‘His father for one.’
‘I’m not marrying his father. Teddy’s different. He wants to change things. He even believes women should have the vote.’
‘But you don’t love him.’
The hesitation was slight, the answer offhand. ‘Of course I do.’
‘Like Romeo and Juliet?’
‘No, but-’
‘Then you shouldn’t be marrying him.’ She snatched up the necklace.
‘No one loves like Romeo and Juliet,’ Hannah said carefully, her eyes following Emmeline’s hand. ‘They’re made-up characters.’
‘I do.’
‘Then I pity you. Look what happened to them!’
‘David wouldn’t approve,’ Emmeline said, beginning to prise open the locket.
Hannah stiffened, reached for the necklace. ‘Give it to me,’ she said, voice low.
‘No.’ Emmeline’s eyes were suddenly red and brimmed with tears. ‘He’d say you were running away. Abandoning me.’
Hannah grabbed for the locket but Emmeline was faster; swept it out of reach.
‘Give it to me,’ Hannah said.
‘He was mine, too!’ Emmeline threw the locket onto the vanity with all her might. It hit the wooden surface and split open. We all froze, watching as the tiny book, its spine hand-stitched, its cover faded, fell from inside, tumbled across the top and landed on its cover by the talcum.
There was silence. Then Emmeline’s voice. Almost a whisper. ‘You said they were all gone.’
She ran from Hannah’s room, through the burgundy room and into her own.
The door slammed.
I stood back, held the brush by my side as silently Hannah picked up the locket from where it lay: face down, its little gold hinge pointing upwards. She took the tiny book, turned it over and smoothed its surface. Then she placed it back into the hollow of the locket’s chest and pressed it carefully closed. But it wouldn’t clasp. The hinge had broken.
She regarded her reflection a moment and stood up. Kissed the locket and laid it gently on the dresser. Ran fingertips lightly over its etched surface. And then she followed Emmeline.
I tiptoed into the burgundy room behind her, made a show of busying myself with Emmeline’s discarded clothing and peered around the door. Emmeline lay across the bed and Hannah perched at the foot.
‘You’re right,’ Hannah said. ‘I am running away.’
No answer.
‘Haven’t you ever been afraid that nothing interesting lies ahead?’
No answer still.
‘Sometimes when I walk across the estate, I can almost feel the roots growing from my feet, tying me here. I can’t bear to walk by the cemetery for fear of seeing my name on one of the headstones.’ Hannah exhaled slowly. ‘Teddy is my opportunity. To see the world. To travel and meet interesting people.’
Emmeline lifted her reddened face from the pillow. ‘I knew you didn’t love him.’
‘But I do like him.’
‘
‘You’ll understand one day.’
‘I won’t,’ Emmeline said stubbornly. She sniffled and her eyes filled again with tears. Then came her despondent plea. ‘You said you were going to have adventures.’
‘What’s an adventure but a step into the unknown?’
‘You should wait for someone you love.’
‘What if I never love anyone like that? What if loving is a gift, like horse- riding, or climbing, or playing piano-?’
‘It’s not.’
‘How can you be so sure? I’m not like you, Emmeline. You’re like Mother. I’m much more like Pa. I’m not good at laughing and smiling with people I don’t enjoy. I don’t take pleasure from the carousel of society; I find most society people tedious. If I don’t marry, my life will be one of two things: an eternity of lonely days living in Pa’s house, or a relentless succession of society parties and medieval chaperonage. It’s like Fanny said-’
‘Fanny makes things up.’
‘Not this.’ Hannah was firm. ‘Marriage will be the beginning of my adventure.’
Emmeline looked at her and in her face I saw the ten year old she had been that first day in the nursery. ‘And I have no say? Have to stay here alone, with Pa? I’d sooner run away.’
‘You wouldn’t last half a day.’ Hannah said drolly, but Emmeline was not in the mood for teasing.
‘He frightens me since the fire,’ Emmeline said in a low voice. ‘He’s not… He isn’t normal.’
‘Nonsense, Pa’s always cross about something. It’s his way.’ Hannah paused, chose her words carefully. ‘Anyway, I wouldn’t be surprised if things got better very soon.’
‘I don’t see how.’
‘You will.’
‘Why? What do you know?’
Hannah hesitated and I leaned closer, curious.
‘What?’
‘It’s supposed to be a secret.’
‘You know I can keep secrets.’
Hannah sighed shortly, with the capitulation of one about to speak despite her better judgement. ‘You mustn’t tell Pa. Not yet.’ She smiled with nervous excitement. ‘Teddy’s father has promised to buy Pa’s factory. He’s been talking to the lawyers for weeks now. He said if Teddy and I were marrying, if we were going to be family, the proper thing to do was to buy it and build it up again.’
‘And give it back to Pa?’
Hannah’s hopeful tone dipped. ‘I don’t know about that. Evidently it’s going to be very expensive. Pa had a lot of debts.’
‘Oh.’
‘Still. It’s better than letting someone else buy it. Don’t you think?’
Emmeline shrugged.
‘Pa’s men will keep their jobs. And Pa will likely be offered an overseeing position. A regular income.’
‘It sounds like you’ve got everything worked out,’ Emmeline said bitterly as she rolled over.