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Then he heard the singing.

And saw them, in circles around himself, their faces smiling, marveling at his passage among them.

He saw the ranks of angels, the sky filled with them, singing in the gray light. Darker as his thoughts ended, his head filling with nothing, his fall pulling the last bit of himself away. But still he heard them singing.

NINE

He tried to wake up, then tried harder not to, to go back under the thick woozy dark. But it was too late: he’d already met the pain, the bruised layers that seemed to be piled in wet razor slices from his spine to his breastbone.

“Jee… zuss… Christ.” He heard himself say it, a distant whisper under the wobbling roar inside one ear. Something inside him, which had been part of him but had been shaken loose, wanted to throw up; he could feel it swelling against the root of his tongue. He’d have let the thing have its way, if he’d known which way he was. If upside down, it probably wasn’t a good idea; he remembered distant warnings about aspirated stomach contents – you could die that route.

Already, he’d assumed he was still alive. The frayed connection between the aches throbbing in sync with his blood and the trembling flinch inside his head – that was what it must mean. Dead, he wouldn’t feel this bad.

He opened his eyes. The right eyelid stuck, then peeled open like a stiff zipper. Sky, pinkish around the edges of distant clouds. Seen through a tangle of his own hair, matted black with sweat or blood. He shook his head, gingerly, little needles jabbing at the back of his skull. The dark lines swayed against the cloudscape. Right side up. He could work that much out.

His jacket and shirt had been torn open; looking down, chin against his chest, he saw raw bruises, his ribs stenciled in ink blue, a red abrasion at the edge of his hip bone for balance. He could see his chest rise with each breath, and match it with a particular rhythmic stab near his heart, unseen but felt like a knifepoint. Definitely alive; that confirmed, he almost regretted it. The throbs rolled their dull weight along his spine. He was amazed, under the numb protective wooze.

He remembered hitting the wall, at the end of the transit cable’s snapping rubber band. And then falling, the big step. Either one of those should have done the job. He lifted his arm, elbow creaking, and rubbed his hand across his face, letting more light slide under the stiff red fringe. The palm of his hand was red, too, in zebra bands with black grease and dirt. Its sticky wetness smeared across his cheek.

Grease – that made him think. Of the other poor wayfarer, his traveling companion, which had also gone smack against the wall, the louder clanging of metal against metal. It was probably the Norton’s grease on his hands – hadn’t he grabbed after it as it’d gone spinning away, half to save himself, to grab anything solid and mother- familiar in the empty air curling under his head and feet, half to save it, poor thing? He couldn’t remember. He just saw it rolling away again, in a flat arc toward the atmosphere’s crumpled edge, the wheels bent into bowl-shaped ovals, the grappling lines writhing helplessly around the hubs, frame snapped broken-back and the engine leaking bolts and scraps. The sadness of the memory, the last sighting, bubbled up and broke inside his own leaking chest. You idiot – on the verge of tears, he realized that he’d yet to feel anything except pain and grief connected with his discovery of still being alive.

“Way to go.” Axxter opened his eyes again. There were probably all kinds of shit to take care of, if he was to go on living. He knew he couldn’t just stay nailed to the wall.

For the first time, he wondered what exactly was holding him up against the building. His familiar nausea – another sign of life – knotted in his throat as he looked down and saw the cloud barrier roiling against the building’s curve, far below his feet. His boot pithons had snugged in tight, locking his heels and ankles against the metal, boot soles otherwise treading on air. The same for his waist, the lines from his belt fanned out and contracted, his butt flattened against Cylinder; the steel’s cold radiated down the backs of his thighs and into his coccyx.

But there was something else, not alive the way the pithons were. And thicker, a raggy thing of shredded canvas and plastic, knotted around with multicolored wires, their stripped brass ends poking out of the crude rope. He could see it now, looped up through his crotch and across his chest, the sharp bits tickling the raw bruises, a tangled knot sitting on his shoulder, as if the wires were probing for a socket in his ear. Somebody had tied him up here, knitted the awkward rope as a thin saddle for his weight; somebody who didn’t trust the skinny little pithons, who didn’t know just how strong they were – if they’d given out, lost their hold on the wall, he doubted if this straggling mess would have kept him from pitching headfirst down to the clouds. He could feel it parting, the rags and wires slipping out of each other’s clutches, just from his leaning forward to look at it.

