told me, but I kept my mouth shut. The heart of it was that news of his death had finally reached his home planet, and a lot of Skoags were very upset. The way he said it, I didn’t know if the message had just taken that long to get there, or if the exiled Skoags had kept killing Lavender a secret. But I still kept my mouth shut. Anyway, the planet Skoags were going to send someone to look into it, and our government had agreed to cooperate fully. Including letting the Skoags talk to my mom and me. I felt like telling him it was up to us whether we met the Skoags. But I didn’t. He went on about how this was a real opportunity for humans to establish diplomatic relations with the Skoag planet, and it might be our first step toward deep space, and the United States could lead the way, and all that shit. Then he suggested the first thing we’d have to do was move.
That’s when I opened my mouth. “No,” I said, firmly, and was surprised when my mom repeated it, “No,” very clear.
He talked a lot about why we had to move. The Skoag ambassador or whatever was coming, probably within two or three years. (I was surprised they didn’t know exactly when, but they didn’t.) And we had to be somewhere nice, so the United States wouldn’t be embarrassed, and somewhere safe, so no terrorists would try to kidnap us or kill us, and somewhere more official, where advisers could tell us what to say to the Skoags.
He was still explaining at four in the morning, when Mom stood up, said, “NO” very emphatically, and then walked back to her bedroom and shut the door.
He stared at the door. Then he sighed and rumpled up his hair. “This is a big mistake,” he said. And he shook his head. “A damn big mistake that we’re all going to hate remembering. You’re going to blow it for all of us, kid, for the whole damn human race. Shit. Well, I guess we work around it, then.”
So he left.
For a while I lay awake, wondering if there really was danger, if our neighbors would turn on us or terrorists would bomb us. But then I decided that at least terrorists wouldn’t try to take Lisa away from me and put her in special school or a home while they treated Mom for being a gropie. That would happen for sure if they moved us, because there’d be no way to hide Mom’s addiction. That was why Mom said no, too. She was afraid of losing her Skoag slime source. As for me, I could never leave the only place I’d ever shared with Lavender. I stared at the spot where he’d died. The chalk marks were years gone, but I could still see them.
The government man was trickier than I thought. A month later our neighborhood was picked for Facelift Funding. All owners were given eighteen months to upgrade or lose the funding. So our walls got spraysulated and paneled, and they foamed the floor and put in carpet-heat and a tiny insta-hot unit under the sink. Then the old furnace room became part of our apartment, as a second bedroom.
The whole neighborhood changed. They jackhammered up squares of sidewalk and put in skinny little trees, and all the buildings got new siding. They hauled away the trash heap from behind the building, including our old linoleum. They put in a tiny fenced play yard, with organo-turf and big plastic climbing toys. They put flower boxes around the streetlamps. I hated it. They were trying to cover us up, trying to say, these aren’t poor people living in their own trash, these are nice folks like in the readers at school. The daddies and mommies have jobs, they go to church, and their kids drink white milk and eat brown bread. I hated it, but Lisa loved it. She kept picking the flowers and bringing them to Mom. Mom always put them in a vase, just like Lavender’s flowers. Sometimes I wanted to smash it.
I came home from school one day, and a moving van was just pulling away. Scared the hell out of me. Had Mom decided to move after all? Had she kidnapped Lisa and left?
But she was there. “Govamin,” she said disgustedly, and stood there like there was no place to sit.
All our old stuff was gone. Even the cupboards and fridge were different, and the cooker was huge, with hot beverage taps on the side. My couch was gone, the friendly smell of mice gone with it. The new one matched the fat chair beside it. The stereo was about as big as a loaf of bread, but it was a real wall shaker. There was a vid- box, a keyboard console, and a minidish. Guess the government wanted us to look good.
The new bedroom had twin beds with a dorky little screen between them, like I hadn’t been bathing Lisa since she was born. Lisa was bouncing on her bed already, looking like a kid in a catalog. I caught her as she jumped, and for just a second, as she came down in my arms, she looked just like Mom. Exactly. Same hair, same eyes, and I knew it was true, she was Mom’s clone and would look just like her when she grew up. Except that her hands and cheek would never be scarred. I set her down and she ran to Mom and hugged her around the knees. And we stood there and looked around, like there was no place left for us.
