mash the pumpkin pie in his face than have him eat it, and stomped the thought down into my “Examine Later” compartment. That compartment was filling up rapidly today. Donnie put his hand on Franklin’s shoulder.
“Thanks so much for coming,” the new widower said. “It’s great to know our-my-fellow professionals are showing such support.”
Embarrassed, we all mumbled appropriate things.
“Tonia Lee would have been so pleased to see you all here. Mrs. Queensland was here this morning, and Mark Russell and Jamie Dietrich were here, and I see Idella coming in the door… this has meant so much to me and Tonia Lee’s mom. She’s had to lie down in the guest bedroom.”
“Do you have any idea yet when the funeral will be?” Eileen asked.
“Not for sure… probably next week sometime. I should be able to get Tonia Lee’s-remains back from the autopsy by then. Now, Terry-you be sure and come to the funeral.”
Terry looked considerably surprised. “Of course I will, Donnie.”
We were all shuffling around trying to figure out what to say when Donnie suddenly burst out, “I know you all will back me up with the police and tell them I couldn’t have hurt Tonia Lee! That woman detective seems to think I could have killed Tonia, but let me tell you”-suddenly he was breathing very fast and other people were turning to look at us-“if I’d been going to do it, I’d have done it long before this!”
Now
The room hushed, and everyone tried to find somewhere else to look. As if moved by one impulse, we all gazed at the ridiculous glamour photograph blown up to such huge proportions above the fireplace. Tonia Lee’s false smoldering eyes stared back at us. Her widower broke out in sobs.
This was undoubtedly a scene that would be forever enshrined in Lawrenceton folklore, but telling about it in a year would be a lot more fun than being here at the actual moment it occurred. We all looked at the front door longingly, and as soon as decently possible, the crowd began to flow out, washing the little cluster of realtors with it. Donnie had pulled himself together enough to shake the hands of those leaving.
I noticed quite a number of them managed to wipe their hands against their clothes, unobtrusively. I know I did.
An hour of reading the newest Joan Hess restored me. I may have dozed off a little, because when I looked at the clock, I found it was past time to get ready for Mother’s dinner party. I dashed up the stairs, took a very brief shower to freshen up, and stood in front of my open closet, faced with a sartorial dilemma. I had to look nice for Aubrey without having it seem as if I was looking my best for Martin Bartell. Well, that was treading a very fine line indeed. What would I have worn if I’d never met Martin? If I were just going to a dinner to greet a new person in town?
I’d wear my royal blue dress and matching pumps, with my pearl earrings. Too dressy? Maybe I should wear nice pants and a pretty blouse? I called my mother to find out what she was wearing. A dress, she told me definitely. But the royal blue suddenly looked boring-high-necked and vaguely military with its two rows of buttons up the front. Then I caught myself thinking of Martin, and I resolutely pulled the blue dress over my head. My hair crackled as I brushed it back and secured the top part over to one side with a fancy barrette. I popped in the pearl earrings, dabbed on a very little scent, and worked on my makeup until the doorbell rang. Before I went down to let Aubrey in, I examined myself in the full-length mirror I’d inherited from Jane. For the thousandth time, I regretted my inability to wear contact lenses, which I’d finally gotten around to trying the previous month. A corner of my mouth turned down. There I was, short, chesty, with round dark brown eyes and so much wavy hair. And round tortoiseshell glasses, and short plain nails with messy cuticles.
It came to me that in my life anything was still possible, but that time might be coming to a close.
Aubrey was clerical that evening-all in black, with his reverse collar. And he looked wonderful that way. He’d seen my dress before, but he still complimented me.
“That’s your color,” he said, kissing me on the forehead. “You ready? You know how I am about dinners at your mother’s. Did she hire Mrs. Esther?”
“Yes, Aubrey,” I answered with a mocking air of long-suffering. “Let me get my coat, and we’ll go tend to your appetite.”
“It’s really cold,” he warned me.
I kept my coats in a downstairs closet. I looked at them for a second before pulling out the new black one. It was beautifully cut, with a high collar. I handed it to Aubrey, who liked to do things like help me on with my coat, even though in my thirty years I’d had plenty of experience. I slid my arms in while he held it, and then he tenderly gathered my hair and pulled it out of the coat and spread it on my shoulders. That was the part he enjoyed. He bent to kiss my ear, and I gave him a sidelong smile.
“Have you seen your new parishioner lately?” I asked.
“Emily, with the little girl?”
There was something a little different in his voice. I knew it.
“Yes. She was in the office yesterday. She’s thinking about buying the house I inherited from Jane.”
I’d discovered Aubrey was interested in me the very day I found out Jane had left me her home and her money and a secret, one I’d never told Aubrey… or anyone else. Aubrey had always felt a little uncomfortable about Jane’s legacy, since his sensitive cleric’s antennae told him people had talked mightily about that strange bequest.
“It’s a pretty little house. That would be a good place to raise a child.”
Aubrey had that child on the brain. He hadn’t had any with his wife, who had died of cancer.
“I didn’t know you were fond of children, Aubrey,” I said very carefully.
“Roe, there’s never a good time to talk about this, so I’ll talk to you about it now.”
I swung around to face him. My hand had actually been on the door knob. I know I must have looked alarmed.
“I can’t have children.”
He could see from my expression that I was struggling for a response.
“When my wife began to get sick, before we found out what was wrong, we’d been trying, and I went in for tests before her. I found out I was sterile… and we found out she had cancer.”
I closed my eyes and leaned against the door for a second. Then I stepped over to Aubrey and put my arms around him and leaned my head against his chest. “Oh, honey,” I said softly, “I’m so sorry.” I stroked his back with one hand.
“Does it make a difference to you?” he asked me softly.
I didn’t raise my head. “I don’t know,” I said sadly. “But I think it makes a difference to you.” I turned up my face then, and he kissed me. Despite Aubrey’s principles, we came very close to falling over the edge then and there, at the end of our relationship. There was more emotion in back of our touching than there ever had been before.
“We’d better go,” I said.
“Yes,” he said regretfully.
We were silent all the way to my mother’s house on Plantation Drive. We were both a little sad, I think.
Chapter Six
MARTIN’S Mercedes was already parked in front of my mother’s house. I took a deep breath and exhaled it into the nippy air as I swung my legs out of the front seat of Aubrey’s car. He extended his hand and helped me out, and we went up the long flight of steps to the front door still holding hands. The glass storm door showed us the fireplace, lit and welcoming, and my mother’s new husband, John Queensland, standing in front of it with a glass of wine. He saw us coming and held the door for us.
“Come in, come in, it’s cold out tonight! I think winter is just about really here,” John said genially. I realized that he now felt at home in the house, he was the host. I, therefore, must be a guest.
This evening was beginning on several jarring notes.
My mother swept in from the kitchen. She could sweep even in quite narrow dresses; you’d think lots of