The makeshift rope continued from the knot at his shoulder to a loop around his wrist, his right hand lifted above his head. He looked up to see if there was enough slack to pull his hand free. He saw her then, watching him.

“Hello. Hi.” Lahft smiled at him, her eyes sleepy, as though his fumbling around had roused her from a snoozing vigil. “Hi-Ny-hi.” The angel’s smile grew bigger.

Axxter rolled the back of his head against the wall to see her better. A triangular section of the wall’s metal had peeled away from the girder beneath, making a shelf just large enough for her to perch on; her bare legs dangled on either side of the protruding steel tongue. “Hi there.” He nodded and managed a weak imitation of her smile. Now he knew who had knotted the rope around him. To keep him from falling again.

His hand came loose, and he shook the blood back into it. He remembered more now. Falling, and the motorcycle and sidecar spinning away, the Havoc Mass warriors toppling on down toward the clouds…

The clouds. The angel’s big smile disappeared for a moment; all he saw were the luminous gray-and-white banks, the slow ocean of hills and crevices, rushing up toward him.

There had been angels. He remembered that, too. Rows and rows of them, in all directions, in the twilight shade under the cloud barrier. The inflated spheres behind their shoulderblades like muted sunbursts, the traceries of veins all soft blue in the half-light, lace into ash. All around him, in every direction he turned, rolling on his back in air, arms spread wide as he fell, the wind along his ribs, breath solid in his mouth…

That was the last thing that he remembered. There wasn’t any more after that. He saw Lahft again, leaning forward, her hands gripping the edges of the peeled metal, waiting patiently for him.

“Okay.” Axxter nodded. “I get it. You… caught me. When I came falling through. Right?”

She looked away, considering the statement. The little wheels were almost visible inside her skull.

“Caught.” She pursed her lips, staring out toward the edge of the atmosphere. “Falling…” Her eyes suddenly widened in alarm; she reached down and grabbed Axxter’s wrist, locking it tight in her grip.

“No… no.” He gently tugged his hand free. “I’m not falling now. I was falling then. Remember?”

“Then…” Her face clouded with effort. Bright joy broke through: “Catch! Caught!” She hugged herself, pressing some invisible body to her breast. “Caught you then!”

The angels’ elastic sense of time, first a point too small to be seen, then a rubber ball that filled a hand, but never any more than that. Axxter reached down and tugged the makeshift rope away from his chest. “Yeah, well -” It explained a lot of things. She must’ve been hanging around, the way she had been, outside the Mass camp’s firing distance, when all the shit had come literally down. Or else she’d been consorting with her buddies, all happy angels together, underneath the clouds. And it’d just been his good luck to come crashing through the soft roof of their world, right at the best of all possible spots. At any rate, she’d been there for him; had put the grab on him, a great big hug – he wished he could remember that part; battered as he was, the nude body perched above him, the bare pink feet dangling inches away from his face, still twinged the other living part of him. Incorrigible; he sighed and shook his head. The rope parted, and he dropped the two ends swinging away from him. He twisted about, boots freed for a moment until the pithons took hold in their new positions. Face and chest toward the wall now; he let out the lines from the belt, so that he could lean back in relative comfort and look up at Lahft.

“Caught me, right. Okay…” Bit by bit, pieces fitting together. “Christ, I must’ve hit you like a ton of bricks.”

She tilted her head, the smile puzzled.

“When I hit you.” He slammed one hand into the other to demonstrate. “When you caught me. Boom. Then what happened?” Wasting time, he knew. There was a bunch of shit he should be taking care of, rather than just poking into the exact mechanics of his continued existence. Like finding out where the hell he was, and if it was