So they thought they changed us, so we wouldn’t shame the United States when the Skoag came. But they didn’t change the fat Skoag’s secret Wednesday visits, or Mom’s blank humming. The chalk lines were still there, and I could see them right through the carpet. And our neighbors still didn’t talk to us.
We waited. One year. Two years. More Skoags came but not the Skoag we waited for. Three years. Someone wrote a big article in the paper that the whole thing about a Skoag ambassador coming had been a scam, a hoax. The fat Skoag told me the truth. He’d come. He’d talked to the ones that killed Lavender. And he’d agreed it had been necessary. He hadn’t wanted to talk to humans at all.
The carpeting got worn spots, and Lisa scribbled on the new paneling and Mom couldn’t get it off. Four years. Graffiti on the buildings, and beer bottles in the flower beds. We forgot about the government and the government forgot about us.
Lisa was seven, nearly eight. We were walking home after a day at Gasworks Park. I was worrying because a letter had come from the school. Someone had turned us in, had reported that a child in our home was being deprived of an equal education. If Lisa didn’t go to school, they’d cancel the aid checks. We couldn’t get by without the aid checks. I didn’t know what the hell to do. I was thinking about running away with her. I was fifteen, nearly old enough to get work somewhere.
A bunch of Skoags were jamming on the corner, same old thing. I kept walking. I never listened to Skoags anymore. I was a block past them before I realized Lisa wasn’t with me. I ran back, but it was too late.
All she was doing was listening. Eyes big, lips parted, listening like she always listened to music. The Skoags were playing some old Beatles thing. There were a few tourists, a few hecklers, the usual mix, and the Skoags were playing and Lisa was listening.
Then all of a sudden they stopped, their membranes all swelled out, and they all looked at her. Colors washed through their crests, bright colors, and they started making a sound, an incredible sound like Jesus coming in the sky on a white horse to save us all. It got louder and louder. Skoags started coming out of buildings, flipping down the sidewalks, and as soon as they came, they started making the sound, too, and colors started racing through their crests. They surrounded Lisa, pushing to get closer, all making the sound. It was a glorious Alleluia sound, and Lisa loved it. She glowed, and her eyes were huge. I shoved my way in there. I grabbed her hand and I dragged her out of there, past Skoags who reached for us with shining flippers. I snatched her up and ran all the way home and locked the door behind us.
The next day our street was packed so full of Skoags that cars couldn’t pass. Silent Skoags, standing and swaying on their big flat flippers, but not making a sound. Staring at our building. Copters flew over, and the film was on television, but the news people had no idea what was going on, they just “urged inhabitants of the affected neighborhood to stay inside and remain calm while officials determine what to do.”
It lasted for two days. The streets packed with Skoags, our door locked, and my heart hammering the whole time until I thought my head would blow up. Suspecting, almost knowing.
On the third day, I woke up to a sound like birds harmonizing with the rush of ocean waves and the laughter of little kids. The sound had been part of a very good dream I was having, so when I woke up and still heard it, I wasn’t really awake. Then I realized what had wakened me. A smaller set of sounds. A chair being pushed across the carpet to the door. The chain being undone. I jumped out of bed.
The street was empty, almost. There was only a gray government sedan, and the same government man who had come four years ago. And a big, big Skoag, with a tall purple crest. He was singing the harmonizing bird song, and Lisa was walking straight toward him. She was smiling and her hair was floating on the wind. Like a dream walker. Then the Skoag opened his mittened flippers to her, and she began to run.
I screamed her name, I know I did, but she didn’t seem to hear me. The Skoag picked her up, and I was still running down the street as they all got in the car. The government man gunned it and they were gone.
And that’s the end of the story. Almost.
Mom was standing in the doorway, crying. The tears went crooked where they met her scars and flowed around them.
“Go after her!” I screamed. “Get her back. They just took her.”
