The Independence of Miss Mary Bennet

she could construe as romantic, or let his hand linger when it brushed hers, or gave her the kind of looks Mr. Wilde did. His attitude was that of the brother she had never known; something like, she assumed, an older version of Charlie. For these reasons her sense of fairness said that she could not show him the cold shoulder, though, had she suspected what people were saying, Mr. Sinclair would certainly have been dismissed forthwith.

And he, fearing for her, bit his tongue. After nine days he knew every minute aspect of her plans, and gained a better idea of why Fitz had spoken of her sneeringly. She was exactly the kind of female he most despised, for she lacked innate propriety and was too strong-willed to take discipline. Not from any moral failing; simply that she did not see herself, an aging spinster, as needing the full gamut of the proprieties. Young ladies were hedged around because they must go virgins to the marriage bed, whereas a thirty-eight-year-old spinster stood in little danger from masculine lusts or attentions. In that, of course, she was completely mistaken. Men looked at the sleepy- lidded eyes, lush mouth and spectacular colouring, and cared not a rush for her years or her appalling clothes.

Given her age and the years still to come, her means were not adequate for the kind of life she was entitled to; her house cost her fifty pounds to rent, her servants a hundred pounds in wages alone, to which had to be added their upkeep; Angus suspected that the married couple Mr. Wilde had found cheated her, as did the cook. Her income did not permit of a riding horse or any kind of conveyance. If Angus understood anything about her, he did understand why she shrank from employing a lady’s companion. Those females were uniformly dreary, ill-educated and stifling for such a one as Mary Bennet, whose vitality conquered the clothes and the life society decreed she must lead. What he could not know was what kind of person she had been until very recently, how successfully she had suppressed her aspirations. All in the name of duty.

The withdrawal of her nine thousand, five hundred pounds from the Funds was insanity-why? Her excuse to the ferreting Angus was that she might need it for her journalistic investigation, an arrant nonsense.

“I take it you will travel by post?” he asked her.

She looked scandalised. “Post? I should think not! Why, that would cost me three or four guineas a day, even for a single horse and a smelly chaise! Not to mention the half a crown I would have to pay the postilion. Oh, dear me, no. I shall travel on the stage-coach.”

“The Mail, surely,” he said, still thrown off balance. “There is a Manchester Mail every day from London, and while it may not pass through Hertford, it certainly does through St. Albans. You would reach your destination the following night.”

“After a night spent sitting bolt upright in a swaying coach! I shall travel north from Hertford on the stage- coach to Grantham, breaking my journey every evening to put up at an inn,” said Mary.

“There is that to be said for it,” said Angus with a nod. “A posting house will afford you overnight comfort as well as good food.”

“Posting house?” Mary snorted. “I can assure you, sir, that I cannot afford to put up at a posting house! I will avail myself of cheaper accommodation.”

He debated whether to argue, and decided against it. “Grantham is surely too far east,” he said instead.

“I am aware of that, but as it is on the Great North Road, I will have several stage-coaches to choose from,” she said. “At Grantham I will go west to Nottingham, thence to Derby, and so to Manchester.”

Just how straitened were her circumstances? he wondered. Her nine thousand, five hundred pounds would not keep her into her old age, that was true, so perhaps her pride forbade her telling him that she knew she would have nothing more from Fitz, in which case, it made sense that she should scrimp on her mission of investigation. Yet why withdraw her money from the Funds?

Then one reason why occurred to him: because once it was deposited in a bank in her name she knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that it was there. To a Mary Bennet, investment in the four-percents was evanescent; her money might vanish in a puff of smoke, victim of another South Sea Bubble. Then a more sinister reason occurred to him: she was afraid that if she left it invested, Fitz might somehow deprive her of it. On their many walks she had talked of him freely, with scant respect and no love. She did not fear him, but she feared his power.

Angus did not fear Fitz or Fitz’s power, but he did fear for Mary. Her indifference to clothes meant that she did not look what she was: a gentlewoman of some substance. Those who travelled on the stage-coach with her, Angus’s racing mind went on, would take her for the most lowly sort of governess, or even a superior abigail. Oh, Mary, Mary! You and your wretched book! Would that I had never dreamed of a nonexistent man named Argus!

What did not occur to him, as she never once mentioned it, was that she expected to pay at least nine thousand pounds to a publisher to put her book into print. So in one way he had been right: the withdrawal of her money from the Funds was done because she feared the power of Fitzwilliam Darcy.

On the tenth day of his sojourn in Hertford, he decided that he could take no more. Better to stew about her fate in London sight unseen than continue to feast his eyes upon her while April’s blossoms fell to the ground. Yet he could not say goodbye, did not dare face her again in case his resolution broke down and he made a declaration of love he knew was not returned. Apostrophising himself as a coward and a curmudgeon, he ordered his chaise for straight after breakfast and drove out of Hertford without telling his love that he was going, or leaving her a note.

The word of his departure flew faster than a bird from the landlord of the Blue Boar to Mr. Wilde’s under-clerk and Miss Botolph’s manservant, and thence, equally swiftly, to Mr. Wilde and Miss Botolph. Who were on Miss Bennet’s doorstep before the uncomfortably High vicar of St. Mark’s sounded the Angelus.

Mary heard their news impassively, though under her composure she was conscious of the sadness she always felt when Charlie’s visits were over. She dealt with Mr. Wilde’s overt jubilation in the most dampening way, and assured the pair of them that she had been expecting Mr. Sincair’s departure for some time. When Miss Botolph hinted heavily about disappointed hopes, she was ignored; the rest of Hertford’s upper stratum might have been anticipating a joyous Announcement, but Mary had not. To her, Angus was simply a good friend whom she would miss.

“Perhaps he will return,” said Mrs. McLeod toward the end of April.

“If he intends to, Sophia, he had better be quick,” said Miss Botolph. “Mary is off on her travels very soon, though I do wish she was less secretive about them. And what is Mr. Darcy about, to let her ride in the common stage?”

“Pride,” said Mrs. Markham. “A ha’penny to nothing, he has no idea she is journeying to Pemberley, though I note that her things have been packed and sent to Pemberley ahead of her.”

“Is she at all cast down about Mr. Sinclair?” asked Lady Appleby; living five miles out at Shelby Manor, she was always the last to know anything.

“Not a scrap cast down. In fact, I would say she is happy,” said Mrs. McLeod.

“The field is clear for Robert Wilde,” said Miss Botolph.

Mrs. Markham sighed. “She will not have him either.”

I AM GOING HOME to Pemberley,” said Charlie ten days into May, “and I would very much like it if you came with me, Owen.”

Dark brows raised, Mr. Griffiths looked at his charge in astonishment. “You’re finished the term, I know, but Pemberley? Your father will be there, and you dislike that.”

“Yes, damn it! However, I cannot stay here.”

“Why not?”

“Mary.”

“Oh, I see. She has commenced her odyssey.”

“Bound to have.”

“But how can being at Pemberley help?”

“Closer to her targets. Besides, Pater will be aware of her every movement, if I know him. She may need a friend at court.”

“Your mama did say that he was displeased at your aunt’s plans, but do you think him likely to confide in you?”

“No.” Charlie hunched his shoulders, his mobile face saying more than mere words could. “No one will deem it odd if I go home early, since I couldn’t get there at Christmas. Pater will ignore my presence, and Mama will be ecstatic. If you’re with me, we can do a bit of prowling in the direction of Manchester. ’Tis but a day’s ride from