and the letter paper and envelope the same design. Thick, hammered paper: he guessed it had been bought in one of the bookshops in the city centre where you could buy by the sheet rather than in packs.
Sophisticated nuances as well. Pale blue. Stamp with a sporting motif — a woman swinging round before throwing a discus. Meticulously placed in the top right-hand corner of the envelope. His name and address handwritten with the same slightly sloping letters as in the message itself. The name of the place underlined.
That was all. All there was to say about it. Nothing, in other words. Or almost nothing, to be precise. It didn’t even seem possible to establish the writer’s sex. He tended to think it was a man, but that wasn’t much more than a guess. Could be either.
Ten thousand? he thought for the hundred-and-fiftieth time since Monday evening. Why only ten thousand?
It was a considerable sum of money, to be sure, but still — as the letter-writer very rightly pointed out — not exactly a preposterous demand. He had more than twice that in the bank, and he owned a house and various other assets worth ten times that amount. The blackmailer had also used the expression ‘a man of your stature’, suggesting that he was familiar with his circumstances and financial status.
So why only ten thousand? Perhaps not ‘a piffling amount’, but a cheap price even so. Very reasonable, considering what was involved.
A pretty well-educated person too, it seemed, this letter-writer. The handwriting was neat and tidy, there were no grammatical errors, the wording was clear and concise. No doubt the person concerned ought to have (must have?) known that he would have been able to squeeze out more. That the price for his silence was low.
He kept returning to that conclusion. And looking back, he was also surprised by how easy he found it to sit there reasoning with himself along such comparatively rational lines. The letter had arrived like a bomb, but as soon as he’d been able to get used to and accept the fact of its existence, it was the logical and relevant questions arising that occupied his mind.
All week, and now on Sunday afternoon.
So, why only ten thousand?
What were the implications? Was it just a first instalment?
And who? Who had seen him, and was now exploiting the opportunity of earning money from his accident? And the boy’s?
Was it the scooter rider, or one of the two motorists who had passed by while he was standing in the ditch, holding the lifeless body in his arms? Or up on the road.
Were there any other possibilities? He didn’t think so.
In any case, what gave him away must have been the car, his red Audi — he soon decided that this must be the case. Somebody had seen it parked in an unusual place, memorized the registration number and traced the owner via the licensing authority.
He was convinced that this is what must have happened. Increasingly convinced. He soon decided that there was no other possibility — until a dreadful thought struck him.
Perhaps the boy hadn’t been alone that evening. Perhaps there had been two young people, for instance, walking along the side of the road, but it was only Wim who had hit his head against the concrete culvert.
A bit further away, perhaps a couple of metres on the other side of the culvert, there might have been a girlfriend lying dazed… No, not a girlfriend: he’d read in the paper that the boy’s girlfriend had stayed behind in town. More likely a friend, or somebody he’d just met, walking in the same direction… Lying there unconscious, hidden in the darkness. Or in a state of shock, and scared stiff by the sight of the dead boy and the man holding his body in his arms, with blood dripping down into the boy’s hood…
It was an horrific scenario, of course, and even if he managed to convince himself eventually that it wasn’t all that likely, it kept on recurring. He made a purely clinical effort to erase this macabre variation — this unlikely possibility — since it was of no consequence, no matter what. Irrelevant. It didn’t matter who it was who’d seen him that fateful night, nor exactly how the person concerned had found out what had happened. It was the other questions that demanded his attention and concentration.
And resolve.
So, could he be sure that this would be all that was demanded?
Ten thousand. That he would be able to pay that off, then not need to worry about it any more?
Aye, there’s the rub. What guarantee did the letter-writer intend to give, proving that when he (she?) had collected and vanished with the cash, there wouldn’t be a demand for a bit more after a month or so? Or a year?
Or that the blackmailer wouldn’t simply go to the police and report him in any case?
Would any guarantee be given? What could such a guarantee be like?
Or — and this was of course the most important question — should he not accept that the situation was impossible? Should he not realize that the game was up, and it was time to hand himself in to the police?
Was it time to surrender?
By Sunday evening he still hadn’t answered any of these questions. The fact that on Friday he’d slunk into the Savings Bank and withdrawn eleven thousand from his account could not necessarily be regarded as a decision.
Merely as a sign that he was still keeping all doors open.
He also had in the back of his mind the conversation they’d had on Saturday.
‘Your husband?’ he’d asked as they came back to the car after their stroll along the beach. ‘Have you told him?’
‘No,’ she’d said, letting her hair hang loose after having it tucked away inside her woolly hat. Ran her hands through it and shook it in a movement he thought she was exaggerating in order to give herself time to think. ‘I didn’t know how serious things were going to become with you… Not to start with, that is. Now I know. But I haven’t had a chance to talk to him yet. It sort of needs time and space.’
‘Are you quite sure?’
‘Yes.’
‘That you want to divorce him?’
‘Yes.’
‘Why haven’t you got any children?’
‘Because I chose not to have any.’
‘With your husband, or at all?’
She made a vague gesture with her head. He gathered she’d rather not talk about it. They stood in silence for a while, watching the choppy sea.
‘We’ve only been married for three years. It was a mistake from the very beginning. It was idiotic, in fact.’
He nodded.
‘What’s his job?’
‘He’s unemployed at the moment. Used to work for Zinders. But they closed down.’
‘That sounds sad.’
‘I’ve never said it was especially funny.’
She laughed. He put his arm round her shoulders and hugged her close.
‘Are you sure you’re not wavering?’
‘No, I’m not,’ she said. ‘I don’t want to live with him, I’ve known that all the time.’
‘Why did you marry him in the first place?’
‘I don’t know.’
‘Marry me instead.’
It slipped out before he could stop himself, but he realized immediately that he actually meant it.
‘Wow,’ she said, and burst out laughing. ‘We’ve been together a couple of times, and at long last you ask me to marry you. Shouldn’t we go home and have a bite to eat first, as we’d planned to do?’
He thought it over.
‘I suppose so,’ he said. ‘Yes, you’re right. I’m ravenous.’
During the rest of the evening he hadn’t repeated his offer of marriage — but nor had he retracted it. He liked
