young bones ground up as grist for someone's mill.
I turned and walked back to the elevator.
The third floor of the hospital housed the bulk of the administrative offices, which were shaped in an inverted T, paneled in dark wood, and carpeted in something the color and consistency of moss. The medical staff office was situated at the bottom of the stem of the T, in a glass - walled suite with a view of the Hollywood Hills. The elegant blonde behind the desk was someone I hadn't counted upon seeing, but I straightened my tie and went in.
She looked up, contemplated not recognizing me, then thought better of it and gave me a regal smile. She extended her hand with the imperious manner of someone who'd been at the same job long enough to harbor illusions of irreplaceability.
'Good morning, Alex.'
Her nails were long and thickly coated with mother - of - pearl polish, as if she'd plundered the depths of the ocean for the sake of vanity. I took the hand and handled it with the care it cried out for.
'Cora.'
'How nice to see you again. It's been a long time.'
'Yes it has.'
'Are you returning to us - I'd heard you resigned.'
'No, I'm not, and yes, I did.'
'Enjoying your freedom?' She favored me with another smile. Her hair looked blonder, coarser, her figure fuller, but still first - rate, packed into a chartreuse knit that would have intimidated someone of less heroic proportions.
'I am. And you?'
'Doing the same old thing,' she sighed.
'And doing it well, I'm sure.'
For a moment I thought the flattery was a mistake. Her face hardened and grew a few new wrinkles.
'We know,' I went on, 'who really keeps things together around here.'
'Oh, go on.' She flexed her hand like an abalone tipped fan.
'It sure ain't the doctors.' I resisted calling her Of Buddy.
'Ain't that the truth. Amazing what twenty years of education won't give you in the way of common sense. I'm just a wage slave but I know which end is up.'
'I'm sure you could never be anyone's slave, Cora.'
'Well, I don't know.' Lashes as thick and dark as raven feathers lowered conquettishly.
She was in her early forties and under the merciless fluorescent lighting of the office every year showed. But she was well put together, with good features, one of those women who retain the form of youth but not the texture. Once, centuries ago, she'd seemed girlish, hearty and athletic, as we'd thrashed around the floor of the medical records office. It had been a one - shot deal, followed by mutual boycott. Now she was flirting, her memory cleansed by the passage of time.
'Have they been treating you okay?' I asked.
'As well as can be expected. You know how doctors are.'
I grinned.
'I'm a fixture,' she said. 'If they ever move the office, they'll pick me up with the furniture.'
I looked up and down her body.
'I don't think anyone could mistake you for furniture.'
She laughed nervously and touched her hair selfconsciously.
'Thanks.' Self - scrutiny became too unsettling and she put me in the spotlight.
'What brings you down here?'
'Tying up loose ends - a few unfinished charts, paperwork. I've been careless about answering my mail. I thought I received a notice about overdue staff dues.'
'I don't remember sending you one but it could have been one of the other girls. I was out for a month. Had surgery.'
'I'm sorry to hear that, Cora. Is everything all right?'
'Female troubles.' She smiled. 'They say I'm fine.' Her expression said that she thought 'they' were abject liars.
'I'm glad.'
We locked gazes. For just a moment she looked twenty, innocent and hopeful. She turned her back to me, as if wanting to preserve that image in my mind.
'Let me check your file.'
She got up and slid open the drawer of a black lacquered file cabinet, and came up with a blue folder.
'No,' she said, 'you're all paid up. You'll be getting a notice for next year in a couple of months.'
'Thanks.'
'Don't mention it.'
She returned the folder.
'How about a cup of coffee?' I asked casually.
She looked at me, then at her watch.
'I'm not due for a break until ten, but what the hell, live it up, huh?'
'Right.'
'Let me go to the little girls' room and freshen up.' She fluffed her hair, picked up her purse and left the office to go into the lavatory across the hall.
When I saw the door shut after her I walked to the file cabinet. The drawer she'd opened was labeled 'Staff A - G.' Two drawers down I found what I wanted. Into the old briefcase it went.
I was waiting by the door when she came out, flushed, pink and pretty, and smelling of patchouli. I extended my arm and she took it.
Over hospital coffee I listened to her talk. About her divorce - a seven - year - old wound that wouldn't heal - the teenage daughter who was driving her crazy by doing exactly what she'd done as an adolescent, car troubles, the insensitivity of her superiors, the unfairness of life.
It was bizarre, getting to know for the first time a woman whose body I'd entered. In the scrambled word game of contemporary mating rituals, there was greater intimacy in her tales of woe than there had been in the opening of her thighs.
We parted friends.
'Come by again, Alex.'
'I will.'
I walked to the parking lot marveling at the ease with which I was able to slip on the cloak of duplicity. I'd always flattered myself with a self - assessment of integrity. But in the last three days I'd grown proficient at sneak - thievery, concealment of the truth, bald - faced lying and emotional whoring.
It must be the company I'd been keeping.
I drove to a cozy Italian place in West Hollywood. The restaurant had just opened and I was alone in my rear corner booth. I ordered veal in wine sauce, a side order of linguini with oil and garlic, and a Coors.
A shuffling waiter brought the beer. While I waited for the food I opened the briefcase and examined my plunder.
Towle's medical staff file was over forty pages long. Most of it consisted of Xeroxes of his diplomas, certificates and awards. His curriculum vitae was twenty pages of puffery, markedly devoid of scholarly publications - he'd co authored one brief report while an intern, and nothing since - and filled with television and radio interviews, speeches to lay groups, volunteer service to La Casa and similar organizations. Yet he was a full clinical professor at the medical school. So much for academic rigor.
The waiter brought a salad and a basket of rolls.
I picked up my napkin with one hand, started to return the file to the briefcase with the other, when something on the front page of the resume caught my eye.
Under college or university attended, he'd listed Jedson College, Bellevue, Washington.
