back.”
“Or he might not. Stop worrying. We’ll find out when we reach him.”
She was silent. “No, I can see you’re not worrying.”
He opened his eyes. “I’m not stalling so that we’ll lose him, Catherine. We can afford this rest.”
She studied his expression, then settled back against the tree beside him. “I know we can. I know all the rules about conserving strength and all that bull. It’s not a code-red situation. Danner has a destination, and he’s not mistreating Eve yet.” She added through her teeth, “But we’re not there, dammit. And this is Eve.” She drew a deep breath. “Okay, forty-five minutes. Though I’d be a hell of a lot more relaxed going full tilt after Danner. I don’t understand why you don’t feel the same way.”
“I do. I can’t tell you how much I need this to be over.” He closed his eyes again. “But this is the right thing to do, Catherine. I feel it.” And that feeling was tugging, nagging at him with increasing intensity.
Stop. Rest. Sleep.
“Well, I don’t feel it.”
“And you’re so damn tense that you’re about to break apart.”
“I’m not. I wouldn’t-” She suddenly broke off as he pulled her into his arms so that her cheek lay against his shoulder. “What are you doing, Gallo?”
He wasn’t sure. It had been an impulse. “Nothing carnal… I don’t think.” Though his body had responded the minute he had touched her. Block it. This wasn’t the moment.
Something else was coming that was far more important.
And where the hell had that last thought come from?
Stop. Rest. Sleep.
“Relax. I just want to hold you.”
She was still taut and resisting. Then she was suddenly relaxing, her body flowing into his.
That heat and hardening again.
Block it. Not now.
“Why, Gallo?” she muttered.
“I don’t know. I just want to hold you. I want you to be calm and… with me.” His hand was gently stroking her hair. “Your hair smells good.”
“You’re a little crazy, Gallo,” she muttered.
“So I’ve been told.”
“I can’t remember anyone ever wanting to just… hold me.”
“And considering the fact that you’re one totally desirable lady, you may never experience it again.”
She was silent a moment. “This is important to you, isn’t it?”
“It’s important.”
She shrugged. “I don’t understand it, but I guess it’s okay.”
“Even though you believe I’m a bit wacko.”
“People need different things at different times.”
“Close your eyes, Catherine.”
“They are closed.”
And he could feel the muscles of her body relaxing. “Forty-five minutes, Catherine.”
“You already said that.”
But she was quiet now, and his own body was still and no longer needing her. He could feel her strength but no disturbance. That was how it should be. That was how he knew instinctively that it had to be.
He could go on now…
* * * IT WAS HOT IN THE DARKNESS and he could smell his own sweat.
He opened his eyes and saw the manacles fastened to the wall and the dirty straw on the stone floor.
His heart jerked in panic.
He knew this place, this cell. Prison. North Korea.
The pain.
“I’m sorry. It will go away. I’ve never tried to do this kind of dream, and I’m not very good at it. I brought you in at the wrong time.”
Bonnie. Red curls shining under the light flowing into the darkness from the barred window, wearing jeans and a Bugs Bunny T-shirt. Sitting beside him in the darkness. As she had visited him all those other times during the seven years he was in prison.
And the pain was suddenly gone.
She smiled. “I told you so. The stink of this place is bothering you. I can take that away, too.”
“I thought… Oh God, I thought I was out of here.”
“And you are. I’m sorry. It won’t be for long.” Her smile faded. “I didn’t want to bring you back here, but it was the only way that I could be sure of reaching you. It was the only strong familiar time we shared. I had to be sure that I was here with you quickly. But this is only a dream. That time is all over. It’s only a dream.”
He drew a deep breath as the panic almost faded. “Or was that other time a dream, and is this reality?”
She smiled. “I promise you.”
Peace. Love. Bonnie.
A dream, just a dream of that nightmare place, and even the nightmare was gradually being shaded with strands of light. He could almost hear the sound of the songs she used to sing to him in this hellhole. “I thought I’d killed you, Bonnie. It wasn’t true, was it?”
“No, I tried to tell you. But you wouldn’t listen. I couldn’t get through to you.” She smiled. “All you wanted to do was jump off that cliff.”
“And you wouldn’t let me.”
“No, that’s never the way. It messes up everything.” She leaned back against the wall and looked around the cell. She whispered, “This is a terrible place. When I found you here, it made me so sad. You were so brave and strong, and they were hurting you. I wanted so to help you. I wanted you to know you weren’t alone. I wanted you to believe that someone cared about you.”
He remembered the dreams of Bonnie that had kept away the pain and made him fight to live. “You did help me.”
A brilliant smile lit her face. “I’m glad. I thought I did.” The next moment, the smile had vanished. “I’m slipping away. I have to talk quickly.”
“Slipping away?”
“I’m usually pretty good at this dream stuff, but I’m having to divide up my concentration now. I can probably only hold on for another few minutes.”
“Then why did you come?”
“I had to tell you something.” She added gently, “And you’re hurting. I had to let you know that I’ll try to help you.”
“Eve. Forget about me. Can you help Eve?”
“I’m trying to get near her. That’s why I had to use a dream to reach you. I have to use most of my effort trying to reach her. He keeps pushing me away. He’s so strong right now.”
Fear iced through him. “Will he hurt her?”
“I hope not,” she said soberly.
“Dammit, don’t you know?”
