one step at a time I walked the length of the aisle, slowly, arms outstretched, a human scoop hoping it wouldn’t scoop up anything that might decide to kill it.
When I got to the end of the aisle, a stroll that seemed to take half an hour, I pulled my arms in and laughed
