Dark, mildew-smelling place. She took a penlight from her purse, switched it on, revealing grooved rock walls, sloping rock ceilings. A June bug, momentarily paralyzed by the light, came to its senses and scampered for cover. Other insects wiggled in the corners of the cave-spiders and whatever. Ignoring them, Nightwing crawled to the far end, showing him her ass under her microskirt, the line of black panties splitting the cheeks. There was a filthy- looking army blanket wedged near the wall. She lifted it, dragged out a cheap vinyl suitcase and opened it.
Watching her practiced movements, seeing the suitcase, he knew she'd been there before, thousands of times, with thousands of other men. Had shared the secret place with them, but not him.
Stupid, unfeeling cunt! After all he'd done for her, she hadn't trusted him enough to show him her little hidey-hole. Not until thousands of others had come up here first, filling her with their lies and their scuzzy jizz.
The last straw. Be casual.
'What's in the case, babe?'
'To-oys.' Licking her lips.
'Let's see them.'
'Only if you promise to be a good bo-oy.'
'Sure, babe.'
'Prom-ise?'
'Promise.'
The 'toys' were predictable: novelty-shop SM props, the stuff seen in the ads at the back of fuck books- whips, chains, spiked boots, an oversized black dildo studded with bumps, a leather domination helmet with straps and buckles all over it.
Yawn.
She put on the boots, lifted her legs to give him a beaver shot while she did it.
Double yawn.
Took off the mesh blouse, put on a leather bra with holes cut out for the nipples.
Borrring.
Then she pulled out the hat. Black silk Nazi officer's hat with a shiny black brim, the SS death's-head insignia above the center of the crown. Under the grinning skull, the double lightning bolts that stood for:
Schwann-Schwann.
'Where'd you get that? Babe?'
'Some-where.' Leaning close and running a long-nailed finger down the side of his arm, thinking she was turning him on when all she was doing was shoving hot needles into his flesh.
Putting on the hat. Raising her arm in salute.
'Heil, Nightwing! Da dum, da dum.' Putrid smile. Bad German accent: 'Vont me to poot it on ven I do you, little Adolf? I giff grreat hat!'
Keep cool. Stay in control. 'Sure, babe.'
'Hey, feel that! You like this Nazi shit, don't you? Thought so.' Salute. 'Heil blow-jobs!'
Touching him, unzipping him.
'Look at me, Fraulein Adolfa Titler, ready to suck you all the way to the Fourth Reich. God, you're hard. You really love this, don't you? I found your thing!'
He could have done her the same way he'd done Fields and the nigger, but that was wrong. She deserved better.
Gluing his jaws together, fighting back the noise, acid tears, he said: 'Sure do, babe.'
She gave a death-eating smile, went down.
They went to the cave three more times after that. The third time, he put sheets, soap, a bunch of water bottles, and the knives in the trunk of the car. The dope was in her purse. He knew from her leg tracks that she'd developed a heavy Jones. Wasn't surprised to find out she was carrying blatantly, disobeying him. Because that was the way a junkie functioned. As addicted to sneakery as the needle.
When he pulled her works out of her purse, she was scared shitless. Relieved-grateful-when he didn't get angry.
Downright orgasmic when he said, 'No sweat. I've been too uptight about your getting off, babe. You want to fix, go ahead.'
'You're sure?' Already breathing hard.
'Sure, babe.'
Before he finished talking, she'd jumped on the works, was panting, fixing, smiling, nodding off.
He waited. When she was totally out of it, he walked back to the car.
The morning after his last date with Nightwing, he woke up with a new sense of purpose, knowing he was ready for bigger and better things. After he'd touched himself to the accompaniment of new real science pictures, he went to work at the hospital, delivered the mail to the Surgery Department, and cornered Doctor in his office.
'What do you want?'
