waiting for widowhood. Then he remembered that Schlesinger had been in Dachau and the age difference took on a different context: Wife number one murdered by the Germans, perhaps a couple of kids gone too. Come to Palestine, fight for your life, and start anew-a familiar story; plenty of his moshav neighbors had gone through the same thing.
Were the two of them childless? Maybe that was why she looked so unhappy.
She'd gone into the kitchen and was drying dishes. He followed her in.
'What did you mean by 'never'?'
She turned around and faced him. She inhaled and her bosom heaved impressively. She noticed Shmeltzer looking at her and covered her chest with her dish towel.
What an interview, thought Shmeltzer. Very professional.
'My husband is in the hospital. I just got back from there. He's got cancer all over him-in the stomach and the liver and pancreas. The doctors say he's going to die soon. Weeks, not months.'
'I'm sorry.' What an inane thing to say. He'd hated it when others head said it to him. 'How long has he been ill?'
'For a week,' she snapped. 'Does that give him a good enough alibi?'
'Gveret Schlesinger-'
'He told me the police suspected him-some Yemenite accused him of being a murderer. A few days later he had cancer!'
'No one accused him of anything, gveret. He's a material witness, that's all.'
Eva Schlesinger looked at him and threw her dish down on the floor. She watched it shatter, then burst into tears, knelt, and started to pick up the pieces.
'Careful,' said Shmeltzer, getting down beside her. 'That's sharp-you'll cut your hands.'
'I hope so!' she said and began grabbing at the shards quickly, automatically, like someone batch-sorting vegetables. Shmeltzer saw pinpoints of blood freckle her fingers, pulled her hands away, and brought her to her feet. He steered her to the sink, turned on the tap, and put the wounded fingers under the water. After a few seconds most of the bleeding stopped; only a few red bubbles persisted. Small cuts, nothing serious.
'Here,' he said, tearing a piece of paper towel from a wall-mounted roll. 'Squeeze this.'
She nodded, complied, started crying again. He guided her into the living room, sat her down on the couch.
'Something to drink?' he said.
'No, thank you, I'm fine,' she whispered between sobs, then realized what she'd said and started laughing. An unhealthy laugh. Hysterical.
Shmeltzer didn't know what to do, so he let her go on for a while, watching her alternate between tears and laughter, then finally growing silent and covering her face with her hands. She started to mutter, 'Yaakov, Yaakov.'
He waited, looked at the blood-speckled paper towel wrapped around her fingers, the view of the desert from the living room window. A good view, rocky crags and pinhole caves, but architecturally ths French Hill complex made no sense-towers on top of a mountain. Some developer bastard fucking up the skyline
'He had pain for years,' said Eva Schlesinger. To Shmeltzer it sounded as if she were accusing him, blaming him for the pain. 'He was always hungry-he ate like a wild animal, a human garbage disposal, but was never satisfied. Can you imagine what that felt like? They told him it was in his head.'
'Doctors,' commiserated Schmeltzer. 'Most of them are jerks. How's your hand?'
She ignored the question, leaned her uninjured hand on the coffee table, and tossed out words like machine- gun bullets: 'He tried to tell them, the fools, but they wouldn't listen. Instead they told him he was nuts, said he should see a psychiatrist-head doctors, they're the biggest nuts of all, right? What did he need them for? His stomach hurt, not his head. It's not normal to have pain like that. It doesn't make sense, does it?'
'Not at all-'
'All they want is to keep you waiting for hours, then pat you on the head and tell you it's your fault-as if he wanted the pain!' She stopped, pointed a finger at Shmeltzer. 'He was no murderer!'
Shmeltzer saw the fire in her eyes. The bosom, moving as if imbued with a life of its own.
'Of course he wasn't-'
'Don't give me your double talk, Inspector! The police thought he was a murderer-they blamed him for the Arab girl. They killed him, put the cancer in him. Right after the Yemenite accused him, the pain started to get worse! What do you think of that? Nothing helped it-even food made it worse! He refused to go back and see more doctors. He was gritting his teeth and suffering in silence-the man's a rock, a shtarker. What he's been through in his life, I won't tell you-he could take the pain of ten men. But this was worse. At night he'd crawl out of bed-he had an iron constitution, could take anything, and this pain made him crawl! He'd crawl out and walk around the apartment groaning. It would wake me up and I'd go out and find him, crawling. Like an insect. If I went to him he screamed to me, told me to leave him alone-what could I do?'
She pounded her fist on the table, put her hands on her temples, and rocked.
Shmeltzer considered what to say and decided to say nothing.
'Such pain, it's not right, after what he'd been through. Then I saw the blood, from all ends-he was urinating it and coughing it up and spitting it. The life was flowing out of him.' She unwrapped the paper towel, looked at it, and put it on the coffee table. 'That's what happens to people-that's what happens to Jews. You live a good life, work hard; then you fall apart- everything comes out of you. We had no kids. I'm glad they're not here to see it.'
'You're right,' said Shmeltzer. 'You're hundred percent right.'
