The fewer people that see us together, the better. Wait here.'
I left the keys with her again. It was no drama, she was going nowhere;
she wanted me to help her. Besides, she knew that if she drove off I'd have to call it in, and she would then be OTR (on the run) not only from me, but also from the police, and the Firm would have no option but to stitch her up.
I left her counting trucks and went inside the office. I recognized Velvet from her voice as she took another phone inquiry at the speed of sound.
Her hair was long, past her shoulders, and she had a dyed-blond perm that was long overdue for a refit. It had so much spray on it that the hairs looked like strands of nylon. The skin on her arms and hands showed that she was in her twenties, but her fingers were yellow and she already had crow's-feet from screwing up her face to stop the cigarette smoke getting in her eyes. She looked pretty enough on the outside, but I wouldn't have wanted to look down a fiber-optic scope into her lungs. My eyes were stinging more than ever.
She finished her call and looked up.
'Hi. How may I help you?'
'Hi, my name's Nick Snell. I booked an apartment with you this morning.'
Before I'd finished she was already going into her files, and moments later she nourished a key.
'I'll need you to fill out this form. I forgot to ask if you have any pets. If so, they mustn't weigh more than twenty pounds each and you are only allowed two. How are you paying?'
'No, I don't, and cash.'
At last, a reaction from her that wasn't fully automated; maybe she liked the way I pronounced the word 'cash.' Two minutes later I was heading back to the car.
I opened the map and looked for North Reilly Road, which Velvet had told me was only a few minutes' drive away. Stewart's Creek turned out to be a private 'community' with just one road in and out; it opened up into an area of about forty acres, on which sat twenty or so blocks of green, wooden-facaded apartment blocks, three stories high. We observed the 15 mph limit as we entered our new neighborhood.
'It's apartment one seven one two,' I said, looking from side to side.
'I
guess that's building seventeen.' Sarah nodded and we splashed our way through the puddles, looking at the numbers on the large gray mail boxes arranged outside each block. We passed the community pool and tennis courts, beside which stood a row of call booths and Coke and newspaper machines.
'Got it.' Sarah turned into number seventeen's parking lot.
We climbed the wooden stairs and entered the apartment. The first impression was, brown. There was a brown sofa and chair around a tv and a log fire in the fake-stone fireplace, with a chain-mail curtain to protect the brown carpet. The living area was open plan, with the kitchen area facing us as we went in. At the far end of the room was a set of sliding patio doors with insect mesh on the outer side, which led to a small balcony.
The place smelled clean and looked comfortable. In the bedrooms, blankets, sheets and towels were all laid out, ready for use. In the kitchen there was a welcome pack of coffee, powdered creamer and sugar. Sarah went into the bedrooms, closing the blinds. I slipped into the kitchen area and switched on the freezer, turning the dial to 'rapid.' The sound of the motor powering up was too noisy, so I put the fridge on as well.
She came back into the living room as I was putting the kettle on.
'Now what?' she asked, closing the patio-door blinds to cut out prying eyes.
'Nothing. You stay here, I'll go and get food. I'm starving. The kettle's on, why not make a brew?'
I drove to the nearest store, which was part of a gas station, and bought the normal supplies a couple of subs, chips, canned drinks, washing and shaving kit. Then I used my call card to dial Metal Mickey from a phone booth on the forecourt. There was no answer from his extension at the embassy, not even voice mail and the switchboard wouldn't take messages.
Baby-G told me it was 18:36. He must have finished for the day. I tried to remember his home number; I couldn't, shit. It got binned with the 3C.
I returned to the apartment. Sarah was lying on the sofa half asleep, TV on and with no coffee made. I threw her a sub and a bag of chips, and turned to reheat the water. The yellow freezer light told me it was still working overtime to achieve quick freeze.
Sarah eventually reached out and started to pull open her food. I poured water into the coffee mugs.
The annoying thing was that everything she'd said made sense; she'd done nothing to show she was lying. Why should she trust anyone back in London? I knew from firsthand experience that the Firm was as slippery as an eel in baby oil.
I turned around to face her as I placed the coffee on the breakfast bar.
She was lying back with the sub on her chest, one mouthful missing.
She'd closed down. I knew how she felt. I was knackered and my head was starting to spin. I desperately needed sleep. I checked that the front door was locked and crashed out on one of the double beds, on top of the piles of sheets, towels and blankets.
It was still dark when I woke. I turned and felt another body next to me. I hadn't heard or felt her come into the room.
As my eyes adjusted to the dull light from the street lamps through the blinds, I could make out her shape. She was facing me, curled up, her hands together, supporting her head. It sounded as if she was having a bad dream. She mumbled to herself and started to move her head against the folded blanket. She'd never appeared more vulnerable. I just lay there, looking at her.
Her skin glowed in the warmth of the room, but her brow was furrowed.
For a moment, she almost seemed to be in pain. I reached out to touch her, just as she gave a small cry, tossed and turned once, then settled again. I could still smell the scent of apple shampoo in her hair.
I figured I'd been pretty good at keeping people at arm's length ever since I was a kid. It didn't make life completely fucking brilliant, but it kept me going and it sure as hell helped avoid disappointment. This was different, though. Very different.
She murmured again and snuggled closer to me. I didn't know how to deal with this at all. First Kelly, now Sarah. Any minute now I'd be checking out real estate agents' particulars for the dream cottage with roses around the door. The full catastrophe. It scared the shit out of me.
I'd never been the world's best when it came to staying in one place, and I started to have this uncomfortable feeling that keeping on the move suited me so well because it meant I didn't have to think too much about what I was running away from, or what I was heading toward.
I could hear the TV still going in the next room. A woman was trying to sell us a great deal on a barbecue set. I rolled over, sat up and pulled at the corner of the blinds. It wasn't raining, but I could see from the rivulets on the windows that we'd had another downpour during the last few hours.
The back lighter of Baby-G told me it was 02:54.
I stood up slowly, trying not to disturb her, and made my way toward the kitchen. Rubbing my eyes back into life as I passed the mirror on the living room wall, I saw the face from hell; creases and blotches from sleeping on the towels, and my hair thick with grease, sticking up as if I'd had a good burst from a Tazer. I shuffled to the kitchen, scratching every fold of skin I could reach. It was coffee time.
Sarah must have heard me banging about. Her voice behind me matched the way I felt and looked.
'I'd like one of those, please.' The TV went quiet as she hit 'off' on the remote.
She sat on the sofa, looking sheepishly at the carpet, her arms between her legs, as if she'd been unmasked as human after all. I was expecting her to say, 'Please don't tell anyone,' but she didn't. Instead she said, 'I'm sorry about that. Nick, I just felt so alone and scared. I needed to be close to you.' She looked up at me. Her eyes were full of pain, and something else I couldn't quite identify, but found myself hoping was regret.
'You did mean a lot to me. Nick. I just didn't know how to deal with it at the time. I'm sorry for how I behaved then, and I'm sorry for being so stupid now.' She paused, searching my face.
'I won't do it again, I promise.'
I turned back to the coffee and tried to sound upbeat.
'That's OK, no drama.'
What I really wanted to do was grab her, hold her tightly and pretend for a moment that I could make everything all right. But I was frozen between my memory of what she'd done to me in the past and what my orders
