many as possible-I think to fill the void as the old ladies pass on. He’d be lost if any of his houses were quiet.”
Clarice was nodding. “I have three brothers, and I did wonder how Jack would manage with the unaccustomed noise, but he seems to thrive on it-apparently, if it’s
They laughed and continued to talk of this and that, sharing experiences, inquiring as to Emily and Gareth’s relationship, and touching on what she expected of their marriage. This was exactly the type of feminine discussion she’d wanted and needed.
By the time the first gong sounded, and the three of them climbed the stairs and parted to go to their rooms to dress for dinner, she had a much firmer grasp of the dynamics of married life-specifically the sort of married life she wanted. With the help of the other two, she’d defined her holy grail-the vital elements that, if they were present between her and Gareth, would guarantee the type of future she wanted.
Gentlemen, as her hours with Leonora and Clarice had confirmed, could not be expected to achieve this shining goal alone, by themselves. They needed help in emotional matters, guidance. She would need to steer and prod and nudge, but she was sure that Gareth would, indeed, want the same style of marriage she had set her heart upon.
Entering her room, she found Dorcas laying out her other evening gown. While she dressed, they chatted of household matters. When she sat on the dressing stool and Dorcas brushed, then started pinning up her hair, they fell silent, and her mind returned to its principal preoccupation.
Perhaps that was what she sensed Gareth was still uncertain over-the specific style of marriage she wanted. Especially for a man like him, a warrior who had spent so many years out of society, he would be feeling his way. Given his background, he would have far less experience of marriages of any sort than she.
They would need to sit and talk-but when?
They might have another day here, in relative safety, yet his mission still hung over his head-and hers, too. She retained a personal interest in seeing poor MacFarlane avenged. And once they set out again…the last thing she would want was to distract Gareth, or herself, with thoughts of something so deeply absorbing as marriage.
That issue deserved, indeed demanded, their full and undivided attention.
So…not yet. She would use the time to better define her ideas and visions, and find the best words with which to describe all she now longed for, all she believed they could have.
“There.” Dorcas tapped the top of her topknot and stepped back. “You look just as you ought.” She met Emily’s gaze in the mirror. “But I warn you, if we stay here much longer, you’re going to run out of evening gowns.”
Later that night, as she climbed into her bed, Emily envisioned the reaction if she appeared clad in the begum of Tunis’s version of an evening gown.
The thought made her smile; even now she could barely believe she’d had the courage to don the scandalous outfit.
When Gareth arrived to join her, he found her in a pensive mood. “Penny for your thoughts,” he said as he climbed into the bed beside her.
She let herself roll into his arms, an action she delighted in every night-mostly because he caught her so readily, settling her against him as if she belonged there. “I was just thinking…while on our travels I did things I would never imagine doing-would never have the courage to do here, in England.” Wriggling around, leaning an elbow on his chest and rising up, she regarded him through the shadows. “Have I lost my courage, now I’m home?”
His smile was slow and infinitely warming. “No-never. Your courage is a part of you-you can’t lose it. And adjusting to social reality, knowing and understanding what you can and can’t do without risking ostracism-that’s a strength, not a weakness.”
After a moment, she smiled back. “I hadn’t thought of it like that.”
Gareth looked into her eyes, too cloaked in the night’s shadows for him to read. This pensive mood was new to him, but only intrigued him all the more-yet another aspect of the mystery that was her. She was a many-faceted diamond, infinitely alluring. Every day, he learned something new about her-and about himself.
Like what sort of marriage he longed for, and the trials, tribulations, and difficulties inherent in attaining that. He still wasn’t sure he could manage it, much less that it was the sort of marriage-a “more”-she would accept.
Yet he thought it would suit her-a marriage like Jack’s and Clarice’s, like Tristan’s and Leonora’s. He had no real idea of the modern institution, but what he’d seen of their relationships…that would suit him, too; he doubted it would be easy, but the benefits would be great.
More, he could
“I…” What? What could he say? I want what Jack and Clarice have?
They weren’t Jack and Clarice.
And he wasn’t sure she loved him enough. He seemed to be rushing forward, tripping over his feet in his haste to secure her, to discover the “more” he could entice her with in lieu of those three little words, but he needed to go slowly, surely, step by step.
Sliding his hand into the silken fall of her hair, he drew her down.
Arm braced on his chest, she held back. “What were you going to say?”
He shook his head. “Later.” Once he’d worked it out, once he’d found the words.
She opened her mouth, but before she could probe further, he kissed her.
Caught her and waltzed her into the passion, into the fires that rose so readily, into the latent whirlpool of their desires.
Here, on this plane, all was straightforward, all within his ken. Here, he knew just what made her gasp, what made her moan-what she liked.
What she wanted.
He set himself to give her that-and more. Committed himself to the task of showing her what he’d yet to find the words to convey.
Palming her head, holding her steady above him, he took his time savoring her mouth, languidly reclaiming the sweet hollows, the succulent softness she’d so readily yielded. He stroked his tongue alongside hers and felt her bones melt. Felt desire rise.
He took his time. Running his hands over her shoulders, down the supple feminine planes of her back screened by her fine nightgown, sculpting her body as it rested over his, her breasts, her waist, her hips, her taut thighs, her rounded derriere, relearning her curves, her valleys and contours, reclaiming them, too, making them his.
The first step of many.
She grew restless, wordlessly demanding. He rolled, taking her with him and settling her beneath him in the billows of the bed. His lips held hers, held her awareness; he fed and supped with lips and tongue while between them his fingers slipped buttons undone.
Until he could push aside her nightgown’s bodice enough to bare her breasts. Enough to close his hands about the firm peaks, and caress. Possess. He kneaded until she arched, until beneath his lips she moaned and surrendered.
The first of many such moments.
He drew back from the kiss, through the shadows surveyed the bounty that filled his hands, then he bent his head and set his mouth to the furled peaks, and feasted. Her hands fisted in his hair, clutched as her body arched, as, breathless, she accepted and asked for more.
Begged, her body subtly surging beneath his, primitively taunting, urging him on.
Still he took his time, thoroughly laving the swollen mounds before divesting her of her nightgown inch by slow inch, and claiming each inch of skin revealed by touch, by taste.
By right.
Branding her inch by inch, nerve by nerve.
Layering fire beneath her skin until she burned.
Emily writhed beneath him and rejoiced, even as her wits spun and her senses reeled and sensation crashed through her in swelling waves. The previous night, she’d taken the lead, pressing her quest. Tonight, he held the reins, and wielded them.
