was astonishing. For the first time in her life, Angela found
She hadn't intended to be a self-published magazine editor. At first she merely wanted to correspond with the people she met through other people's 'zines, but a few samples of these grainy, amateurish efforts convinced her that she could produce a better one, and she quickly realized that it was much simpler to produce one magazine than it was to try to write twenty-five personal letters.
So
She would be the first to admit that
She smiled again, remembering the heady feeling of acceptance in those early days. It was like being cheerleader, prom queen, and secretary of the class all rolled into one. And the letters were so
Looking back, Angela knew that most of those people were not her friends at all. They sent her lectures on their own pet obsessions with a word or two of personalization, or they sent mimeographed letters to who-knows- how-many correspondents. Convoy duty was not her idea of a relationship, but it took her a good many years to realize that. The letters that were personal were mostly from unattached young men, who viewed her as a rare prize, because in the fifties women in the hobby were few and far between. She had indulged in a few long-distance romances with some of the more eloquent souls, but the spark never survived an actual meeting.
Over the years, though, Angela had become more perceptive, and more selective about her friends, and she had found some good ones and had managed to keep most of them for several decades now. She no longer published
Aside from that, she answered a few of the correspondents she chose to keep with
She had been surprised to hear from-she smiled at the conceit-MistralWorld, Inc. about the Lanthanides' reunion. The former residents of the Tennessee Fan Farm did not number among the friends she kept. She didn't suppose they had noticed, though. She still got eight-page letters from George Woodard about three times a year, but at least six of the pages were photocopied essays with no personalization whatsoever on them. They usually discussed the Woodard daughters, favorable comments received about
As for the others, she had lost touch with Bunzie and Surn, half afraid that if she did write to them, she would receive a reply from some secretary treating her as another piece of fan mail. Occasionally they would appear at a science fiction convention, but she never looked them up. There was always too much else to do in a short weekend. She and Barbara Conyers exchanged Christmas cards, but she hadn't heard from Stormy or the others in years, and the fandom grapevine reported several of them dead.
She thought about the Substitute Con party, and the long drive she had made to get there, using most of her birthday money for gas! It would be strange to see all those idealistic boys again as old men. In retrospect, a lifetime was not very long. And what strange bread upon the waters to have her 1954 gas money expenditure repaid with a plane ticket from Ruben Mistral (Inc.). She wanted to cry just thinking about the distance between then and now, and about how short life is, and how easy it is to lose the thread between people.
'Excuse me, ma'am, are you all right?'
Angela looked up into the concerned eyes of a male flight attendant. He was about to hand a diet Coke to her seatmate, and apparently he had noticed her tear-stained cheeks.
Angela Arbroath summoned a gentle smile. 'Why, I'm right as rain,' she told him.
'It's no trouble at all,' said Jay Omega for the fifth time. 'It isn't far to the State Welcome Center. We passed it on 81 on our way in.'
Erik Giles reddened and heaved a weary sigh. 'How like George Woodard to have car trouble! Do you remember that character in 'L'il Abner' who always had a black cloud over his head? That's Woodard exactly. We used to call him Disaster Lad. I think Pat Malone once wrote a Superman parody using Woodard as Disaster Lad.'
'Cars are tricky things,' said Jay Omega, to whom they weren't. 'Marion once made me drive all the way to Roanoke to get her because her car wouldn't start. Turned out she hadn't put gas in it. Marion believes in mind over Mazda.'
Erik Giles grunted in what may have been amusement. 'Well, I hope this is the last of George's bad luck for the weekend.'
As they rounded a bend, an open space between the oaks afforded them a glimpse of the dry lake bed. 'It's a strange sight, isn't it?' Jay remarked.
Erik Giles shrugged. 'Only because the hills around it are so green. Out west it wouldn't look strange at all.'
'I haven't seen any sign of the town yet. I suppose everyone will visit that tomorrow when the reunion actually begins.'
'I doubt if there will be much to see after all these years. In fact, I wonder how Bunzie can be so sure he'll be able to locate the time capsule.'
'You must have had landmarks when you buried it.' 'A fence and an old tree. Do you suppose they'll still be there?' 'I don't know. Traces of them may remain. Once you locate the town, you should be able to get your bearings and pinpoint specific landmarks.'
'Perhaps so. I was just thinking how foolish we would all feel if we brought everyone here and then ended up