food or drink, and encouraged her to help mark time with her hands and feet. And though she wanted to join them, more than anything she wanted to find a cluster of familiar faces, friends and relatives who would surround her and remind her that she was not as alone as she felt. But this crowd of happy strangers was almost as good. After a few minutes of wandering among them, Taziri found a quiet corner outside the throng where she could watch.
It was a wedding, she realized suddenly as a break in the crowd revealed the bride and groom sitting with their families at one side the dancer’s ring. She smiled.
There were several men leaning against the wall alongside her, and the fellow to her right cleared his throat. “Good evening. Are you family?”
Taziri blinked at the bride and groom. “Oh, no, I’m sorry, I was just passing through and heard the music. I didn’t mean to intrude on a private party.”
The man smiled. “No, you’re very welcome to stay. Half the neighborhood is here.” He leaned a little closer, peering at Taziri’s clothes. “You’re a firefighter?”
“Electrician.” She glanced down at her soot-stained orange jacket. “With the Air Corps.”
“Ah.” The man nodded and returned his attention to the dancers.
“What do you do?” Taziri asked the question for no particular reason, except that having a dull exchange of small talk at a party seemed like the ideal vacation from reality.
“I keep house. Watch the children. We have five.” The man smiled and his whole body rocked slightly with the rhythm of the music.
“Five? What’s that like, keeping house?” Taziri imagined her grizzled, leathery grandfather lecturing her on the value of work, of earning, providing, and supporting. The old man probably would have burst into flames at the suggestion of keeping house. Taziri tried to imagine her grandfather living today in any occupation, but the scenarios all ended with a small bearded man screaming at a world gone mad: What of the castes? What of order and tradition? What of a man’s duty to his family!
“It’s the best. I send the children off to school in the morning, and then spend all day working on the house. We have a townhouse a few streets over from here. Two stories. I just finished replacing all the floors. Beautiful stuff. Next, I’m thinking about building a spare room where the garden is, and then putting a greenhouse on top of that. I’d like to get a fruit tree growing in it. Maybe oranges. I love oranges. Do you like oranges?”
Taziri lost track of the music at the thought of her own home, one level, old creaking floors, a spotty garden in back. Yuba could do so much with our house if he wanted to. He used to talk about it, he had so many plans. But now, I can’t remember the last time he talked about the house or the future.
“I also started making furniture last year.” The man waved at someone across the crowd as he spoke. “Listen to this. I made a table for the dining room that slides open and you can put extra planks in the middle to make the table bigger, for parties. It only takes a minute, no tools. Everyone loves it. I’m thinking about selling them as a side business.”
A side business? Suddenly a hundred tiny ideas that Taziri had played with while flying across the continent were transformed into a hundred tiny business propositions. She could make things, she could sell them. Good things, useful things, electrical things. Just as soon as I find the time. If only Isoke didn’t have so much riding on the Halcyon, I would quit the Corps and Yuba could go back to work and I could start my own store. But even the thought of blaming Isoke made her blush with guilt and she put the whole notion away.
“My wife says I should try it, so I suppose I will.” The man settled back against the wall again and glanced over at Taziri for only the second time. “What does your husband do?”
“He’s the landscape architect for the university in Tingis.” Taziri beamed. “Though he’s only part-time right now, because of the baby. What does your wife do?”
“Accountant.” The man shook his head. “It’s crazy. I went to her office once to see where she works. It was horrible. She sits at a desk, all day. Literally, sitting all day. Almost never stands up. It’s as bad as a factory, but instead of building things, she just adds numbers all day for rich people. And the only time she really talks to another person is during these meetings where everyone sits around blaming each other for mistakes while pretending to be polite about it.” He shook his head again and ran his hands over his shaved scalp. “When she comes home, well, sometimes I think she wants to strangle someone, and sometimes I think she wants to cry. That’s her job. I can’t understand why she does it, but it pays the bills.”
Taziri nodded, not knowing what to say. The flights back and forth between Tingis and the northern cities of Numidia were countless hours of sitting at a station, rarely moving, rarely talking. But there was no arguing with Isoke, in earnest or otherwise. Isoke. She tried to remember her captain’s face, but all she could see was the flick of Hamuy’s knife, and the smoke, and the blood on the floor. She shuddered and turned her attention back to the music.
A young woman was singing a sweet old lullaby, but it ended too soon and a strange silence seemed to emanate from the direction of the musicians as the absence of music made itself felt. Then a terrific booming began pounding and throbbing from the bass drum and Taziri pushed away from the wall, craning her neck to see them, wondering what they were doing. The entire crowd began to cheer like never before, no longer as wedding revelers but as wild youth driven mad with excitement and anticipation. They waved their fists in the air in time with the pounding bass and began shouting to the drummers.
The drummers responded. As a man, they descended upon the taut skin heads with mallets and bare hands in an angry frenzy, a racing and deafening rhythm that Taziri had never heard before, but even as she listened she felt her own feet beginning to rock in time with the fast-paced percussions, and then her hands began to clap in time as well.
Then the strummers leapt into the dance circle, three young men with large heavy lutes strung with gleaming wires that they struck with metal picks, creating a strange and bestial harmony like vicious hornets and stampeding wildebeests all at once. Three more strummers lingered behind them, flicking their fingers across the gleaming strings of Espani guitars. There was no real melody, only the same four chords repeated over and over, yet the crowd grew wilder and louder, calling for more, calling for the song to begin.
A bare-chested youth stepped out from the crowd, his fist beating the air, and his audience shrieked their approval. The strummers reached the end of the fourth chord, and as they returned to the first chord the boy began to sing, but he didn’t sing. He shouted. He hollered. He yelled at the crowd and they yelled back a thousand fold. A man sweats blood on an eastward rail,
And when the steel falls we hear him scream and wail,
So now he sits and starves, and he cries and begs,
Because he lost his legs!
He lost his legs!
Taziri faltered in her clapping and stomping as the words crept into her ears and their meaning snapped into focus. What sort of song was this? She had never heard it before, and yet clearly everyone else here knew it by heart, and they loved it. They loved it like rabid dogs love meat, like flies love garbage, like vultures love carrion. She saw joy and madness in the eyes around her, in the young and old, in men and women alike. She saw rage, a human firestorm surging around a few drummers and strummers, and a screaming boy. A man coughs blood in a miner’s shaft,
And when the rock falls we hear his sobbing gasp,
So now he sits and starves, that’s what fate demands,
Because he lost his hands!
He lost his hands!
The crowd was a single living creature now, an organism that exhaled horror and misery and rage all at once. Taziri winced, shrinking back into the shadows, glancing around for the easiest path out, a path away from the insane creature that had emerged from this wedding banquet. A man weeps blood on the factory floor,
And when the boiler bursts it makes a mighty roar,
It cuts him to the core!
It fills the air with gore!
So now he lies still in his earthen bed,
Because he lost his head!
He lost his head!
To the honored dead!
The honored dead!
