“You were right before,” he said. “About me expecting you to leave. I was. Right from the beginning. Even when we got married, I always thought the relationship was temporary.”
“Why? What did I ever say or do to make you think that?”
“It wasn’t you.” He gave her a smile that didn’t reach his eyes. “You were in it for the long haul. It was me. How I was raised. What I believed. There are a lot of reasons that aren’t that interesting. But I wanted you to know you were right.” He glanced at her again. “It’s one of your favorite things.”
“Usually,” she murmured, stunned by his confession. “This time I would have accepted being wrong.” She hesitated, then asked. “If that’s how you felt, why did you marry me?”
“I wanted to be wrong.”
“But you weren’t. I did leave.”
“You left to get my attention. I’m the one who let you go. I had a good thing with you, Penny,” he said. “When you left, I lost something I’ll never be able to replace.”
“Thank you for saying that. I always wondered if you’d even noticed I was gone.”
“I noticed.”
“Just not enough to come after me.”
He glanced at her. “You’re still mad about Lindsey.”
“Mad doesn’t cover it, Cal. It’s not like you were hiding a tattoo. You kept a huge part of your life separate from me. Not just that you had a daughter, but that you loved her so much, you couldn’t love anyone else.”
“That’s not true.”
“Isn’t it?”
“Penny, you were my
“What? To stay together forever? To have a family?”
“I wanted us to make it.”
“I don’t believe you. I think you wanted to be alone with your guilt. At least your lack of interest wasn’t about me specifically. You would have done this to anyone.”
His hands tightened on the steering wheel. “You’re not going to give me a break, are you?”
“Do you deserve one? You fundamentally changed everything about our past. I’m still dealing.”
“Are you going to be able to work with me?”
“Offering to leave?” she asked.
“If it helps.”
Would it? “I meant what I said. I don’t hate you.”
“Will we ever be friends again?”
Friends? They’d been married before. They now worked together and just about a week ago, they’d been lovers. She wasn’t sure they’d ever been friends.
“I don’t know,” she admitted. “I’m not sure it’s…”
Suddenly she felt a fluttering in her stomach. Her breath caught.
“What?” he asked. “Are you okay?”
“I’m great. It’s the baby. It’s moving.”
He smiled at her. “Yeah? What does it feel like?”
Anger and hurt battled with a need to share the wonder. She hesitated a second, then pulled up her sweater and placed his hand on her bare stomach.
“Can you feel it?” she asked. “It’s right there.”
He glanced at her, his eyes wide, his mouth parted in amazement. “I can feel it. Not a kick. More of a brushing.”
“Yes. That’s it.”
They smiled at each other, then he turned his attention back to the road. Still, he kept his hand on her stomach and she kept her hand on top of his. The moment seemed to stretch on endlessly. Despite everything, they were connected.
He’d been so much a part of her past and now he was in her present. She wanted to hate him and couldn’t.
At least she no longer loved him. Only a fool would want her heart broken by the same man twice.
CAL CHECKED over the figures from the previous night. He glanced up as his office door opened and Dani stepped inside.
“Hi,” he said before he realized she was crying. He stood and walked around to hug her. “What’s wrong?”
Instead of answering, her tears turned into sobs. Her whole body shook as he held her. He felt her pain, even if he didn’t know what caused it, and he was more than willing to go do battle on her behalf.
“Whose ass do I have to kick?” he asked, as he rubbed her back and kissed the top of her head.
“I w-wish it was that simple,” she said, her voice muffled against his chest. She straightened and looked into his eyes. “It’s Hugh.”
Cal grimaced. He wasn’t comfortable picking a fight with a guy in a wheelchair, but if necessary…“What did he do?”
“He left me.”
“What?” Cal had expected to hear anything from a major disagreement to the unlikely statement of an affair. But not this.
“He left me,” she repeated.
“Not possible. He loves you.” What he was really thinking was that Hugh owed her. After his accident, she’d been the one to stand by him, to insist that they were still getting married, even if he was never going to walk again. She’d loved him and bullied him when necessary, all with the goal of making him want to live, despite being paralyzed from the waist down. She’d stayed at Burger Heaven to keep their insurance so he could continue with his physical therapy.
She’d succeeded. Hugh had slowly returned to the land of the living and he’d carved out a good life for himself.
“Maybe you misunderstood him.”
She gave a strangled laugh and walked to one of the chairs by his desk. He took the other, then leaned toward her and grabbed her hand.
“I don’t get it,” he said.
“That makes two of us.” She wiped her cheeks with her free hand, then fished in her coat pocket for a tissue. “I told him I wanted to talk about in vitro fertilization. We were going to need some help to get pregnant and I thought this was a good time. Okay, I was a little selfish because I knew I wasn’t going anywhere at Burger Heaven and I thought maybe this would distract me. Being a mom and all.” She sniffed. “It’s not that I didn’t want kids, it’s just that I thought I’d have my career together first.”
He tucked her short hair behind her ears. “So what happened when you mentioned getting pregnant?”
“He said he didn’t want to.” The waterworks started up again. “At first I thought it was about money, because the procedure is really expensive, but it wasn’t. He said that he wanted a divorce. He said he’d outgrown m- me.”
He shifted his chair closer, then pulled her close. She rested her forehead on his shoulder.
“He said he’s been growing and changing and I haven’t. He’s on the tenure track and I’m just the manager of Burger Heaven.” She looked at him. “He threw that in my face. As if I haven’t been trying to move up in the company. As if I hadn’t stayed there for
He cupped her head and kissed her nose. “That’s true. Even than me. You’ve been great and Gloria has never noticed.”
“That’s what I said. Hugh told me I was getting bitter and he didn’t want to live with someone like that. He didn’t want to live with me anymore.”
She stood up and shrugged off her jacket. “I can’t believe it. How dare he? I was there for him. I’ve
Cal thought about pointing out that hating Hugh would make the divorce easier, but something in his male brain