he was crazy.
When the sun comes out I’ll have to leave.
Two nights ago I saw PLYR kill that woman and now I’m here. Weird. And I didn’t even try; it just happened.
I was weaving between Sunset and side streets, passing so many restaurants my nose was stuffed with food smells, guys in red jackets parking cars, people laughing. My stomach was still full, but my mouth started watering.
I had no idea where I was going to end up, just knew I couldn’t stand still. I came to a part of Sunset that looked fancier-shinier people, huge billboards advertising movies and clothes and liquor. Then more clubs, more big fat guys standing in front of the door, arms folded over their chests.
The club where it happened was called A-Void, on a dark corner next to a liquor store, painted black with all these black rocks glued to the front. The fat guy there smoked and looked bored. No one was trying to get in. A plastic sign over the door advertised the bands who were playing: Meat Members, Elvis Orgasm, the Stick Figures.
The liquor store was open and a guy in a turban was sitting behind the register. I thought about buying some gum, taking other stuff, but he looked suspicious at me when I stepped through the door so I left. Just then, this tall skinny guy with really long fuzzy black hair and pimples came out of A-Void carrying some drums, ran over to a black van parked around the corner, opened the back door, and put the drums in. The van was full of dents and scrapes, stickers all over the side. He didn’t lock it.
He made two more trips and then he went back inside and stayed there.
He never locked it.
The fat guy had gone inside, too.
I slid around the corner, looked in the van’s passenger window. It had only front seats; the rest was storage.
I opened the door. No alarm rang.
All I found on the seat was junk-candy wrappers, empty cans and bottles, pieces of paper. Maybe the radio, if I could sell it-how do you take one out?
Then I heard voices and saw the skinny guy standing on the corner, his back to the van. Talking to a short girl with yellow hair with a pink streak through the middle of it. She might’ve seen the van if she looked at it, but she was paying attention to him. It looked like they were arguing. He turned.
Too late to jump out.
I jumped in, closed the door, threw myself in back, and hid behind the drums. They were half covered by this thick sheet of black plastic and I got under it, knocking my bones against metal. It really hurt; I had to bite my lip not to cry out.
The plastic was cold and smelled like bleach.
The back door opened again and the van shook as something landed near me.
Slam. Another slam.
I heard the girl’s voice from up front: “You guys were hot.”
“Bullshit.”
“No really, I mean it, Wim.”
“We sucked and everyone knows we sucked, so don’t bullshit me-did you bring my jacket?”
“Uh… sorry, I’ll go back and get it.”
“Shit! Get in there fast!”
Another open and slam.
Cough. “Fucking witch…” The motor went on and the metal floor beneath me started to vibrate and I tried to hold on to something so I wouldn’t roll, but the drums were round and I didn’t want to make noise so I pressed against the floor like a spider.
The radio went on. He tried a bunch of different channels, said “Fuck this shit!” turned it off.
A rubbing sound, then a click, and I smelled something familiar.
Weed. Back in the trailer I went to sleep with my nose full of it, wondering if it would give me brain damage.
Slam. “Here you go, honey.”
“Do you know what that is? Lambskin from fucking Mongolia or Tibet or some place. And those nailheads are, like, hammered by hand and put in by blind peasants who say special prayers or something-I gave my fucking blood for that, and you leave it in there! Shit!”
“I’m sorry, Wim!”
They both smoked. No one talked. The motor was running, and I was just pressing my fingers to the floor, trying not to move or breathe, wondering where this was going to take me. No way out, because the drums blocked the back door.
At least it was warm.
She said, “Gimme another taste-ah, that’s good shit.”
“Hey, don’t give it a blow job-give it back.”
“Where you wanna go, Wim?”
“Where? Europe-where the fuck do you think? Home, I need to crash.”
“You don’t wanna go over to the Whiskey?”
“Fuck no, why would I wanna do that?”
“You said-remember?”
“Huh?”
“Before we left we were talking, you know, maybe like afterwards we’d check out the Whiskey, someone you know might be there, maybe you’d jam-”
“That was then, this is now… someone I know. Right. Knowing is fucking bullshit. Doing is the name of the game and tonight we did fucking nothing- man, I can’t believe how bad we sucked. Skootch was, like, brain-dead and that guy in the second row I’m pretty sure was maybe from Geffen and he left early-fuck, I’m gonna die without being famous!”
“You will be fam-”
“Shut the fuck up!”
The van started moving, going awhile-south-then turning right, which meant west again. Wim drove angry, speeding, making sharp turns, fast stops.
It took a while for the girl to talk again. “Hey, Wim?”
Grunt.
“Wim? What you said before?”
“Whuh?”
“About not giving head to the joint? But there are other joints, right?” Giggle.
“Yeah, right, I had a triumphant night and now I’m ready to be romantic-just shut up and let me get us home-I can’t believe how bad we sucked!”
After that no one talked at all.
I tried to follow each turn, drawing a map in my head, but with all those turns I lost track.
Finally, he stopped and I thought, I’m cooked. He’s going to get his drums, find me, take his anger out on me.
I felt around under the plastic, wanting something to swing with, touched cold metal, but it wouldn’t come free. Totally cooked.
Open. Slam. Footsteps. That got softer. Disappeared.
I got out from under the plastic. The van smelled like one big joint.
It was parked on a quiet street full of apartments.
I climbed into the front seat, unrolled the window. This could be anywhere. Maybe he’d even taken me back to Hollywood. The air outside was cold, so I crawled in back again, managed to pull the black plastic sheet loose, folded it, tucked it under my arm, returned to the front, and got out.
A new smell.
Salt. A fishy salt.
