There was a moment’s silence. ‘Pulmonary fibrosis…does that mean you’re dying?’ Susie demanded, her already pale face blanching still further.
‘It doesn’t matter,’ Angus said uneasily. ‘We all go some time.’
‘Not quite so soon as you’re preparing to shuffle off,’ Jake said bluntly. ‘I’ve told you. With physiotherapy and with oxygen and pain relief you could still have years. Especially if you agree to bypass surgery.’
‘I’ll not be wanting years. What would I do with years?’
‘You could grow bigger pumpkins,’ Susie said wildly. ‘Angus, I’ve only just met you. And you sound like my Rory. You’re his uncle. If you die then I’ve got nobody.’
Gee, thanks very much, Kirsty thought, but she had enough sense to stay silent. And if she hadn’t had enough sense, Jake’s hand was suddenly on her arm, his pressure a warning.
Did he care about her sister? Maybe not, but he certainly cared for the old man. He was a country doctor in the old-fashioned sense, she thought, a man who knew every aspect of his patients’ lives and who treated them holistically. Sure, he could set up an oxygen supply. He’d also plaster a broken leg or administer an antibiotic for an infection. But he looked at the whole picture, and he was looking at it now. Angus didn’t need medicine as much as he needed family, and Jake was fighting with everything he had to give him one.
‘Would you like us to stay?’ Susie was asking Angus, and Kirsty held her breath. For Susie to make such a decision seemed amazing. Her twin had made no decisions since Rory had died. Even the decision of what to put on in the morning was beyond her. A crippling side-effect of depression was indecision, and Susie had it in spades, yet here she was making an instantaneous decision all by herself.
Which might have to be revoked.
‘We could only do that if Dr Cameron could deliver your baby,’ she said tentatively, and Dr Cameron grimaced.
‘I usually send my expectant mothers to Sydney two weeks before the birth.’
‘Why?’ Susie asked.
‘A lone medical practitioner doesn’t make for an ideal birthing situation,’ he told her. ‘If you needed a Caesarean, I’d need an anaesthetist.’
Susie’s face cleared. ‘That’s easy. Kirsty can give an anaesthetic. Not that I’ll need it, mind. I intend to deliver this baby normally. Is that the only problem?’ She turned again to Angus. ‘Is it OK if we stay? We’re stuck, you see. I came out to Australia to find you, but I was too close to my due date and now no airline will take me home. So if you need someone to stay here and I need somewhere to stay…we could really work on this pumpkin.’
Jake’s hand was still on her arm, Kirsty realised. And he was looking at her. Angus and Susie had turned back to Spike the Pumpkin, and there was time to think things through before they took this plan any further.
How could she think when Jake’s hand was on her arm?
She shook it off and he drew back, as if he hadn’t meant to get so familiar.
Good. Or was it good?
‘What’s going on here?’ Jake asked cautiously, glancing at her arm and then turning deliberately to look at Susie and Angus. ‘This is happening so fast.’
‘Susie’s desperate for this.’
‘I don’t understand.’
‘There was nothing,’ Kirsty told him. He needed to see, she thought. She needed to make him understand the mess her sister was in. ‘Rory was always really ambivalent about his background. He said he’d never got on with his parents and we knew his brother hated him. He arrived in America wanting to make a clean break and he did that by not talking about his background. The only person he ever mentioned was his Uncle Angus and that was only in passing-he’d never talk at length about him, and when Susie suggested maybe they come out here he was horrified. It was as if he’d decided that Susie was his family from now on, and that was that. Only then he died, and there was nothing. Just a blank nothing. Because there was no one else to grieve over him, it was almost as if Rory hadn’t existed. And now Susie’s found Rory’s Uncle Angus, and he’s lovely and he needs her and I’ll bet right now she’ll be thinking that Rory would want her to stay, and you can’t imagine how much of a blessing that must be.’ She broke off, tears threatening to spill. She wiped them away with an angry backhand swipe. ‘Anyway, you’ve done very well.’
‘For an Australian doctor,’ he said with a hint of teasing, and she flushed and swiped again.
‘I’m not crying,’ she said. ‘I don’t cry. It’s just…’
‘Hayfever,’ he said promptly. ‘Caused by pumpkins. Can I prescribe an antihistamine?’
‘I’m fine,’ she said, and gazed at Susie some more. Susie had abandoned the crutches and was seated on the rock wall abutting the vegetable garden. She was talking animatedly about manure. Angus was listening and nodding and asking questions.
There were a few things to be considered. Medical things. It was up to her to consider them.
‘Can we deliver Susie’s baby here?’
‘It’s not perfect,’ he told her. ‘Normally I’d say no. But if we’re weighting up the pros and cons, I’d say the pros definitely outweigh the added cons. Wouldn’t you say so, Dr McMahon?’
‘Maybe.’
‘What sort of a doctor are you?’
‘An American one,’ she snapped, and he grinned.
‘Yeah, and a cute one. But don’t you guys all have specialties?’
‘I guess.’ She looked at him speculatively. ‘You’re a family doctor.’
‘A generalist,’ he agreed. ‘But with surgical training.’
‘Do you have an anaesthetist?’
‘Not now. Old Joe Gordon was an anaesthetist-a fine one-but he died on me six months ago.’
‘Which explains the overwork.’
‘Which explains the overwork. So how about you?’
‘I work in a hospice. A big one.’
‘You’re a palliative-care physician.’
‘Um…no.’
‘No?’
‘My basic training’s in anaesthesia,’ she confessed. ‘I specialise in pain management, hence the hospice work. You want a spinal block, I’m your man.’
His face stilled. His eyes turned blank. She could see cogs start to whirr.
‘Let’s not get any ideas,’ she said hastily. ‘I’m here to look after my sister.’
‘How interested are you in pumpkins?’
She glanced across at the bent heads and managed a smile.
‘Not very,’ she confessed. ‘They lack a little in the patient backchat department.’
‘Then maybe you’d help me out?’
‘How can I do that?’ She was still watching her sister. Susie was sitting on the wall with Angus. The sun was on her face and she and Angus were examining each pumpkin leaf in turn. ‘I need to be here with Susie. And with Angus. You said yourself that Angus couldn’t be left alone. Ditto Susie. So that leaves me…’
‘Stuck in a castle,’ he said, still smiling, and she wished suddenly that he wouldn’t.
‘I guess that’s terrific,’ she said, with what she hoped was cheerfulness. It didn’t quite come out that way. She looked dubiously across at her sister and realised that Susie and Angus were soul mates. They’d spend what remained of Susie’s pregnancy happily saving pumpkins.
Maybe she could…um…read some books.
‘Maybe you could help me,’ Jake said again, and she turned from watching Susie and made herself concentrate.
‘How could I do that?’
‘I’m desperate.’
‘You don’t look desperate.’
He smiled. ‘I have a way of hiding my desperation with insouciance.’
‘Insouciance, hey? Like ketchup but thicker.’
His smile deepened. She loved it when he smiled like that. It made his eyes light up in a way that had her
