cracked lips, she understood. Quickly she dragged over a small kettle of cool water and from it pulled a buffalo horn fashioned into a large spoon, which she used to slowly pour rivulets of life past his parched lips, blessed drops washing across his dry tongue, spilling into his throat.
In the end he had strength enough to nudge the horn spoon aside and turn his face away, closing his eyes once more. How he wanted to do nothing but sleep that night, for a few moments thinking just how sweet it would be to wake up in the dim light of early dawn, finding her naked beside him in the quiet stillness before first light … to awaken and find that all of this was nothing more than a dream. So sweet was it to imagine the feel of that freedom from the pain of his body, so real was it to feel her steamy flesh against his—
Scratch nearly came off the buffalo-robe bed, his back arching in sudden, unexpected, excruciating pain.
“I’m sorry!” she cried out to him in Ute.
He looked at her in surprise, perhaps some disgust, then peered over at his shoulder. The deepest wound had begun to bleed freely again. When he looked back at her, Bass, found in her hands the rough ball of moss-green lichen dripping water and some of his crusted blood in the narrow strip of pounded dirt there between the robe bed and the fire pit.
“Damn you, Fawn,” he growled in English. “That hurt like hell!”
“I’m sorry,” she repeated again in her tongue.
Then it suddenly hurt him that he had lashed out and hurt her. His foggy, pain-crazed mind cleared, like a wind blowing away wisps of thick mist. “You were cleaning me?” Bass inquired in Ute.
“Yes. I need to open the wound, to clean it well before I can put my plants in it.”
“P-plants,” he stammered. Just the thought of any more scrubbing on the deep, jagged gashes … the prospect of anyone probing down into that torn, ugly, purple muscle was enough to make his head ache and spin as it was.
“Plants,” she repeated, dragging up a large soft-skinned bag to lay across her lap as she sat there beside him, her legs tucked to the side in that way of a woman. Holding back the large flap, Fawn pulled several smaller pouches tied at their tops with thongs, then retrieved two wooden vials, at the top of which were stuffed wooden stoppers.
“You put your plants in my wounds?”
She nodded, biting her lip between her crooked teeth as if she knew for certain herself what pain that announcement must cause him.
“Your husband—you used your plants for him?”
Her eyes immediately dropped to her hands in her lap, shuffling absently some of the pouches and wooden vials. “No. I did not have a chance to try healing my husband. He was dead when they returned his body to our village.”
How he wished he could trade places with one of the others right now, even simpleminded Billy Hooks. Staring up at the spiral of poles laced within one another at the top of the lodge, Titus hurt of the flesh from his wounds, hurt of the heart for what pain this woman endured.
“As I told you before, I won’t die,” he repeated, this time in Ute.
“Your wounds, they are terrible.”
As much as he did not want to look, Titus turned his head slightly and peered down at them. And quickly looked away. They were ghastly. Long ribbons of flesh torn asunder by the sharp, tumbling knives on that Arapaho war club. If nothing else was done for them, he was sure someone would have to attempt pulling the edges of the flesh together once more.
At least that is what his grandpap, even his own pap, had done for animals who suffered tragic accidents or falls. Stuffing some moist, chawed tobacco down into the edges of the wound before using a woman’s sewing needle and thread to draw things shut. Perhaps even some spider’s web at the edges of the laceration, if one could find such a thing back in the corners of the cabin or barn. His mam claimed it helped in drying out the edges of the wound, helped the flesh knit back together as it dried. Healing the most natural way possible. Something folks on the frontier took in stride and Bass had always taken for granted.
The way a Chickasaw arrow was cut from the meat of Ebenezer Zane’s leg. Or the way Beulah had bound up Hames Kingsbury’s ribs, then prayed over him till he was healed. Or the many times the blackened but steady hands of Hysham Troost had laid poultices on wounds Titus brought home from the Wharf Street watering holes, drawing out the poisons until it was time to pull the flaps of skin together with some of Mother Troost’s sewing thread.
But never had he laid eyes on anything near as terrible as this.
“Leave it be, Fawn,” he told her softly as his eyes closed. “Just cover me now and let me sleep.”
He felt her drag a wool blanket over him, gently laying the corner over that bloody shoulder and upper arm. Then she pulled a buffalo robe over that. The weight of it felt reassuring there as he began to drift off again into that netherworld somewhere between healthy sleep and what fitful unconsciousness the mind conjures up in its attempt to escape the brutal trespass of pain.
The last he remembered was the coolness of her hand and the roughened touch of the damp lichen she held in her fingers, brushing back the long, unkempt hair from his forehead and the sides of his face. Cool water, as she continued attempting to put out the fire of that fever she was certain was already on its way.
Somewhere in the darkness he was certain they were jabbing hot pitchforks into his side. Scooping a huge shovel filled with smoldering coals into his ears, one after another, so that his head filled with smoke and steam and unbearable heat, searing the back of his eyes, choking him with the rising torture.
How he thrashed and shuddered, kicking violently at the blankets and the robe, flinging them from his body until the pain reminded him of the wounds and he came close to wakefulness—enough to recognize just where and how much he hurt—fully expecting as he opened his eyes into pain-weary slits that he would see the tiny demons who were Old Lucifer’s cloven-hoofed minions gathered in a tight ring all about him, jabbing at him with their instruments of interminable death.
Oh, how he had listened in childlike rapture to the wandering pastors who had circled back and forth across the length of Boone County when he had been young. Their breath smelling of fire and brimstone, each one invariably continued to preach to the family who invited them back to their land after church service for a home- cooked meal and a warm place to sleep over the Sabbath night before the circuit rider moved on the next morning.
But Scratch did not find Lucifer there at hand. Nor his diminutive demons. Nonetheless, as he lay there in Fawn’s lodge, he believed the old bastard himself had just taken his leave of the place—hot as Bass was. For the love of a cool dip in that pond back home right about now. Even to have someone rub some snow on his burning skin right now.
Where was she?
“Fa … Fawn?”
He barely heard his own voice croak her name. Then he called out again, this time trying to force it, make it louder. She was there almost immediately—the sound of her coming through the door flap, the shadow of her holding the bail of the kettle in one hand, setting it on the low flames with a sputter.
“Water,” he demanded in English, rubbing his dry, cracked lips. “Water.”
She understood the word, the gesture, and sank to her knees at his side with the horn spoon, scooping up his head within an arm, pulling him up gently and pressing the spoon against his lips.
“The fire,” she declared quietly as most of the water dribbled from the corner of his mouth, “the fire burns you up from inside.”
“Fire,” he repeated in a tortured croak. “Put out the fire, Fawn.”
He closed his eyes to the tears of pain, to the drops of sweat running off his brow, to the dancing shapes of hideous reality flickering on the lodge skins, and tried to think back to that first Rocky Mountain snow last autumn as the high country began to cool and the aspen quaked in the breeze that carried on it the prophecy of winter. So cold and dry were the flakes that he caught them on his sleeve, on a blanket mitten, then blew them off like a sprinkling of ash. Cold, white ash landing on his face, tangled in his eyelashes, melting on his tongue. Like no snowflakes he had ever tasted back east along the Missouri, farther still in Kentucky—
The moment something was pressed against his lips, Titus opened his eyes again into narrow slits. He could see the movement of the woman so near that he heard her tiny bursts of breath coming fast and shallow. Slowly she poured the liquid against his parting lips. Bitter, so bitter a taste that he coughed, sputtering, spewing it from his mouth as he turned his head.
