Nikita bent down, placing his hand against the iron. He could feel it vibrate as the train gathered power, heading into its long downhill run. In another moment it would burst out of the tunnel only a few yards distant.
“We’d better go,” Mikhail told him.
Nikita stayed where he was, his hand on the rail. He stared at the tunnel’s rocky opening, and then Mikhail saw him look toward the western tunnel’s entrance, far away. “I used to come here alone,” Nikita said quietly. “I used to watch the train roar past. That was before the berserker, damn him to hell. But I’ve seen the train go past many times. On its way to Minsk, I think. It comes out of that tunnel”-he nodded toward it-“and goes into that one there. Some nights, if the engineer’s in a hurry to get home, it takes less than thirty seconds to make the distance. If he’s drunk and riding the brake, it takes around thirty-five seconds from one tunnel to the next. I know; I’ve counted them off.”
“Why?” Mikhail asked. The train’s thunder-a traveling storm-was getting closer.
“Because someday I’m going to beat it.” Nikita stood up. “Do you know what, for me, the grandest thing in the world would be?” His almond-shaped, Mongol eyes stared through the darkness at Mikhail. The boy shook his head. “To be fast,” Nikita went on, excitement mounting in his voice. “The fastest of all the pack. The fastest who ever lived. To will the change between the time the train comes out of the first tunnel and reaches the second. Do you see?”
Mikhail shook his head.
“Then watch,” Nikita told him. The western tunnel had begun to lighten, and the rails were throbbing with a steam engine’s mighty pulse. Nikita threw off his robe and stood naked to the world. And then, quite suddenly, the train burst from the tunnel like a snorting, black-mawed behemoth with a single yellow, cyclopean eyeball. Mikhail leaped backward as its hot breath enfolded him. Nikita, standing right at the edge of the tracks, didn’t move a muscle. Freight cars rumbled past, red cinders spinning in the turbulence. Mikhail saw Nikita’s body tense, saw his flesh ripple and begin to grow its sheen of fine black hair-and then Nikita started running along the tracks, his back and legs banded with wolf hair. He ran toward the eastern tunnel, his spine contorting in an instant, his legs and arms shivering and beginning to draw themselves upward into the torso. Mikhail saw the black hair cover Nikita’s buttocks, a dark wartlike thing grew and burst at the base of the spine and the wolf’s tail uncurled, twitching like a rudder. Nikita’s backbone ratcheted down, and he ran low to the ground, his forearms thickening and his hands starting to twist into claws. He caught up with the engine, racing alongside it toward the mouth of the eastern tunnel. The engineer was riding the brake, but the furnace was still spouting sparks. Grinding wheels thundered two feet away from Nikita’s legs. As he ran, his heart hammering, his feet contorted and threw him off balance, and he lost precious seconds as he struggled to right himself. The train’s engine left him behind, black smoke and sparks swirling around him. He breathed the corruption of man, and his lungs felt poisoned. Mikhail lost sight of Nikita in the black maelstrom.
The train roared into the eastern tunnel, and continued its journey to Minsk. A single red lamp swung back and forth on the railing of its last freight car.
The smoke that had settled along the gulley had the sour tang of burned green timber. Mikhail walked into it, following the tracks, and he could feel the heat of the train’s passage. Cinders still spun to earth, a night of dying stars. “Nikita!” he called. “Where are-”
A dark, powerful form leaped at him.
The black wolf planted its paws on Mikhail’s shoulders and drove him down to the earth. Then the wolf stood astride his chest, its slanted eyes staring fixedly into his face, and its jaws opened to show clean white fangs.
“Stop it,” Mikhail said. He grasped Nikita’s muzzle and pushed the wolf’s head astride. The wolf snarled, snapping at his face. “Will you stop it?” Mikhail demanded. “You’re about to squash me!”
The wolf showed its fangs again, right in front of Mikhail’s nose, and then a wet pink tongue came out and licked across Mikhail’s face. Mikhail yelped and tried to shove the beast off, but Nikita’s weight was solid. Finally, Nikita stepped off Mikhail’s chest, and the boy sat up knowing he would find paw bruises on his flesh the next morning. Nikita ran in a circle, snapping at his tall just for the fun of it, and then he leaped into the high weeds on the gulley’s side and rolled in them. “You’re crazy!” Mikhail said, getting to his feet.
