Rebirth

forward. In the split second after she shot the floor inches from the crawling guard’s face, she took a chance and focused on him.

His face was ashen and he leaned heavily on Roan, but he was moving, the girls half dragging him along. At her feet there was screaming, and Cass tore her eyes away from Dor to see the guard scrabbling at her face with her fingers, trying to dislodge chips of tile that had embedded themselves in her skin.

Cass flipped the gun in her hands and brought it down, holding tight to the barrel, as hard as she could against the woman’s skull, and she cried out and fell to the floor. Then Cass stomped with all her weight on the other guard’s hand, feeling the bones shift and break, trying to ignore the screaming.

She should have killed them. Should have killed them. The thought ricocheted around her brain as she jammed the gun in her waistband and ran, avoiding the corpses of the men she’d killed, their blood seeping slowly onto the floor. The girls had gotten Dor out the door, into the night, and Cass could no longer see them.

“Last chance,” Cass called, turning around in the wide doorway and addressing the girls in the back of the lobby. One of them ran toward her with a backward glance over her shoulder, and then a moment later, two more. The rest of them shrank against the window, some of them sobbing.

“All right,” Cass said, as the three followed the others through the door. “The rest of you, make them understand you had no choice. Tell them I was armed. We were armed. They’ll be here soon. And you-” she had to choke down bile when she addressed the two guards. “I may regret letting you live. I already do, in fact. But you’re not worth the hit on my conscience. Treat these girls well.”

She backed out into the night, the cold reaching for her. “You can’t have the future,” she added as she turned and ran, but her words were lost on the night air.

36

ROAN’S TEETH CHATTERED BUT SHE DIDN’T notice until she bit her tongue and tasted blood.

The truck jounced along, wheels screeching, taking turns hard so that she and the other girls slid and rocked, holding on to each other for balance.

Next to them, on the cold truck floor, was the man they’d dragged from the lobby. She’d barely caught him when he passed out, holding him so his head didn’t hit the hard floor. The blood flow had slowed-she thought it had, anyway, though it was hard to tell in the dark. And his pulse still felt strong to her, strong enough, anyway, as she pressed his wrist between her hands.

In her lap was the silver box. He’d given it to her before he passed out, and told her what to do with it.

Roan had trusted men before and it usually didn’t work out very well. She’d been pregnant before, but lost the baby before she got around to figuring out how to tell Darryl. Faking a miscarriage tonight hadn’t been all that hard, since she’d had a real one not even a year ago. That baby, she’d wanted, wanted desperately, even if she was only twenty-two and an art student with a coffee shop job and no way to support a child. When Darryl came home the night after she miscarried, he found her puffy-eyed in a darkened room and asked her what was wrong; she’d said it was nothing and he said he guessed that was right, she had nothing to be sorry about and she was lucky to live in a place he paid for and all she did was sit on her ass drawing like a three-year-old while he worked two construction jobs to support them, which wasn’t really accurate even besides the fact that she worked, too, because one of the jobs was just pickup work on weekends and the other hadn’t been full-time since the economy tanked- besides, Darryl left her anyway a couple of weeks later, almost like he’d made it his project to find something real for her to cry over.

Roan decided she wouldn’t date anyone after that so it was kind of fitting that the guy who got her pregnant this time didn’t even take his clothes off, he was just a doctor with cold hands and not much to say.

But the man lying next to her in his own blood on the floor of the truck was different. He was old enough to be her dad, but when he’d spoken to her his voice was gentle. Even as she and Leslie dragged him out of the dorm he’d tried to be considerate, tried not to lean too hard, had stumbled along as best he could, biting down the pain.

And he’d pissed off the Rebuilders and maybe that was enough for her.

She released his wrist and carefully laid his arm against his chest, and then she picked up the box and opened the lid and took out the small round thing. It was cool and squishy in her hand. They wanted her to trust them, the wounded man and the woman driving. Roan didn’t see why she should-but then again, she didn’t see why she shouldn’t. They hadn’t done anything to her yet, and that was more than Roan could say for the Rebuilders. And she was already involved, wasn’t she? The minute she decided to help Sammi, she was involved, she supposed. She probably should have just gone with her to begin with.

Roan rolled the cool, squishy ball in her palm for a moment. Then she crawled to the back of the truck and watched the road disappearing under the wheels. Outside the sky was gray. And there it was, just like he said, the building like a castle, with all the fancy trim around the top. Near the front there was a commotion, guards in their camo clothes yelling, others streaming from the doors. As the truck sped past she saw two of them raising their arms, holding weapons, trying to fix their aim.

She watched the building go by and then she flung the thing the man had given her, threw it as hard as she could and watched as it struck the castle wall and burst into a flame big enough to swallow the whole world.

37

THE SKY BEHIND HER WAS A FLOWER, YELLOW TO orange, a poppy unfurling across the night.

The explosion had rocked the truck as she drove and Cass’s instincts made her grip the wheel tight, made her press the pedal down. Nothing could shake her now. Nothing could stop her now.

Dor had done it-that much she was sure of. Dor had blown up the leaders’ headquarters. She didn’t know how. Knowing was a luxury for later, if they survived. When they survived, Cass muttered to herself, pushing the truck even harder as they tore across the savaged streets. The girl said Sammi’d headed toward the water tower so it was toward the water tower Cass drove. Ruthie had twisted around to watch, her mouth dropped open in surprise, but she didn’t appear frightened, which was a little miracle right there. Cass kept one hand on Smoke’s neck, and though it was cool and clammy and crusted with pus and blood, she could feel his pulse faint but steady.

He was alive, and alive was all she was asking for tonight.

Outside the wall, the run-down student neighborhood butted up close. Unlike the streets surrounding the Box, these were choked with weeds and trash; junked cars lay where they’d collided.

The Rebuilders made no effort to make the world outside their walled-off compound more hospitable. Cass supposed they didn’t give a damn about anything or anyone that they couldn’t leverage into more power for themselves, power with which to build their twisted dream society. They were content to leave the landscape ravaged and burning behind them after they plundered.

As they neared the water tower, Cass slowed the truck, navigating the narrow streets of the humble neighborhood. No one would be pursuing them now. With any luck, most of the top leadership would have been asleep inside when the building blew-Mary, Evangeline, all of them. It was a shame that they would have died instantly, would never have the sickening realization that they had lost, that their empire was doomed.

No time to savor the thought now. Cass rolled the truck’s windows down, scanning the streets and yards and houses for movement, listening for cries.

And it wasn’t long before she heard them.

Them.

Her heart skipped when she heard the barking excited shrieks of Beaters who’d caught a scent. This was the sound you heard before they fed, when they attacked, like the baying of a pack of hounds on the hunt, a deafening chorus as though each of the things were trying to drown out the others’ voices.

Sammi was still alive-but unless she was luckier than any of them had been yet, she wouldn’t be for long.