6
Portia sat at the luncheon table and let the conversations flow past her. She was sufficiently adept to nod here, murmur there; no one realized her mind was elsewhere.
She longed to discuss what she’d learned, but there was no one present suitable for the role of confidante. If Penelope had been here… then again, given her younger sister’s views on men and marriage, perhaps it was as well she was not.
Assessing the other ladies, she mentally ticked them off on her fingers. Not Winifred-she didn’t want to shock her-and certainly not Lucy or the Hammond girls. As for Drusilla…
Kitty, brittlely vivacious as she teased Ambrose and James, seemed the only possibility-a lowering thought.
Portia cast a glance at Lady O, then looked down at her plate. She had a sneaking suspicion that, far from being shocked, Lady O would baldly tell her she’d merely scratched the surface and there was a lot more she’d yet to learn.
She didn’t need further encouragement. Curiosity was eating her from inside out; she didn’t dare catch Simon’s eye in case he guessed. One point they hadn’t discussed was the frequency of her lessons; she didn’t want to appear too… “forward” was the word that leapt to mind. She had a deep-seated conviction it wouldn’t be wise to let him know how fascinated and enthralled she was. He possessed quite enough arrogant pride; she didn’t need to add to it, to give him any reason to feel superior.
Consequently, she rose with the other ladies and went out onto the lawns to sit and idly gossip in the sunshine. Simon watched her go, but he gave no sign; neither did she.
An hour later, Lady O summoned her to help her upstairs.
“Well, then-how are your deliberations progressing?” Lady O slumped back on her bed and let Portia straighten her skirts.
“In a positive but as yet inconclusive manner.”
“That so?” Lady O’s black eyes remained on her face, then she humphed. “You and Simon must have walked for miles.”
She shrugged nonchalantly. “We went down to the lake.”
Lady O frowned at her, then closed her eyes. “Well, if that’s all you have to report, I can only suggest you look lively. We’ve only so many days here, after all.”
She waited; when Lady O said nothing more, she murmured a good-bye and left her.
Slowly, she walked back through the huge house, wondering…
How many days would she need to learn all? Or at least enough? Reaching the long gallery, she turned into one of the deep embrasures and sat on the window seat. Staring, unseeing, at the sunbeams dancing on the wood paneling, she opened her memory, let her senses slide free…
And felt again, carefully mapped the limits of her learning, the frontier beyond which lay so much she’d yet to feel. To know.
She had no idea how long she’d been sitting there, no idea how long Simon had been watching her; as she drew back from her thoughts, she sensed his presence, shifted her gaze, and saw him leaning against the outer edge of the embrasure. Met his blue eyes.
A moment passed, then he raised a brow. “Ready for your next lesson?”
Did it show? She lifted her chin. “If you’re free.”
He had been for the last hour. Simon bit back the words, coolly inclined his head, and straightened.
She rose, her soft skirts falling about her, sheathing her long legs. He reached out, took her hand, fought not to seize it. Calling on every ounce of his expertise, he wound her arm in his and turned down the corridor.
She glanced at his set face. After a moment, she asked, “Where are we going?”
“Somewhere we won’t be disturbed.” He heard the harshness in his voice, knew she’d heard it, too. Nevertheless, he couldn’t resist adding, “Incidentally, if you wish to progress through the various stages to any reasonable conclusion, you’ll need to make yourself available for the purpose.”
She blinked, then faced forward. “I often go to the music room in the afternoon-to practice. I was thinking of going there now.”
“You’re accomplished enough on the piano-you can afford to be distracted for once. Or twice. We’ll only be here for a few days more.”
Halting, he opened a door, set it swinging wide, and ushered her into a small parlor attached to a bedchamber; neither room was presently in use. He’d chosen the room from memory, knowing what it contained.
Portia stopped in the middle of the room, looking about at the lumps of furniture all swathed in Holland covers. He locked the door, then joined her; taking her hand, he drew her toward one of the long, curtained windows. The room faced west, overlooking the pinetum. He swept the curtains wide; sunshine streamed in.
Turning back, he reached for the sheet covering the large piece of furniture facing the window. With a flick, he drew the sheet aside, revealing a wide and lushly cushioned daybed, now bathed in golden light.
Portia blinked. Dropping the sheet, he reached for her. Giving her no time to think, he lifted her and fell, taking her with him, into the cushioned comfort.
They bounced; she giggled, then sobered as her eyes met his. He shifted, propping his shoulders against the daybed’s padded side, settling her alongside him, half over him, within the circle of his arms.
The sun poured over them. Her gaze drifted to his lips. She licked hers, then her eyes flicked up to his. “What now?”
One dark brow rose fractionally; her dark blue eyes remained steady on his. He had absolutely no doubt she was willing.
He smiled, insensibly relieved; lifting a hand to her face, he drew it to his. “Now we play.”
They did-he couldn’t for the life of him remember any interlude like it. Whether it was the simple word or the sunshine warming them, or the silence of the deserted rooms around them, even the anonymity of the shrouded furniture surrounding them, that infused those first moments with a giddy, reckless pleasure he couldn’t tell, but they were both susceptible, both quickly infected with a heady lightheartedness that freed them from the world, left them both focused, not on propriety but on needs-he on hers, she, it seemed, on his.
Within seconds of their lips meeting, she’d relaxed into the kiss, yet her body remained, not stiff, but tensed, like a deer not yet sure of its safety, poised to retreat. He drew her deeper into the kiss and she came readily, offering her mouth, eagerly responding when he took, claimed; he did nothing more, simply waited, let her learn for herself, come to her own conclusion.
He had long ago learned that this particular configuration was most useful for easing a skittish lover; with her in his arms, protected yet not threatened by his weight, by his strength, the illusion of being in control rather than being controlled applied. As with others before, it worked; gradually that telltale tension flowed away, and she sank, warm, supple, vibrantly alive, against him.
His hands on her back stroked, soothed; it was she who shifted back, gave him access to her breasts, flagrantly encouraged him to fondle.
To gradually, inch by inch, wind her tight.
As before, she ultimately broke from the kiss, lifting her head, dragging in a breath, her breasts swelling under his hands. This time, he didn’t stop, let his hands and fingers continue their artful torture.
She opened her eyes and looked down, sucked in another breath as she watched him pander to her senses. Then she lifted her heavy lids and, with her usual directness, met his eyes. “What’s next?”
He held her gaze, tightened his fingers about her nipples, watched her concentration fade… her lids droop. “Are you sure you want to know?”
She opened her eyes; the look she pinned him with would have been imperious, but for the curve of her lips. “Quite sure.” She tried to straighten her lips and failed; she couldn’t have been kittenish if she tried, nor yet played the coquette-she simply didn’t have it in her-but he sensed-could almost feel-the gaiety welling within her, the thrill, the excitement, the anticipation.
It was as if they were exploring something, some unknown landscape between them, all on a personal dare.
