on the statues of LaFayette and Washington. Calliopes played patriotic airs, and a compressed-air machine shot up puffs of smoke which momentarily spelled out the candidate's name. Resigned to pantomime glimpses of what was going on, I moved around the outside edge of the crowd, thinking I might just as well leave altogether.
“Please don't step on my foot so firmly. Or is that part of the Populist tradition?”
“Excuse me, miss; I'm sorry. Did I hurt you?”
We were close enough to a light standard for me to see she was young and well dressed, hardly the sort of girl to be found at a political meeting, few of which ever counted much of a feminine audience.
She rubbed her instep briefly. “It's all right,” she conceded grudgingly. “Serves me right for being curious about the mob.”
She was plump and pretty, with a small, discontented mouth and pale hair worn long over her shoulders. “There's not much to see from here,” I said; “unless you're enthusiastic enough to be satisfied with a bare look at the important people, perhaps you'd let me help you to the streetcar. For my clumsiness.”
She looked at me thoughtfully. “I can manage by myself. But if you feel you owe me something for trampling me, maybe you'll explain why anyone comes to these ridiculous gatherings.”
“Why… to hear the speakers.”
“Hardly any of them can. Only those close up.”
“Well then, to show their support of the party, I guess.”
“That's what I thought. It's a custom or rite or something like that. A stupid amusement.”
“But cheap,” I said. “And those who vote for Populists usually haven't much money.”
“Maybe that's why,” she answered. “If they found more useful things to do they'd earn money; then they wouldn't vote for Populists.”
“A virtuous circle. If everyone voted Whig we'd all be rich as Whigs.”
She shrugged her shoulders, a gesture I found pleasing. “It's easy enough to be envious of those who are better off; it's a lot harder to become better off yourself.”
“I can't argue with you on that, miss.. . urn.. . ?”
“Why Mister Populist, do ladies always tell you their names when you step on their feet?”
“I'm not usually lucky enough to find feet to step on that have lovely ladies attached,” I answered boldly. “I won't deny Populist leanings, but my name is really Hodge Backmaker.”
Hers was Tirzah Vame, and she was indentured to a family of wealthy Whigs who owned a handsome modern cast-iron and concrete house near the reservoir at Fortysecond Street and Fifth Avenue. She had used the apt word “curious” in characterizing herself, but it was, as I soon found out, a cold and inflexible curiosity which explored only what she thought might be useful or which impressed her as foolish. She was interested in the nature of anything fashionable or popular or much talked of; the idea of being concerned with anything even vaguely abstract struck her as preposterous.
She had indented, not out of stark economic necessity, but calculatedly, believing she could achieve economic security through indenture. This seemed paradoxical to me, even when I contrasted my “free” condition with her bound one. Certainly she seemed to have minimum restriction on her time; soon after our introduction at the rally she was meeting me almost every evening in Reservoir Square where we sat for hours talking on a bench or walking briskly when the autumn weather chilled our blood.
I did not long flatter myself that her interest—perhaps tolerance would be a better word—was due to any strong attraction exerted by me. If anything she was, I think, slightly repelled by my physical presence, which carried to her some connotation of ordinary surroundings and contrasted with the well-fed smooth surfaces of her employers and their friends. The first time I kissed her she shuddered slightly; then, closing her eyes, she allowed me to kiss her again.
She did not resist me when I pressed my lovemaking; she led me quietly to her room in the big house on my transparent plea that the outdoors was now too cold even for conversation. I was no accomplished seducer, but even in my awkward eagerness I could see she had made up her mind I was to succeed.
That her complaisance was not the result of passion was soon obvious; there was not so much a failure on my part to arouse her as a refusal on hers to be aroused beyond an inescapable degree. Even as she permitted our intimacy she remained as virginal, aloof, and critical as before.
“It seems hardly worth the trouble. Imagine people talking and writing and thinking about nothing else.”
“Tirzah dear—”
“And the liberties that seem to go with it. I don't think of you as any more dear than I did an hour ago. If people must indulge in this sort of thing, and I suppose they must since it's been going on for a long time, I think it could be conducted with more dignity.”
As my infatuation increased her coolness did not lessen; curiosity alone seemed to move her. She was amused at my pathetic search for knowledge. “What good is your learning ever going to do you? It'll never get you a penny.”
I smoothed the long, pale hair and kissed her ear. “Suppose it doesn't?” I argued lazily. “There are other things besides money.”
She drew away. “That's what those who can't get it always say.”
“And what do people who can get it say?”
“That it's the most important thing of all,” she answered earnestly. “That it will buy all the other things.”
“It will buy you free of your indenture,” I admitted, “but you have to get it first.”
“Get it first? I never let it go. I still have the contract payment.”
“Then what was the point of indenting at all?”
She looked at me wonderingly. “Haven't you ever thought about serious things? Only books and politics and all that? How could I get opportunities without indenting? I doubt if the Vames are much of a cut above the Backmakers; well, you're a general drudge and I'm a governess and tutor and even in a way a sort of distant friend to Mrs. Smythe.”
“That sounds suspiciously like snobbery to me.” “Does it? Well, I'm a snob; I've never denied it. I want to live like a lady, to have a good house with servants and carriages and minibiles, to travel to civilized countries, with a place in Paris or Rome or Vienna. You can love the poor and cheer for the Populists; I love the rich and the Whigs.”
“That's all very well,” I objected, “but even though you have your indenting money and can buy back your freedom any moment you want it, how does this help you get rich?”
“Do you think I keep my money in my pocket? It's invested, every cent. People who come to this house give me tips; not just money, though there's enough of that to add a bit to my original capital, but tips on what to buy and sell. By the time I'm thirty I should be well off. Of course, I may marry a rich man sooner.”
“That's an awfully cold-blooded way of looking at marriage,” I remonstrated.
“Is it?” she asked indifferently. “Well, you've been telling me I'm cold-blooded anyway. I may as well be cold-blooded profitably.”
“If that's the way you feel I don't understand what we're doing here at this moment. I'd have thought you'd have picked a more profitable lover.”
She was unruffled. “You didn't think about it at all. If you had, you would have seen I could hardly encourage any of the men from the class into which I intend to marry. Great ladies can laugh at gossip, but the faintest whisper about someone like me would be damaging. Scandal would be unavoidable if I appeared to be anything in this house but a chilly prude.”
An appearance not too deceitful, I considered, sickly jealous at the thought of men who might have been in my place if they had been as anonymous, as inconsequential as I. But this writhing jealousy was little more painful than my frustration at having been made a convenience, a trial experiment. Almost anyone of equal unimportance, anyone who was not a fellow servant or a familiar in the house would have done as well as I, anyone unlikely ever to come face-to-face with Mrs. Smythe, much less talk to her.
Looking back, trying to recapture for a moment that vanished past, I have a sad, quizzical welling of pity for the girl Tirzah and the boy Hodge. How gravely we took our moral and political differences; how lightly the flying moments of union. We said and did all the wrong things, all the things which fostered the antagonism between us and none of the things which might have softened our youthful self-assurance. We wrangled and argued: Dewey and Lewis, Whig versus Populist, materialist against idealist, reality opposing principle. It all seems so futile now; it