“Okay. Nash. These are my boys. You've already met Brett, who is rapidly becoming a macho tool guy. And these two-' She walked to the table and put her hands on their shoulders. '-are my twins. Jason and Adam. Say hi to Nash.' The twins offered an enthusiastic greeting, but Brett didn't say much. His expression turned wary and Stephanie wondered if he was about to say something that would make her cringe.
“We're having chocolate chip cookies, grapes and string cheese,' she said quickly in an effort to forestall Brett. 'You're welcome to that or the shortbread.'
“How about shortbread and grapes,' he said. 'No problem.' As she bustled around the kitchen, he pulled out one of the two empty chairs. Brett sat across from the twins, which meant Nash would be across from her. It was only a snack, she told herself. She could handle it. At least she hoped she could.
As she worked, she tried not to notice the silence. Her normally ten-thousand-words-a-minute kids were all staring at Nash. But before she could think of something to ease the escalating tension, Nash broke the ice himself.
He leaned toward Jason and Adam. 'I'm a twin,' he said.
The boys grinned. 'No way,' Jason said.
“Not identical, like you two. Kevin and I don't look very much alike. But we're still twins.'
“Cool.' Adam offered a shy smile.
Nash turned to Brett. 'I heard school is out this week. Are you excited about summer?' Stephanie saw her oldest wrestle with his innate excitement and his need to be standoffish. 'Summer's good,' Brett said at last.
“There's a community pool,' Jason said. 'We go swimming every week. And there's sleepover camp at the end of summer. And Adam and me are gonna play volleyball at the park.'
“Sounds like fun,' Nash said.
“Brett's seriously into baseball,' Stephanie volunteered as she carried a plate to the table, then returned to collect the coffee. 'His team made the city finals.”
“What position do you play?' Nash asked. 'First base.' She could see he was itching to say more, but for some reason didn't want to. As if wanting to talk to Nash was a bad thing.
Stephanie sighed. Brett considered himself the 'man of the family.' He took his responsibilities seriously. While she appreciated the effort, sometimes she wished she could convince him that it was far more important to her for him just to be a kid.
Conversation flowed for about twenty minutes until she glanced at the empty plates in front of her three. 'Looks like you're done eating to me. Guess what comes next?' Adam smiled shyly at Nash. 'We do our homework now.'
“It's when I used to do it, too,' he admitted. 'I liked every subject but English. What about you?”
“I like 'em all,' Jason announced and pushed back his chair.
He carried his plate to the counter by the sink, then gave Stephanie a hug. She hugged him back. As she felt his small back and warm, tugging hands, she reminded herself that jerk or not, Marty had done one thing right. He'd given her these boys. They were worth all the heartache and suffering she'd endured along the way.
When all three of them had trooped out of the kitchen, she turned to the table. Nash would go now, she thought. Which was fine. She'd tortured him with her family long enough. Whatever feelings of loneliness he might have had would have been erased. No doubt he would be grateful for some solitude.
“Good cookies,' he said as he rose.
“Thanks. I won't tell you how much butter is in each batch.'
“I appreciate that.' He carried his plate and mug over to the sink, which was a bit of a surprise. Then, before she could say anything, he turned on the water and began to rinse them off.
Stephanie thought about rubbing her eyes. She had to be having some kind of hallucination. A man? Doing work? Not in her world.
“You don't have to do that,' she said, trying not to sound stunned.
I don't mind helping.' As he spoke, he collected the boys' plates and rinsed those off, too. Then he opened the dishwasher and actually put the plates inside. She couldn't believe it. She didn't think Marty had ever known where the dishwasher was, let alone what it was for.
When Nash reached for the glasses, she came to her senses.,
“Hey, I'm the hired help around here, not you,' she said as she stepped in close and took the glass from him.
Their fingers touched. Just for a second, but it was enough. Not only did she hear the faint ringing of bells, she would swear that she saw actual sparks arc between them. Holy wow. Sparks. She didn't think that kind of stuff was possible after age thirty.
Nash looked at her. His dark eyes seemed bright with what she wanted to say was passionate fire, but was probably the light from the overhead fixtures. Awareness rippled through her, sensitizing her skin and making her want to fling herself into his armsfor a kiss that went on for at least six hours, following by mindless, intense sex. Right there, in front of the appliances.
She swallowed and took a step back. Something was really wrong with her. Seasonal allergies? Too much television? Not enough? She felt soft and wet and achy inside. She felt unsettled. All of this was so out of the ordinary, so unexpected and so extreme that it would be really hilarious…if it weren't so darned terrifying.
Nash wondered if Stephanie really was issuing an invitation with her parted lips and wide eyes or if that was just wishful thinking on his part. No doubt the latter, he told himself as he heard footsteps on the stairs.
The boys walked into the kitchen. Adam and Jason each had a backpack with them while Brett carried a math book and several sheets of paper. Nash figured it was time for him to excuse himself. Homework seemed like family time. But before he could say anything, Jason patted the chair next to him and offered a winning smile.
“I have to finish my calendar for summer. I wrote something about each of the months. Wanna hear?' Nash glanced from the boy to Stephanie who gave him a shrug, as if to say it was his call. When he looked back at Jason, the boy pulled the chair out a little.
What the hell, Nash thought. He crossed to the table and took the seat.
“So your calendar is only three months long,' he said.
“Uh-huh. We did pictures. See-I colored fireworks in the sky for July, coz that's when it's the fourth and we always go to the park for fireworks.' Jason opened a large folder and withdrew a folded sheet of construction paper as he spoke. Nash admired the crayon depiction of fireworks, then bent close to see what Jason had written underneath.
“It's a poem,' the boy said proudly. 'The teacher said we could copy it from the board if we wanted. I can read it to you.' The last sentence sounded more like a question than a statement. Nash nodded. 'Sure. Go ahead.' Jason cleared his throat, then read the poem. When he was finished Adam quietly pushed a spelling list toward him.
“I got 'em all right,' he said in a low voice. Nash studied the word list, and the big A at the top of the paper.
“You did great. There are some big words here.' Adam beamed.
The twins pulled out more papers and talked about their homework. When they'd explained everything they had to do, they started the work. But it wasn't a silent process. They asked questions, shared each step, bickered over the pencil sharpener and asked for more snacks, another glass of milk or even water. Stephanie kept gently steering them back to their assignments.
“They're usually more focused than this,' she said as she pulled food out of the refrigerator. 'The last couple of weeks of school are always crazy.' Nash remembered what that was like-the unbearable anticipation of an endless summer with no homework. Being here with the boys reminded himof a lot of things. How he and Kevin were supposed to do their homework as soon as they got home, but with their mom out working, there was no one around to make sure it happened. Nash had always done his, but Kevin had usually ducked outside to play. Later, when their mom got home, they fought about it. Nash had retreated to his room to get lost in a book.
As he glanced at the three bent heads, he realized he didn't have any children in his life. No kids of friends, no neighbors with little ones running around. He couldn't remember the last time he'd spent any time with a child. It wasn't that he didn't like them; they simply weren't a part of his world. Had someone asked him what it would be like to spend an hour or so with three boys, he would have assumed time would go by slowly, that he would feel awkward and restless. But his usual underlying sense that something was wrong seemed to have faded. The twins were friendly enough and while Brett obviously didn't want him around, Nash understood enough of what he was feeling not to mind. When Nash had been his age, he'd done exactly the same thing.
