He replaced his glass delicately on the tray in front of him, and dropped his hands on to his knees. ‘Of course. When you leave. And of course you are free to go whenever you wish. I’m sure Ramzi explained that we do nothing here that might help our enemies to trace us. We use no electronics, no TV, no phones, no satellite technology. No devices of the kind that might bring a bomb down on my head.’ He paused, and seemed to be reserving his little half-smile for me personally. ‘You understand my concern, Nick, I am certain.’
I returned his smile as he picked up his glass.
‘My people are not pleased that I wanted to meet with you. They think you could be here to kill me.’ He took an appreciative sip and studied us both. ‘I’ve told them that if that is God’s will, then so be it. But the fact is, I wish to talk with you.’
He put his glass down, but his eyes never left mine. Was it true? Was I here to kill him? If I looked away, I knew his suspicions would be confirmed. ‘But let us eat and talk a while. I’m sure you’re hungry, after your long and eventful journey.’
His head tilted gently to one side. ‘And you, Jerry . . . Why is it that you wish to take my picture?’
Jerry looked straight at him as well. ‘To help me, and to help you. To help me win a Pulitzer, and help you get on the front cover of
Nuhanovic arched an eyebrow. ‘In what way?’
Jerry smiled wearily. ‘I haven’t got my camera any more, so it’s academic.’
The side door opened and two men came in carrying a selection of bowls, which they laid out on the tray between us. I caught a glimpse of two others standing outside with AKs, paying a lot more attention to us than to what was happening in the kitchen. No way were we going to be able to hit-and-run this man.
The bowls contained hot rice, raisins, meat, chopped onions, and enough pitta bread for an invading army. Forks were offered, but we refused politely.
As the door closed again, Nuhanovic gestured for us to eat. I ripped off a piece of pitta with my right hand and used it as a scoop to get among the meat juices. No doubt the two AK boys were now standing with their faces against the grille, just in case I tried to jam it down his throat and choke him with it.
The door opened and the waiters were back with glasses of orange juice and a brass washing bowl, jug and hand towels for later on. The AK boys hadn’t budged an inch.
The door closed again.
‘Hasan?’
He looked up and smiled, and I hoped my chin wasn’t dripping gravy. ‘What concerns me is that we might be the ones getting killed, because we know where you are.’
He glanced at the door and treated us to the full smile this time.
‘They’re simply for my protection. I do not kill people.’ He took a sip of his coffee. ‘Besides, you knew how to get here, and yet you have made no attempt to compromise me. I am happy for us to trust each other.’
He smiled again, but held our gaze for that extra second before continuing. ‘When we have spoken about certain things, you will be taken back to Sarajevo.’
He put a piece of bread into his mouth and handed Jerry the paper bag. ‘Jerry, I agree with you. I think being on the cover of
Jerry glanced inside and pulled out two cardboard and plastic disposable cameras, the sort you see waved about on hen nights.
It was as if a switch had been thrown. Suddenly Jerry was in Pulitzer mode. ‘There’s not enough light in here. Can we improve it?’
Nuhanovic nodded slowly, looking towards the decorative grille. ‘I’m sure we can.’
Jerry ripped the cellophane wrapper from the first camera as he checked out the room for light angles or whatever photographers do.
Nuhanovic carried on eating, but I felt his eyes boring into me. The door opened and the two guys came in again, another oil lamp in each hand. Jerry showed them exactly where he wanted them, then adjusted them an inch or two for perfection as the boys chucked some more wood on the fire and left. The AK boys still stared at us from the other side of the door.
Jerry wound the first exposure into place. ‘Mind if I move around, try some angles?’
Nuhanovic didn’t look up, just nodded and finished chewing. Then, as Jerry began to fine-tune the lamp positions yet again and busy himself with even more photography stuff, he leaned towards me, his elbows on his thighs. ‘Nick, I, too, want to talk about what happened in the cement factory. But first, please tell me, why were you there? And what exactly did you see?’
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Flashlight bounced around the room as I told him everything, apart from the real reason I’d been there. Instead he got the camera-kit-stolen-and-had-to-hide-when-I-saw-the-trucks-coming version.
Jerry took shot after shot and the camera whined each time like a tiny jet engine.
I talked Nuhanovic along the whole timeline, from the moment I saw vehicles approaching to the moment he had his argument with Mladic. ‘There was a group of girls held back after you’d left . . .’
His eyes never left mine.
‘They were raped, systematically. One threw herself out of a third-floor window.’
What I was looking for was confirmation, but I wasn’t going to get it just yet. His eyes went down and fixed on the rice. He took a few grains in his fingers and rolled it into a ball. Jerry still buzzed around us like a worker-bee with a mission.
‘I found out much later that one of them was called Zina. She was only fifteen. After the other girl jumped, and they scraped her off Mladic’s wagon, Zina made a run for it, towards the treeline where I was hiding.’
He watched the ball of rice all the way to his mouth.
‘The Serbs just laughed. Some of them were laughing so much they found it hard to come into the aim. When she spotted me, she looked confused. She stopped, looked round at the Serbs, then turned again. I can still see the look on her face. That was when she took a round in the back.
‘She fell directly in front of me. So close I felt the mud splash. She crawled towards me, begging with her eyes. And I did nothing to help her as she died. I’ll never forget her eyes . . .’
I ripped some bread and picked up another chunk of meat. ‘For a long time, I used to lie awake at night, wondering what she’d be doing now if she was alive. Maybe she’d be a mother, maybe a model. She was a good- looking kid.’
Nuhanovic looked up slowly as he swallowed. Jerry pressed the shutter release and the flash made him blink. For a moment, he looked surprised.
‘That’s a very moving story, Nick, but one I find somewhat confusing. In fact, I was confused from the moment Ramzi told me about you.
‘I had to ask myself, why would a Westerner have been in that part of Bosnia on that particular day? He could only have been a newsman, a soldier, or a spy. I was intrigued. Hence, my invitation.
‘And I am still intrigued. You say you were a reporter, but I never saw a report about Mladic murdering Muslims that day. Why is that? No one in that line of business would have failed to exploit such a story. It would have grabbed world headlines.
‘But no . . . no story. I think that is because you are not a reporter, Nick. Which means you must have been there as a soldier, or a spy. But let us not beat about the bush: the distinction between the two is irrelevant.’ His eyes never left mine. ‘Satisfy my curiosity, Nick. Why were you really there?’
Fuck it, why not? In any case, if I wanted more from him, I had to expect to trade.
I told him why I was there, how I just lay in my hide, waiting for the Paveway to come down on Mladic. ‘I felt a lot of guilt for not calling it in sooner. I was haunted by the thought I could have stopped the killing. Lately, I’ve even been thinking that talking to you about it might help me. You were there, maybe you would have