As Nikita rolled in the weeds, his body began to change again. There was a cracking sound of sinews lengthening, of bones being rejointed. Nikita gave a small mutter of pain, and Mikhail walked away a few yards to give him privacy. In another thirty seconds or so, Mikhail heard Nikita say quietly, “Damn.”
The Mongol walked past Mikhail, on his way uphill toward his cast-off robe. “I tripped over my own damned feet,” he said. “They always get in the way.”
Mikhail got in pace beside him. The black smoke was rising out of the gulley now, and the scorched iron smell of civilization was going with it. “I don’t understand,” he said. “What were you trying to do?”
“I told you. To be fast.” He glanced back, in the direction the train had gone. “It’ll be back, tomorrow night. And the night after that. I’ll try again.” He reached his robe, picked it up, and put it around his shoulders. Mikhail was watching him blankly, still not fully comprehending. “Wiktor will tell you a story, if you ask,” Nikita said. “He says the old man who led the pack when Wiktor came in remembered someone who could will the change in twenty-four seconds. Can you imagine that? From human to wolf in twenty-four seconds? Wiktor himself can’t beat half a minute! And I-well, I’m pathetic.”
“No, you’re not. You’re fast.”
“Not fast enough,” Nikita said forcefully. “I’m not the quickest, I’m not the strongest, I’m not the smartest. And all my life, even when I was a boy your age breaking my ass in a coal mine, I wanted to be something special. You work at the bottom of a mine shaft long enough, you dream of being a bird. Maybe I still have that dream-only I want my legs to be wings.”
“What does it matter, whether you’re the quickest or-”
“It matters to me,” he interrupted. “It gives me a purpose. Do you see?” He went on without waiting for the boy to respond. “I come here during the summer, but only at night. I don’t want the engineer to see me. I am getting faster; it’s just that my legs haven’t figured out how to fly yet.” He motioned down the tracks toward the distant eastern tunnel. “Some night I’m going to beat the train. I’m going to start right here, as a man, and before the train reaches the other tunnel I’m going to cross the tracks in front of the engine as a wolf.”
“Cross the tracks?”
“Yes. On all fours,” Nikita said. “Now we’d better find something for the pack to eat, or we’ll be looking all night.” He started walking away, downhill toward the east, and Mikhail followed him. A little more than a half mile from where Nikita had chased the train, they found a crushed rabbit lying on the tracks. It was a fresh kill, its eyes bulging as if still mesmerized by the glowing yellow orb of the monster that had passed over it. The rabbit was a small find, but it was a beginning. Nikita picked it up by the ears and carried it at his side, swinging it like a broken toy as they continued their search.
The smell of the rabbit’s blood made Mikhail’s mouth water. He could almost feel a bestial growl strain to leave his throat. He was becoming more like the pack every passing day. The change was waiting for him, like a dark friend. All he had to do was reach out for it, and embrace it; it was that close, and it was eager. But he didn’t know how to control it. He had no idea how to “will the change,” as the others seemed to. Was it like a command, or a dream? He feared losing the last of being a human; the full change would take him to a place where he dared not go. Not yet; not just yet.
He was salivating. There was a growl; not his throat, but his stomach. He was still more boy than wolf, after all.
On many nights during that long, drought-plagued summer, Mikhail hunted with Nikita along the railroad tracks. Once, in early August, they found a small deer suffering, two of its legs severed by the train’s wheels. Nikita had bent down and looked into that deer’s shock-silvered eyes, and Mikhail had watched him reach gentle hands out to stroke the animal’s flanks. Nikita had spoken quietly to the deer, trying to calm it-and then he placed his hands on the deer’s skull and gave it a sharp, violent twist. The deer had slumped, its neck broken, all suffering ended. And that, Nikita told him, was the meaning of mercy.
The train kept to its schedule. Some nights it roared down the hill, from tunnel to tunnel; other nights its brakes screamed and hurled sparks. Mikhail sat on the embankment, in the shelter of the pines, and watched as Nikita raced it along the rails, his body twisting, fighting for balance as the change swept over him. It always seemed to be his legs, the earth-rooted wings, that refused to let him fly. Nikita was getting faster, but never fast enough; the train invariably outpaced him, and left him in its smoke as it thundered into the eastern tunnel.
August ended, and the summer’s final train rumbled away toward Minsk, its red lantern swinging on the last
