lotus position for at least an hour.
'It's time we were going,' he said. She stood up, more slowly than he had, and when she looked around she saw his head disappearing down the hill. He descended the rough terrain with the ease of a cross-country runner, leaving her to pick her way among the rocks and bushes and wonder if she had heard him correctly, and if so, what he could have meant by 'not just symbolic'.
Rather to her surprise, he was waiting for her at the bottom of the hill, the very picture of a man in deep thought as he stood with head bent and hands clasped behind his back. She came to a halt, not before him as a suppliant would but next to him so he had to turn his shoulders as well as his head to shoot her his piercing glance.
'Ana,' he pronounced, 'a little knowledge is a dangerous thing.'
She couldn't resist. 'Learning,' she said, and for the first time she saw Steven Change disconcerted. He blinked.
'I'm sorry?' he demanded, impatient at her apparent non sequitur.
'A little learning is a dangerous thing; Drink deep, or taste not the Pierian spring:
There shallow draughts intoxicate the brain, And drinking largely sobers us again.' That is,' she added,'supposing you were referring to Alexander Pope. It's a common misquotation, and granted it's a subtle distinction, but as an English teacher, I feel obligated to be pedantic.'
God, she thought, in a minute I'll be waving my cane and calling him a young whippersnapper. 'I admit, though, that I've often wondered what a Pierian spring is.' Actually, she knew quite well what the word referred to: an area in Macedonia where the muses were worshiped, it was used as a classical romanticization of learning. Steven did not seem to know this, however, and merely allowed his ruffled feathers to be soothed by her disarming admission.
'In either case, having an insufficient command of a path of learning can be hazardous,' he said firmly, and began to walk again. She fell in at his side.
'A person has to begin somewhere,' she protested.
'Very true. And in some cases, personal exploration that allows for random discoveries and spontaneous growth is for the best.' He paused, choosing his words carefully—or perhaps considering how much to tell her. 'However, with the ideas that lie at the heart of Change, such unguided stumblings are more likely to result in disaster than in enlightenment. There are immense forces at work here; a misstep can be very dangerous, for you personally and for those around you.'
Ana looked at the unrevealing side of his face, wondering uneasily if that had been a threat. She reached across with her right hand and laid it on his arm, stopping him and causing him to face her. No, there was no explicit threat in his eyes that she could see, just great seriousness. There was nothing to do but grab the ball and run, and see where it took her.
'Are you telling me that you are doing alchemy here?' she asked bluntly, an unfeigned edge of incredulity in her voice. 'Is that what you're saying? That I mustn't mess around in things I don't understand because I could, in effect, blow up the laboratory?'
He stood for a long time studying her. Finally he said, 'Yes, I am.'
'But—you're not talking about real alchemy,' she said. 'Not furnaces and alembics and actual gold.'
'The Philosopher's Stone,' he said reverently. He put his hand up to his collar and reached inside for the sturdy gold chain he wore and pulled at it. Up came the chain, and on the end of it a gleaming drop of pure soft gold about the size of a small marble, an uneven shape smoothed by years of wear under his clothing.
She reached out a finger to touch it and drew back. 'You mean—'
'I created this, under the guidance of my own teacher. Three of us here have transformed lead into gold, and twelve have transmuted silver.'
Ana sat down abruptly on a convenient boulder. She did not have to feign astonishment; the man clearly believed. If she was any judge of charlatans at all, this man, this trained scientist, truly believed that he and who knows how many others had actually changed the atomic structure of one metal into another. Nothing metaphorical about it; 'not just a symbol,' indeed. A phrase from the other book she had been reading came vividly to mind: 'The Middle Ages did not have a monopoly on credulity.' She did not think Steven would care much for that quote.
Suddenly, all the oddities she had noticed about the upper echelon of Change fell into place: the calloused hands and hard muscles on men and women who rarely worked out of doors; Suellen's day-long absence, to reappear exhausted, famished, and glowing with an inner light; the small burn on her arm, very like Amelia's large and oddly placed scar, more easily explained by nearness to an open flame than to a cook stove. Alchemy was hard labor around hot flame—and glass: the tiny scars on Daniel Carteret's face could easily have come from an exploding glass vessel.
She drew in a breath and blew it out between puffed cheeks. 'Wow.'
'Alchemy has been a secret doctrine for millennia, precisely because of the value of this.' He held out the pendant, letting it swing back and forth in the gesture of a stage hypnotist before he caught it up and tucked it back under his collars. 'Alchemists who created gold were doing so as a by-product and an objedification of the internal transformation they were undergoing, but the gold was nonetheless there. That's why they welcomed and encouraged the skepticism, even ridicule, of the outside world—it kept them safer.
'But even without the external threat from greedy men, Ana, alchemy has always been a dangerous occupation. Explosions in laboratories were common when chemicals were heated carelessly. Impatience, Ana. Impatience is the killer of the would-be alchemist. You have it in you to do a great Work, Ana; I can feel it. But you must submit to guidance. You have to work slowly, or it will all blow up in your face.'
There was the threat again, but still she did not feel any malice behind it. Instead, Steven gave her a smile of great sweetness and wisdom, and then rose and walked away. She watched him go, watched him shrink into the distance and finally leave the road and disappear behind a building. Then she herself rose, turned and walked out into the desert.
She was gone for seven hours, long enough for people to notice her absence and approach Steven about it. She walked out into the scrub, down into the dry wash and out again before she turned up to the hills that lay a few miles off, and there she sat and thought and came to some uneasy decisions.
Ana rarely outstepped the bounds of her role during the course of her investigations. Her success depended on blending in, on being who she appeared to be and acting strictly as that person was expected to act, at all times, until she even thought as that person would. Her means of gathering information was more along the lines of passive receptivity than picking locks in the dead of night. Not only did illicit snooping scare her shitless, it was too dangerous to her investigation. From the very beginning, Glen positively forbade it (even as he taught her the rudimentary skills) not only because it was a threat both to her personally and to the continuation of the case, but because anything she discovered was apt to be contaminated or otherwise rendered useless as evidence: The FBI took its rules of evidence very seriously indeed.
However, this case didn't seem to be going like any of the others, and Ana did not know what to make of that. Anne Waverly kept intruding into her thought processes at the most inconvenient times, and this seemed to be one of them: Anne badly wanted to know what was behind Change.
During the course of that long day in the dry hills, Ana gradually shed her reluctance. She needed to know what Steven had up his sleeve; she had somehow to shortcut the lengthy initiation process involved in any esoteric teaching; she itched to see what he was hiding; but mostly she wanted to convince herself that Steven did actually believe that he had made gold, and was not using the pendant he wore as a subtle joke along the lines of the claim he had made to levitate up to the red rock viewing platform.
Also, she admitted to the flock of small gray birds that had settled around her, Steven's superiority grated on her. Ana liked to win as much as the next person, and during these investigations it pleased her, tickled some deep part of her nature, to know that she held the upper hand—even if her opponent never found out about it and the only person to appreciate her was Glen. Steven was a prig and it would be a pleasure to undermine him; that alone would be justification enough.
Most important, though, was the niggling suspicion that there was something funny about Change. She caught the thought and it made her laugh aloud, startling a small desert iguana that had settled down near her boot. Come on, Ana: what could possibly be funny about a community whose belief system was based on the
