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didn't know anything else about her. Okay?'

'And you haven't heard from her since?'

'No way.' Treggs bent his long body over and picked up the rake and broom. 'You got your wire turned up loud enough for the pigs to hear? Read my lips: No way.'

'What about Mary Terrell? Is there anything you can tell me about her?'

'Yeah.' He took off his glasses, pulled a handkerchief from his shirt, and cleaned the lenses. 'But you already know. She's crazy as hell. She won't give up to the pigs. They'll have to kill her.'

'And she'll kill my son. Is that what you're saying?'

'I didn't say that.' He put his glasses back on. 'Listen, Mrs. Clayborne, I'm sorry about all this. Really I am. But I don't know anything else about the Storm Front that the pigs – I mean, that the police and FBI don't already know. I'm sorry you came all this way, but I can't help you.'

Laura had an instant where she feared she might pass out. She'd built up her hopes – for what, she wasn't sure – and now this was nothing but a dead end.

'You don't look so good,' Treggs said. 'You want to sit down?' She nodded, and he took her by the arm and led her to a bench. 'You want a Coke? I can get you one.' She shook her head, fighting nausea. She realized that if she threw up, Treggs would have to clean up the mess. It might be worthwhile to do it, just for the hell of it. But she didn't, and she lifted her face to the breeze and felt the cold sweat begin to dry.

She said in a husky voice, 'Is there anything else? Do you have any idea where Mary Terrell might be?'

'No. I don't know where Didi is, either. That was a long time ago.' He sat down on the bench beside her, his long legs splayed out. He wore red Adidas sneakers with stars on them. 'That commune,' he mused. 'Man, it seems like that was part of a different world. Well, it was, wasn't it?' He squinted in the sunlight, and watched a hawk circle above the mountain. 'Long time gone,' he said. 'We had a nice life. Lived on a little farm, had a couple of cows and some chickens. We didn't bother anybody. All we wanted to do was find nirvana. Know what the pigs finally busted us for?' He waited for Laura to shake her head. 'No business license. See, Didi made things. She was a potter, and she sold stuff in town. She was doing pretty good, too, then bam: no business license. Man, I don't see why we don't run out of trees, with all the paper you get choked with. I mean, how come we've still got forests, with all the paper that's been used in all of history? And think about wooden furniture, and houses, and everything else made of wood. How come we've still got forests?' He prodded her with a sharp elbow. 'Huh?'

'I don't know. Maybe you should write a book about it.'

'Yeah, maybe I will,' he said. 'But then that would be using more paper, wouldn't it? See? A vicious cycle.'

They sat for a while in silence. The cold wind strengthened, and Laura heard the cry of a hawk on its current. Mark Treggs stood up. 'You ought to see the rest of Rock City while you're here. It's nice. Peaceful, this time of year. You feel like you own the whole place.'

'I don't feel much like sightseeing.'

'No, I guess not. Well, I've got to get back to work. Can you find your way out?'

Laura nodded. Where was she going to go? And what was she going to do when she got there?

Treggs hesitated, holding the broom and rake. 'Listen… for what it's worth, I'm really sorry about what's happened. I thought Mary Terrell was dead, buried in an unmarked grave somewhere. I guess you never know who's going to turn up, huh?'

'You never know,' Laura agreed.

'Right. Well, you take care. Too bad you had to come all this way for nothing.' He still lingered, throwing a skinny shadow at her feet. 'I hope they find your baby,' he said. 'Peace.' He made the sign, and then he turned and walked away.

She let him go. What was the point? At last, when she was sure she wasn't going to be sick, she stood up. What to do now? Go back to Atlanta. No, no. She didn't feel like making the drive this afternoon. Maybe she'd find a motel room, get herself a bottle of cheap red wine, and let it rip. Two bottles, maybe. What the hell?

She followed her shadow along the winding trail of Rock City; it was the thin, compressed shadow of a woman crushed between the past and the future, and every direction it pointed toward seemed hopeless.

