He unplugged his throat socket to save the batteries. They were expensive, and he lived on a budget. There were tears in his eyes: the bright, standing tears of great joy. He opened his mouth to laugh, and what came out was heavy metal thunder.
3: When the Candles Went Out
'Ready?' Newsome asked.
Laura nodded, her eyes tear-swollen behind sunglasses as Newsome grasped the back of her wheelchair.
The elevator reached the first floor. Ramsey kept the Door Closed button pressed, but they could hear the murmur of voices beyond the door. Newsome drew a long breath, said, 'Let's do it, then,' and Ramsey released the button.
The elevator door slid open, and Newsome wheeled Laura out into the knot of reporters.
It was Sunday afternoon, almost twenty-four hours since David had been stolen. Laura was leaving the hospital without him, the torn stitches between her legs still oozing a little blood and her insides crushed with grief. In the wee hours of the morning, between three and four, her anguish had turned monstrous, and she might have taken her own life if she'd had a gun or pills. Even now, every movement and breath was a labor, as if gravity itself had become her enemy. The rain had ceased, but the sky was still plated with gray clouds and the wind had turned viciously cold. The glaring lights of minicams caught her in their crossfire. Laura ducked her face as Newsome said, 'Give her room, please. Step back now,' and the security officers in the lobby tried to get between Laura and the reporters.
'Mrs. Clayborne, look this way!' someone shouted. She didn't. 'Over here, Laura!' someone else insisted. The questions were flung at her: 'Has there been a ransom note yet, Laura?' 'Do you think Ginger Coles was stalking you?' 'Are you going to sue the hospital?' 'Laura, are you afraid for your baby's safety?'
She didn't answer, and Newsome kept pushing the chair. Though she'd lost David's weight, she'd never felt so burdened down. Cameras whirred, driven by electric motors. 'Mrs. Clayborne, look up!' to her left. On her right, the hot focus of a minicam in her face. 'Get back, I said!' Newsome demanded. Laura looked at the floor. She had been instructed by both Newsome and her own lawyer not to answer any questions, but they flew about her like squawking birds nipping at her ears. 'What about the baby box?' a reporter shouted over the din. 'Did you know about the burned dolls?'
The burned dolls? she thought. What was that about burned dolls? She looked up into Newsome's face. It was closed, like a piece of stone, and he kept guiding her onward through the human sea.
'Did you know she cut an old man's throat before she took your baby?'
'What're you feeling right now, Laura?'
'Is it true she's a member of a satanic cult?'
'Mrs. Clayborne, did you hear that she's insane?'
'Back off!' Newsome growled, and then they'd reached the hospital's front doors and Doug's Mercedes was waiting beyond. Doug was striding toward her, his face drawn from lack of sleep, and her mother and father were in the car. More reporters were waiting outside, converging on her with a glee that was almost wolfish. Doug reached out to help her from the chair, but Laura ignored him. She got into the backseat with her mother, and Doug slid behind the wheel. He accelerated so quickly, a news team from the ABC station had to scatter to keep from being run down, and one of the men lost his toupee in the Mercedes' backblast.
'They're at the house, too,' Doug said, racing away from the hospital. 'Bastards are crawling out of the woodwork.'
Laura saw that her mother wore a black dress and pearls. Was she in mourning? Laura wondered. Or dressed up for the cameras? She closed her eyes, but she saw David behind them and so she lifted the lids again. She felt as if she were bleeding internally, growing weaker and weaker. The engine drone lulled her, and sleep was a sweet refuge: her only refuge.
'The FBI's bringing over some pictures in an hour or so,' Doug told her. 'They took the police sketch you helped them with and put it into a computer that matches photos from their files. Maybe you can identify the woman.'
'She might not be in their files,' Miriam Beale said. 'She might be a lunatic escaped from an asylum.'
'Hush!' Laura's father said. Good for him, Laura thought. Then he added, 'Sugarplum, let's don't upset Laura anymore.'
'Don't upset her? Laura's half crazy with worry! How can it be helped?'
Talking about me like I'm not even here, she thought. I'm invisible, gone bye-bye.
'Don't bite my head off, hon.'
'Well, don't sit up there telling me what to do and what not to do! My God, this is a crisis!'
Dark things stirred in Laura's head, like beasts pulling themselves free of swamp mud' 'What about the burned dolls?' she asked, her voice as raw as a wound.
No one answered.
It's bad, Laura knew. Oh Jesus oh God oh it's bad very bad. 'I want to know. Please.'
Still, no one would rise to the challenge. Pretending I don't know what I'm saying, she thought. 'Doug?' she said. 'Tell me about the burned dolls. If you don't, I'll find out from a reporter at the house.'
'It's nothing.' Her mother spoke up. 'They found a doll or two at the woman's apartment.'
'Oh, Christ!' Doug slammed a fist against the wheel, and the Mercedes briefly swerved from its lane. 'They found a box of dolls in a closet! They were all torn up, some of them burned and others… crushed and stuff. There! You wanted to know! All right?'
'So…' Her mind was starting to shut down again, guarding itself. 'So… the police… think she might… hurt my baby?'
'Our baby!' Doug corrected her fiercely. 'David is our child! I've got a stake in this, too, don't I?'
'The end,' she said.
'What?' He looked at her in the rearview mirror.
'The end of Doug and Laura,' she said, and she uttered not another word.
Her mother clasped her hand with cold fingers. Laura pulled away.
The reporters were at the house, waiting. The vans were out in full force, but the police were there, too, to keep order. Doug put his hand on the horn and bellowed his way into the garage; the garage door slithered down and they were home.
As Miriam took Laura back to the bedroom to get her settled, Doug checked the answering machine. The voices he'd expected were there: NBC, CBS, ABC, People magazine, Newsweek, and other magazines and newspapers. All of them were hooked to the tape recorder left by the police to monitor a possible ransom call. But there was one voice Doug hadn't expected. Two quick words: 'Call me.' Cheryl's voice had gone into the tape recorder, too.
He looked up, and saw Laura's father staring at him.
Laura stood in the nursery. Miriam said, 'Come on, let's get you to bed. Come on now.'
The nursery was a haunted place. Laura heard the ghost-sounds of a baby, and she touched the brightly colored mobile over the crib and sent it gently twirling. She was crying again, the tears stinging on her chapped cheeks. She heard David crying, too, his voice waxing and falling in the little room. Stuffed animals grinned from the crib. Laura picked up a teddy bear and held it against herself, and she sobbed quietly onto its brown fur.
'Laura!' her mother said right behind her. 'Come to bed this minute!'
That voice, that voice. Do what I say when I say it. Jump, Laura! Jump! Be successful, Laura! Marry someone with money and social standing! Stop wearing those awful tie-dyed blouses and bluejeans! Fix your hair like a lady! Grow up. Laura! For God's sake, grow up!
She knew she was stretched to her limit. One more small stretch and she would snap. David was with an insane woman named Ginger Coles, who'd slashed an old man's throat on Saturday morning and killed an FBI agent on Saturday evening. Between those two events, Laura had given her baby to murderous hands. She remembered the red crust under a fingernail. Blood, of course. The old man's blood. That thought alone was enough to rip her off her hinges and send her shambling to a madhouse. Hang on! she thought. Dear God, hang on!
