everything has to be spelt out. Forget subtlety when she’s around. She’d make an RG-31 going through a roadblock look subtle.
But also because Jess had known about Bronte being the Scarlet Pimple and I hadn’t. Fair enough, Jess had joined Liberation and I hadn’t. But there were plenty of people in Liberation who didn’t know the identity of the Scarlet Pimple. Anyway, whether it was fair or not didn’t matter. I just felt violently jealous.
I’d learned quite a lot in the last twenty-four hours, including the name of the vehicle that had rammed the roadblock with such frightening force. Gavin was already nagging me to buy an RG-31, and I could see that it would have a thousand and one uses, but even so it wasn’t high on my shopping list. They cost a cool half million or thereabouts, but for that you get a vehicle that can drive over two landmines and live to tell the story.
That piece of information wasn’t all that crucial to me. But some of the other stuff… like the number of off- duty soldiers who had come with the Scarlet Pimple and the others on the raid across the border to get Gavin and me back. The inner workings of Liberation were being laid bare to me. No way in the world could the government or the Army condone or bless what Liberation did, but gee, the amount of unofficial help they gave was pretty spectacular. As Homer said, since the war ended a lot of Army medics had treated a lot of fresh combat wounds, which was funny considering there was meant to be no combat going on. Sometimes soldiers would come back very late from leave and instead of getting into major trouble, like they normally did, they’d just get a nod from their commanding officer, and he might even make the soldier a cup of tea. Rifles and ammo were strictly guarded, but sometimes a door was left open and later a few hundred rounds of ammo would be written off as having been fired on the practice range. A damaged RG-31 with many little dents all over it must have been caught in a hailstorm. Funny kind of storm though, where the hailstones came from the side instead of from above. But nothing was said, and it was just taken quietly into an Army workshop for repairs.
And so it went on. I was living in a country with two levels of government, so it seemed. The stuff we saw on TV and read about in the newspapers, that was one level, and it was all most people ever saw or heard, but on another level was a group of high-powered people who were doing what they thought was best for the rest of us. It made me uneasy. I thought we were meant to be a democracy. Who elected these people? What gave them the right to decide foreign policy for the rest of us? If they read the situation wrongly, if they stuffed everything up, then we would have to wear the consequences, even though we didn’t know they’d been doing it in the first place! Had this happened before the war too? Surely not. But maybe it had?
I started feeling guilty about the stuff I’d done for Liberation. Not a huge amount, but still… I’d never thought it through but then I didn’t know how much of it had been going on, or rather, how unofficially official the whole thing was.
And I didn’t really think it through on that particular day. It wasn’t the time or the place. Gavin and I had been rescued under spectacular circumstances by a whole bunch of people who’d responded to a tip-off from Toddy that something appeared to have gone horribly wrong. It was the time and place for gratitude, gratitude, gratitude. And I gave it out, big time. I had nothing left in me but gratitude, and I was happy to give it. Strength, energy, courage, stamina, determination… I had none of that stuff left. I was gutted. All I could do was thank them over and over.
And then be amazed at the stuff I was learning. Bronte. Of course, Bronte. Of course! The quiet achiever. She was perfectly placed to be the Scarlet Pimple. During this long ‘debrief ’ back at my place she’d mentioned her father three times already. There were a lot of brains behind Liberation and I clearly remembered her father, the lawyer, a major in the Army, and how quiet and efficient and ruthless he had seemed to me. I realised that he was probably a big force in the whole organisation. And another thing about him: he was quite happy to go outside the normal rules, to find other solutions to a problem. He’d even written that to me when I’d been trying to deal with Mr Rodd and Mr Sayle, the horrible pair who wanted to get a guardianship order on me and then steal my land: Forget the legal approach… you know how effective direct action is… use your brains and your imagination and you’ll come up with better solutions…
Damn, I hadn’t even thought about that when I’d been trying to work out the identity of the Scarlet Pimple. Another thing suddenly struck me, another piece of the puzzle dropped into place: the way he’d got that note to me. He’d had Bronte give me all the official stuff, all the official legal advice, and then afterwards she’d slipped me the unsigned note, also from him. I realised how that little transaction summed him up perfectly. Mr Respectable Army Lawyer, working away doing all the regular stuff from 9 to 5, sorry, from 0900 to 1700, and at the same time running a different operation in secret, using his own daughter. Bronte had once called him Major Action Man; that had been another clue I’d missed. He was into action all right. And come to think of it, so was his daughter. I didn’t know how much of this came from her father and how much came from Bronte herself, but I remembered now that she’d told me she was into boxing, and then when I’d complained about Mr Sayle she’d told me to firebomb his office. How on earth had I ever decided she was calm and gentle? Well, OK, she was both of those things too, but just because she was a year behind us at school and because she spoke quietly I’d marked her down as Beth out of Little Women. Couldn’t imagine Beth suggesting firebombing as a solution to a problem, or doing a bit of boxing as an after-school activity.
