mind to seize it before I stepped through the door.
After so many months of searching and ignorance, I found my quarry with disarming ease. Mushid was sitting on a stool in the guardroom, his face fixed in concentration as he rasped a whetstone along the edge of his swordblade. He looked up in surprise as I burst in.
‘What is it? Has Kerbogha entered the city?’ He saw the spear in my hand. ‘Is this the holy lance which pierced the side of the prophet Jesus? Have you stolen it?’
I levelled the spear at him. ‘Put down your sword.’
His smooth features creased with concern. ‘What has come over you, Demetrios? Are you unwell?’
I jabbed the spearhead at his belly, and he jumped back in alarm. Fixing his stare on mine, he laid the sword on the ground with great deliberation. As he straightened, his face was clear and guileless as the sky.
‘Have you joined the Franks in their hatred of my race and my faith? Will you kill me in the name of your god?’
‘If I kill you, it will be your own doing.’
He held out his arms, like a priest administering a blessing. ‘I will not provoke you.’
‘You killed Drogo.’ The spear twitched in my hand as I said it.
‘I was Drogo’s friend.’
‘Then you betrayed his friendship.’
Mushid shook his head in slow sadness. ‘I honoured it to the end. I grieved for his death. Why do you accuse me, Demetrios?’
‘Quino. He has few breaths left in him, but there were enough for him to name you as the one who led them into sin and idolatry.’
Everything in the room seemed suddenly very still: Mushid, my spear, the light which pierced the slit window. When the swordsmith spoke again, his words were sharp and finely crafted. ‘You believe the single, dying word of a heretic Norman? A man from a race so full of hate for my own? The thought of an Ishmaelite left alive in Antioch must have tormented his soul, and so he has sent you, his willing accomplice, to finish the murder his countrymen have committed. Nor can I answer his charge, for doubtless if we go down he will be dead.’
‘He has not seen you, Mushid. He did not know you were here, or even alive. What would it profit him to name you?’
‘He knew I was Drogo’s friend. He hated me as an infidel. I am easy to blame – especially if he wished to hide his own guilt.’
‘He was about to die. There was no gain in deception.’
Mushid allowed a smile to break the tense set of his face. ‘There is much difference between dying and death.’
‘Not for Quino. You may say what you will, but you will not keep me from believing him. You befriended Drogo when his soul was troubled, and you offered him secret knowledge of ancient evils. You led him to the cave at Daphne, and you introduced him to the rites of Mithra.’
‘Mithra?’ Impatience began to rise in Mushid’s voice. ‘I have never heard of this Mithra.’
I remembered Quino’s words on the mountain. ‘You named him Ahriman.’
‘Ahriman, Mithra – I am a Muslim. It is forbidden to worship any god but Allah.’
‘As you yourself once told me, your faith permits things in war which are not otherwise allowed. Passing as a Christian among your enemies, for example.’
‘Only to a purpose. How would I gain if I introduced Drogo and Quino and their companions to the worship of false gods?’
Mushid was mocking me – I could hear it in his voice, see it in his sneering eyes.
‘How would you gain?’ I wondered. ‘You found them wandering in the wilds of heresy and doubt. Their friends and brothers had died; disease and famine ravaged their camp. The army faltered before Antioch, and so – it seemed – did their God. You came among them as a wolf among sheep; you preyed on their thirst for salvation. They were lost, and you promised them a way home. Instead, you took them over the precipice, into the abyss of apostasy whence they could not return. Once they had bowed down before Mithra, or Ahriman or whatever evil name you worshipped him by, they were beyond all hope of redemption. They were chained into sin, and you held the key.’
The sneer was gone from Mushid’s face. His gaze flickered past me, as if looking at something over my shoulder, but I did not turn to follow it. The door was shut behind me and I had not heard it open: there was no one there. Nor did I doubt that Mushid, the maker and wielder of swords, would be past my guard in an instant if I ever relaxed it.
‘Why did I do that?’ he asked. It was not a taunt this time. Perhaps he was curious to hear his deeds recounted to him, or to test my skill at guessing.
‘I do not know. I do not know who you serve. You are an Ishmaelite, yet you worked to betray the Ishmaelites who held Antioch, to their ruin. You are a Saracen, yet you mingle freely with Franks and Romans. Whose side do you take, Mushid?’
He laughed softly. ‘You see much, Demetrios – but only with the eyes of the
‘What is your faith?’ I asked.
‘It does not matter. I am of the minority – indeed, even in the minority I am of the minority. We are the few in the midst of the many. We walk in shadows and meet in secret and whisper in men’s ears. Yet our faith is pure.’
‘You oppose the Christians?’
Mushid rolled his eyes. ‘I am like you: I oppose whoever does not believe. I told you once that when you came into Asia Minor you blundered into an ancient game. Did it not occur to you that I too was part of that game?’
‘And Drogo and his companions? Were they part of it too?’ There was so much that I did not know, so many tangled questions, but at last my mind began to cleave a path through them. ‘Did you hope that by leading them into this unspeakable sin you would gain a hold by which you could govern them? That they would be your spies and agents in the Christian army? Did you kill Drogo and Rainauld when they refused you?’
‘Drogo was a willing adept. He refused me nothing.’
We were skirting the truth, I was sure of it. Mushid’s words had the manner of practised evasions, careful twists of fact, riddles. Even now, confronted with his deceit at the point of my spear, he played with me.
‘If Drogo did not refuse you—’
How to tell what happened next? From the wall behind me, I heard running footsteps approach. Before I could think, the door was flung open and Anna’s voice was shouting at me that Quino was dead. But I could not listen, for the arc of the opening door had caught the butt of my spear and wrenched it away, throwing me off balance. It was all the opportunity that Mushid needed. His blade was in his hand and he was past the tip of my spear, lithe as a tiger beneath his white robe. A stinging pain exploded in my head as the fist which grasped his sword thumped into my face, and as I reeled backwards I saw the blade driving for Anna. I was powerless to prevent it; she fell beneath his charge and did not move.
I scrambled to my feet and ran to the doorway. Mushid had not paused to savour his victory, had not even looked back on his handiwork: already he was in the far tower and descending the stairwell. There was a Varangian at its foot; I shouted to him to stop the Saracen, but even as he looked up to see who hailed him Mushid pushed past and sprinted into the alley beyond.
Fearful of what I might see, of finding something from which there would be no release, I lowered my gaze to where Anna lay at my feet. She was on her back, eyes closed; I could not see any blood, but I knew that meant little.
Her eyes blinked open.
‘Are you hurt?’ I could hardly bear to ask it, for fear of the answer.