3: Eve of Destruction

Night had fallen, the boxes were alight. From their windows came the glow of den lamps and televisions, small squares of illumination that marched into the distance. There were thousands of them in the darkness, thousands of lives going on about her as Mary Terror guided the van between row after row of Linden's brick and woodframe houses. Drummer, recently fed and changed, lay in his new bassinet on the floorboard and sucked on a pacifier. The van's heater had gotten cranky, wheezing with effort. Mary came to a four-way intersection, slowed, and then drove on, deeper into the heart of memory. The frigid wind swirled newspapers and trash before the headlights, and two men in heavy coats and caps with earflaps crossed the street. Mary watched them move away, out of the lights. She kept going, looking for Carazella's grocery store. She thought she remembered it on the corner of Montgomery Avenue and Charles Street, but a topless bar called Nicky's stood there. She wound through the streets, searching for the past.

Mary Terror had changed. She had cropped her hair short, and dyed it light brown with reddish hints. She had dyed her eyebrows light brown as well, and dotted freckles over her nose and cheeks with an eyebrow pencil. She couldn't do much about her size but slump, but she was wearing new clothes: warmer duds – brown corduroy trousers, a blue flannel shirt, and a fleece-lined jacket. On her feet was a new pair of brown boots. A Hispanic man at a pawnshop in Washington's combat zone had given her twenty-five hundred dollars for her mother's seven- thousand-dollar ring, no questions asked. Since leaving her mother, Mary and Drummer had lived in a series of rooms that gave new meaning to the term 'roach motel.' One cold morning at the Sleep-Rite Inn near Wilmington, Delaware, Mary had awakened to find roaches scurrying across Drummer's face. She had plucked them off, one by one, and crushed them between her fingers. At the next place they'd stayed, Mary had had a bad feeling about the swarthy woman at the front desk. She didn't like the way the woman had looked at Drummer, as if some light switch were just about to click on in the woman's crack-fried brain. Mary had stayed there less than one hour, then had gotten Drummer out and hit the road again. The places they stayed took cash and didn't ask for identification, and most of the time the clientele were whores and Johns, dopeheads and hustlers. At night Mary kept a chair against the door and her gun under her pillow, and she always made sure she knew the quickest way out.

A close call at the Omelet Shoppe outside Trenton, New Jersey, had given her pause for thought. Two pigs had come in while she was eating her pancakes – 'griddle cakes,' they called them up here – and Drummer was in his bassinet next to her. The pigs had sat down at the booth behind her, ordering up the Hungry Man Breakfasts. Drummer had started crying, a nettlesome sound, and he wouldn't be pacified. His crying had risen to a shriek, and finally one of the pigs looked over at Drummer and said, 'Hey! You didn't get your mornin' java, or what?'

'She's always cranky in the morning,' Mary had told the pig with a polite smile. How would he know whether Drummer was a boy or girl? She'd picked Drummer up and rocked him, cooing and clucking, and his crying had begun to ebb. Mary had been damp under her arms, her spine prickling with tension, and the little Magnum pistol in her new carry-all shoulder bag.

'Got a good set of lungs,' the pig had said. 'Oughta try out for the Met when she gets a little older, huh?'

'Maybe so,' Mary had answered, and then the pig had turned away and that was all. Mary forced herself to finish her pancakes, but she couldn't taste them anymore. Then she stood up, paid her bill, and got Drummer out, and in the parking lot she'd spat on the pig car's windshield.

Where was Carazella's grocery store? The neighborhood had changed. 'Been twenty years,' she said to Drummer. 'I guess everything changes, right?' She couldn't wait for Drummer to get older so he could carry on a conversation. Oh, the things she and Jack would teach him! He was going to be a walking fortress of militant politics and philosophy, and he wouldn't take shit from anybody on earth. She turned right onto Chambers Street. A flashing caution light was ahead, marking another intersection. Woodroan Avenue, she thought. Yes! That's where I turn left! In another moment she saw the sign, and there was the building on the corner that had been Carazella's. It was still a grocery store, but now it was called Lo Wah's. She drove on two more blocks, took a right on Elderman Street, and she stopped the van about halfway down the block.