Nyx limped back toward the boxing ring. The others trailed her. She stood over Nikodem and gently nudged her body over with one foot. Anneke had shot her at least three times in the chest. Hard to tell with all the blood. A few paces away, Rasheeda’s twisted body still lay on the floor, and at the far corner of the ring, Dahab lay in a pool of blood.
“We need to clean up these bodies,” Nyx said, turning toward the others. As she did, she saw their faces change. They were all at least three paces from her: Rhys next to Anneke, who had the chamber of her gun open as she cleaned it, Khos close enough to spit at, his grim face on the ring.
“Nyx—”
She didn’t know which of them said her name first, but the startled looks on their faces made her swing back and stare into the ring.
Jaks stood with Dahab’s rifle in one hand, her other hand clutching at her bloody throat.
No, Nyx remembered, it hadn’t been the best cut.
Jaks had her point-blank. The rifle would blast a hole in Nyx’s torso big enough for Anneke to put her head through.
Nyx opened her mouth. At least she could try to give off some last witty thing. Something grimly optimistic.
Somebody else shot first.
Nyx jumped at the sound and grabbed at her chest, but it was Jaks who collapsed into the ring.
From the darkness on the other side of the ring, a woman stepped toward them, rifle in hand, a kid slung over her back. She was a pale ghost in the dim light.
“In Ras Tieg,” Inaya said, “we bury our bodies. We know when ours are dead.”
37
They had one last thing to do.
Nyx sat with Jaks’s body, in the ring. Rhys stood next to her, still holding his gun, as if he’d forgotten it wasn’t a part of him. Khos and Inaya stood along the ropes, and Anneke was looting the dead below.
“I want to burn the lab,” Nyx said.
“What lab?” Anneke said, looking up from Dahab’s splattered body, bullet necklaces in hand.
Rhys sighed. “Nyx, what’s—”
“Nikodem never did get into the Chenjan stuff, but she’ll have some Nasheenian information here that no Chenjan needs to find. Fatima and Luce were working with the council to make sure none of Nasheen’s secrets got out of the country. That’s why they were tracking us. I don’t think they know about Rasheeda and Dahab or even the black part of the council they were working with. I don’t want any of our stuff here either, so burn it.”
Rhys stared at her.
Anneke loaded her gun.
Inaya’s kid cried.
Khos shrugged. “This is the last thing I do for you, Nyxnissa,” he said.
“I won’t ask anything else,” she said. “You still have those transmission transcripts she talked about, Rhys?”
“Raine had them.”
“Then hopefully the desert has them,” Nyx said.
Nyx couldn’t make the walk back to Nikodem’s lab. Instead, she stayed in the waterworks and cut the heads off Jaks and Dahab. By the time she started sawing at Rasheeda’s, her fingers were trembling and sweat blurred her vision. She stopped hacking and crawled back into the ring next to Jaks’s headless body. She pressed her forehead to the cool organic matting.
It was a bit like praying, she supposed. She felt as if she were sinking into the ring, surrendering to it. Maybe that’s what it was to surrender to God: to just let everything go, to give it all up. Submission to God meant a submission of one’s desires, of one’s will, to God’s will. Maybe that’s why surrender, submission, scared her so much now—it felt too much like dying, and she’d had enough of dying. She wanted to live.
God, she wanted to live.
She heard someone approach and looked up.
Anneke walked toward the ring, wearing a pale tunic and tattered burnous, both too big for her, but she’d found a belt somewhere and tucked a couple of pistols into it and slung Dahab’s bullet necklaces over her head. Her feet were still bare. In one hand, she carried a burnous stuffed with Nikodem’s head.
“You ready, boss?”
Nyx could smell the smoke.
“Yes.”
Anneke helped her down, and they walked to the door. Khos and Inaya and Rhys came after them a few moments later and the five of them—and Inaya’s kid—stepped through the halls of the waterworks and out onto the street.
Outside, the world was stuck in the hazy blue half place between darkness and dawn. Though there were no streetlights, Nyx saw the outline of everyone’s faces in the dim.
“You have the bakkie, Khos?” she asked.
He handed over the keys.
“I can’t drive,” she said, looking at his outstretched hand. “Why don’t you drive?”
“We’re not going with you,” Khos said. “I have some friends picking us up.”
“You and Inaya heading out?” Nyx said. “I wouldn’t have renewed your contract anyway.”
“I’m going with them,” Rhys said.
Nyx started. “What?”
Dawn crept up on them, bled across the eastern sky, the first rays of the blue sun.
Rhys reached out and almost touched her face. The gesture was so strange and unexpected that she jerked away from him.
He smiled thinly, dropped his hand. “You won’t be able to get me back over the border, Nyx.”
“You’re wrong, I—”
“Nyx, don’t,” Rhys said.
“I know some people who are very good at getting people over the border,” Khos said. “I’ve been helping them out a long time.”
“The whores,” Nyx said.
“The underground, yes,” Khos said.
“So you’ll meet me at the keg?” Nyx said, and her voice broke. She wasn’t even sure why. She just choked on the end of her sentence, like it hurt.
“We’re going to Tirhan,” Rhys said.
“I have a son in Tirhan,” Khos said. “And some contacts.”
“I can get you all amnesty,” Nyx said. “From the queen. That’s what this is all about. Money and amnesty.”
“No, it’s not,” Rhys said.
“You signed a contract with me—”
“And it wasn’t a writ of sale!” Rhys said, biting. She saw his jaw work. He looked away from her, then back, and relaxed his posture. “Good luck to you,” he said, and she remembered how he had looked at her as she pinned Yah Tayyib, as if she was some kind of monster.
Maybe she was.
A bakkie turned onto the street, illuminated by the blue wash of first dawn.
The group instinctively took a step back into the doorway.
“That’s Mahrokh,” Khos said. “I know her bakkie.” He touched Inaya’s shoulder tentatively. She looked up at him. There was something in her face too, but Nyx didn’t understand it.
Khos hailed the bakkie, and it stopped. A veiled woman leaned out. Khos opened the back door.