‘The Scarlet Pimple,’ I said for the fifth time, shaking my head at Bronte, although now I was doing it as much to annoy Jess and Homer as for any other reason.
‘Yes, and I’ve been getting a few lately,’ she said, touching a bit of acne on the left side of her cheek.
‘Very funny.’
Lee and Gavin came in and I got up, pulled out the cutting board and started in on the evening meal. If life were fair both Gavin and I would have had three months off to recover from what we’d been through. However, life has never been fair, is not fair and will never be fair. This is Ellie’s First Law. Ninety percent of the rage in the world is because most people don’t understand that. I don’t know where everyone got the idea that life was meant to be fair, but they sure got a bum deal with that message. Once you know fairness is not required, is not compulsory, and in fact often has nothing to do with anything, you can get on with it.
If life were fair our country would never have been invaded, Lee and Gavin and I would still have parents; Robyn and Corrie and Chris would be alive; and Wirrawee would have beaten Risdon in the last Grand Final of the Wirrawee-Holloway Netball League, instead of being ripped off by an umpire whose seeing-eye dog needed a seeing-eye dog.
So there I was, having to do housework, when I should have been in a tropical resort recuperating after a few of the nastiest days of my life.
Still, I’d trained the boys well over the years and they did useful things like chop onions and peel spuds and shell peas while Gavin set the table. Gavin still looked pale and thin and there were shadows in his eyes that I’d seen before and had always hoped I’d never see again. My biggest worry was that one day those shadows would become permanent.
While I stirred the gravy I thought about the topic that mattered most to Gavin and me now. The future.
I’d come to a decision while I lay under the body of that man on the stairs, but I didn’t know how to communicate it to the others — especially Gavin — or how to go about carrying it out. In the meantime members of Liberation had a twenty-four hour guard on our farm, and people like Toddy kept people like Bronte informed about the state of play in Havelock. So far the state of play was all right, and the word was that the damage done to the particular gang of thugs who’d kidnapped Gavin and me was pretty much terminal. Not many had survived the raid on the house, and the ones who had were now scattered to the four winds. But I wouldn’t like to ask an insurance company for a quote on our long-term safety on the farm. Might as well ask them for a quote on a chicken in a crocodile farm.
But for now we had to keep going. As soon as I could drag my weary body around the farm I’d done a check of the place. Everything about it had particular significance for me now. Of course I’d always valued it. Never taken it for granted. Yet now I noticed stuff almost as if for the first time. The way the wisteria was regrowing after that huge tree branch smashed most of it to pieces. The splatter of paint drops on the concrete outside the machinery shed, where I’d been a bit careless when I was painting it with Dad. A couple of roses Mum had grown from cuttings, down near the shearing shed, at last looking quite healthy, after years of being in the intensive care ward, with most of us giving them no chance. I’d made a joke to Mum once, when I was certain the roses were going to die, a joke about taking flowers to the flowers. You know, like they were in hospital, so you take them flowers… oh forget it.
Anyway, I should have known better about the roses. Whatever Mum planted grew eventually. Take me for instance.
