People were having to flow around them like a river parting around rocks.
Donovan moved his left hand forward, closer to Hathaway, but the detector on his belt stayed resolutely quiet. Hathaway's own left hand also moved and Donovan glanced down. He saw a thin strip of Velcro under the man's watchband and smiled.
'State of the art,' said Hathaway, smiling too.
'The difference is, the taxpayer paid for mine.'
'Still with Customs, then?' asked Donovan. He edged a little closer to Hathaway and moved his hand again. No reaction from the bleeper. If Hathaway hadn't come wired, then what did he want? A chat about old times? They really were old times, because it had been more than ten years since Donovan had seen him.
Hathaway patted his right knee.
'Not much of a future for me in Customs and Excise after you put a bullet in my leg.'
'Sorry to hear that,' said Donovan. He looked around. Was he about to be arrested, was that it? Had Hathaway brought him to Camden Market so that he could be grabbed in the crowd? There was certainly no way that Donovan could run, there were just too many people.
'I'm here on my own, Donovan,' said Hathaway. He was wearing a dark blue duffel coat with the hood up, brown trousers and brown, scuffed Timberland boots. He looked like a train spotter thought Donovan, and he blended perfectly into the crowds around him.
'What's this about?'
'Let's walk.'
Hathaway turned to his right and started walking towards the canal. Donovan went with him, trying to keep close to the man's side, but it was difficult with there being so many people. Donovan's detector vibrated and he jerked. He looked around. Hathaway was also looking left and right, a frown on his face. They both saw the man at the same time. Long hair, sallow complexion, tattered jeans and a camouflage combat jacket covered in badges. Donovan smiled and so did Hathaway as the same thought went through their minds. An undercover drugs officer. As easy to spot as a nun in a brothel. As the man walked away from them, their beepers stopped vibrating.
Hathaway led Donovan through a shop-lined courtyard to a small coffee shop with several outside tables. Two American tourists were just leaving and Donovan and Hathaway grabbed their table. Hathaway ordered two coffees from a young waitress who had half her head shaved.
All the other tables were occupied, so when Hathaway spoke it was in little more than a whisper.
'You've done well over the years,' he said.
Donovan shrugged. He knew Hathaway wasn't bugged, but that didn't mean he was going to say anything that was even remotely incriminating. Donovan was there to listen, to find out what Hathaway wanted. He continued to scan the crowds for familiar body shapes and clothing, but he knew that it would be impossible to spot any watchers. There were just too many people.
'Relax, I came alone, Donovan,' said Hathaway.
'I've as much to lose being seen talking with you as you have.'
'I'm just soaking up the atmosphere, Gregg,' said Donovan.
'Who are you with, then, if it's not Customs?'
'A different bunch,' said Hathaway.
'People who don't mind so much that I can't run the hundred metres in twelve seconds any more.'
'What do you want, an apology? You should be grateful, mate. I've done a lot worse.'
'Oh, I know you have, Donovan. In some ways I got off lightly. I mean sure, I lost my job and my wife, but at least you didn't tie me to a chair and cut me to bits while you videotaped it.'
Their coffees arrived and the two men sat in silence until the waitress moved away again.
'You've never cared about the rights and wrongs of drugs, have you?' asked Hathaway, keeping his voice low.
'You said you had information about Sharkey. Or was that just to get me here?'
Hathaway sipped his coffee. He grimaced.
'This taste like real coffee to you? Tastes instant to me.'
'Coffee's coffee,' said Donovan.
'I'm interested in your thought processes, that's all. It's not that you don't have a sense of right and wrong, is it? You know the difference. You just don't care. Am I right?'
Donovan leaned across the table towards Hathaway.
'Does anyone really care?' he whispered.
'I mean, really care. And at the end of the day, does it really matter?'
Hathaway met Donovan's stare and shrugged.
'I don't know. I think that's the question I'm asking myself 'My mum was a good person,' said Donovan.
'Really good. Do anything for anybody. My father walked out on her when I was six. Just didn't come back from work one day. He was last seen at the bus station and that was it. Did she deserve it? Did she fuck. Few years later she met up with man number two, a right piece of work. Friday night recreation for him was getting pissed in the pub and then knocking her around. She never fought back, never shouted, just suffered in silence. You'd think he'd have mellowed, but it just made him worse. So did what goes around come around? Of course it didn't. She got cancer and died a horrible death. I still remember her screaming. He pissed off, and me and my sister were put in care. Do I know what's right and what's wrong? Damn right I do. Do I care?' Donovan smiled thinly and shook his head.
'So what do you want, Gregg?
'The morality of selling drugs isn't a problem for you, is it? That's rhetorical. No need for you to answer.'
'I know what rhetorical means, you patronising cripple.'
Hathaway looked genuinely hurt.
'There's no need to be offensive, Donovan,' he said.
'I didn't mean to be patronising.'
'Fine, then I didn't mean to be offensive. Can we get on with whatever it is you want?'
'I guess my point is that the whole moral status of what we both do is a very grey area. Always has been. Tobacco and alcohol kill millions more than drugs, but they're controlled by public companies so they're okay. Legitimate. You take the cocoa plant and make chocolate. That's legal. Extract cocaine and it's illegal. You take a naturally growing plant, dry the leaves, wrap them up in paper and sell them to millions. Legal. Take another plant, extract the sap, process it into something you can smoke, heroin, and that's illegal. No morality, just the powers that be making decisions about what people can and cannot do. But you understand that better than me, don't you?'
'About drugs?'
'About morality. You know none of it really matters, right? It's just a game. Someone else sets the rules, we choose which side we want to be on, and we play the game. I chase you. You try to get away. Cops and robbers. Cowboys and Indians. And at the end of the day there's never going to be a winner. The game just goes on, right?'
Donovan shrugged.
'Maybe,' he said. He couldn't see where the conversation was going. He wanted to scream at Hathaway, to grab the man by the throat and shake him until he told him what it was he wanted.
'See, it doesn't really matter which side you're on, does it? You choose your side then you play the game. It's like when we were kids. Didn't really matter if you were a cop or a robber. A cowboy or an Indian.'
'I'm going,' said Donovan. He started to get to his feet, but Hathaway held up his hand.
'I'm almost done,' he said.
Donovan sat down again.
'I want you to understand what it is you taught me when you put that bullet in my leg all those years ago. You taught me that it doesn't matter which side you're on, all that matters is how you play the game. And for that, I want to shake your hand.'
Hathaway reached out his right hand. Donovan looked down at it, frowning. The fingernails were bitten to the quick. He slowly put out his own hand and shook. As their hands made contact he felt something hard in
