Sean stared at the office door, then reached out and ran his hand over the block letters painted on the window. 'Quinn Private Investigations,' he murmured.
He'd found the small office space in Southie last month. The building was on a main thoroughfare and his second-floor office had a window that also boasted the name of his new business, a nice way to advertise that he'd moved in.
Sean hadn't expect to rent the office so quickly. Though his savings had barely covered the first three months' rent, he hadn't let that stop him as it had in the past. He'd learned an important lesson from Laurel. Waiting until the perfect moment for your dreams to come true was a waste of precious time.
He and Laurel were so different. She met life head-on and fearlessly, unafraid of making mistakes. And he'd always been so careful, so measured and wary. She'd shown him how to go out and take a gamble, accept the risks and just jump off that cliff. There would never be the perfect time to start building the life he wanted, so why not start right away?
Sean sat at the desk he'd salvaged from the basement of Olivia's antique store and kicked up his feet. He'd already found one new client, a small armored-car company that needed independent background checks done on its employees. And he'd had a few walk-in clients since he'd opened his doors, two deadbeat dads to track down and a runaway daughter.
But there was one part of his life that he hadn't quite squared away yet. He sucked in a deep breath and let it out slowly. Laurel. He knew from Amy that her grant had been approved and that she'd purchased the building in Dorchester. He also knew that she'd moved back to the mansion. But all his information was secondhand or hearsay. He hadn't talked to Laurel since the day he'd walked out of the house in Cohasset.
The first week after his 'marriage' had ended, Sean was sure he'd done the right thing. Though he'd spent all of his idle time thinking about her, he'd hoped those thoughts would gradually fade. But when they hadn't by the third week, he began to realize that maybe they never would. Hell, if this wasn't love, he didn't know what was.
A soft knock sounded on his office door and he swung his feet off the desk and stood. When he pulled the door open, his mother stood on the other side, a huge plant in her arms.
'Ma,' he said, grabbing the plant. 'What are you doing here?'
'I brought you an office-warming gift. A plant always brightens up any decor.'
'How did you know where to find the place?'
'It's all everyone's been talking about at the pub. Your da's been passing out your business cards like free beer on St. Paddy's Day.'
Sean grabbed a stack of newspapers from the seat of an old wooden chair and dusted it off with his hand. 'Have a seat.'
Fiona smiled, pleased by the offer. 'This is a nice office. Lots of light.' She glanced around. 'When your da and I first moved to Southie, there used to be an accountant's office here.' She shook her head. 'That was a lifetime ago. So, this is a big step, isn't it? Your own office.'
Sean nodded and sat. 'I have stationery, too. When I do my reports they'll look really official. And look at that.' He pointed over his shoulder. 'I've got a fax machine and a computer. I bought the fax secondhand from Rafe, and Brian gave me his old computer. I'm even thinking about getting a Web site. And when I have enough money, maybe a secretary.'
'You've got everything you need,' Fiona said.
'Yeah.' Sean paused. 'Well, not everything.'
A long silence grew between them, Fiona fussing with a loose button on her sweater and Sean tapping a pen on his desk.
'What happened with Laurel?' she finally asked.
Sean shrugged. A month ago he could barely stand to be in the same room with his mother and now he felt comfortable enough to confide in her. Jeez, it was hard to believe he was the same guy. 'I don't know. It just ended-as quickly as it began. No reason. Or maybe we just didn't have a reason to keep it going.'
'Did you argue?'
'No, we just walked away. Maybe if we'd had a few more weeks together something might have happened. But we were barely together for a week. People don't fall in love that fast.'
'Your father and I did,' Fiona said. 'The instant I saw him I knew I'd marry him. He felt the same way. That happened a lot in Seamus's family.'
'And look at what hap-' Sean snapped his mouth shut. 'Sorry. I didn't mean to-'
'No,' Fiona said. 'You're right. Sometimes love at first sight doesn't work out.' A slow smile curled her lips. 'Oh, but sometimes it does. We never know until we try.'
'I don't want to make a mistake. I don't want to spend my life like Da, bitter and angry, full of resentment.'
'Your father and I let that happen to us,' Fiona insisted. 'We were both too stubborn to admit our marriage was in trouble. He didn't want to face his failures and I refused to believe I couldn't help him. Sometimes I wonder if we'd just sat down back then and talked to each other, really talked, whether things might have been different. Can you talk to this girl, Laurel?'
'I can talk to her like I've never talked to anyone. Even Brian. I can say anything to her-except maybe how much I love her.'
'You love her,' Fiona said.
'I do.'
'Then why are you sitting here in this office telling me?'
Sean smiled ruefully. 'Maybe when I figure that one out, I'll know what to do.' He furrowed his hands in his hair, pressing his palms against his temples. 'I should go see her.'
'I think that would be best,' Fiona said.
'Now?'
'Why not? There's no time like the present.'
Sean pushed up from his chair and paced back and forth across the width of the tiny office. 'All right. I'm gonna do it. I'm gonna tell her. And if she doesn't love me, then I'll deal with it.' He hurried to the door, then stopped and walked back to his mother. 'Thanks.'
'You're welcome,' she said.
Just as he got to the door, Fiona called his name. 'Wait, I nearly forgot the reason I came,' she said. 'Two weeks from Saturday we're having a family get-together at Keely's house. About five in the evening. She and Rafe are all moved in and they'd like everyone to be there.' Fiona met his gaze. '
'I'll be there,' Sean said, anxious to leave.
'You will? Do you promise?' He nodded. 'I promise.'
'You can bring Laurel,' she said.
Sean nodded, impatient to get going. 'We'll see. Could you write the date in my book there, on the desk? And lock the door as you leave.'
His car was parked half a block away. By the time he pulled out into traffic, he'd decided to try Dorchester first. Amy had told him that work had begun on Laurel's building and she'd been consumed with the details. If he got lucky, he'd find her there. He considered calling first, but the element of surprise would work to his advantage. If she wasn't in Dorchester he'd head out to the mansion in Cohasset.
As he drove, Sean practiced what he was going to say, knowing he'd probably only have one chance to get it right. This was the single most important moment in his life and he didn't want to mumble and bumble his way through it. 'I love you,' he murmured. 'Laurel, I love you. I love you more than…' He cursed softly. 'No, just keep it simple.'
But what if she questioned his declaration? What if she asked him why he loved her? God, he wished he had Brendan along-or Brian. They'd always been so good with words. They'd be able to tell him exactly what to say to make her believe him. Sean reached into his jacket pocket for his cell phone, then thought better of the idea and tossed the phone onto the seat beside him.
'Why do I love her?' He took a deep breath. 'One. I love her because she's the strongest person I've ever known. Two. Because she can see inside my soul. Three. Because when she looks at me, I feel like the luckiest guy
