Exiles of the Stars

It was a good body, as I had known when first I looked upon it. And I found in the outer part of the chamber the means to clothe it. The clothing was different from my Thassa wear, being a short tunic held in by a broad, gemmed belt, and foot coverings which molded themselves to the limbs they covered.

My hair was too heavy and long and I did not have the pins and catches to keep it in place Thassa-fashion. So I plaited it into braids.

I wondered who she had been once, that woman so carefully preserved outwardly. Her name, her age, even her race or species, I might never know. But she had beauty, and I know she had power—though it differed from that of the Thassa. Queen, priestess-whatever— She had gone away long since, leaving only that residue to maintain a semi-life. Perhaps it was the evil in her which had been left behind. I would like to believe so. I wanted to think she was not altogether what that shadow I had battled suggested.

But the exile of that part, and of that which had animated the three male aliens, opened a vast treasure house. Such discoveries as were disclosed will be the subject for inquiry, speculation, exploration for years to come. As the jack operation (so swiftly taken over by the aliens) had been illegal by space law,' those of theLydis were allowed to file First Claim on the burrows. Which meant that each and every member of the crew became master of his own fate, wealthy enough to direct his life as he wished.

'You spoke more than once of treasure.' I had returned to the chamber of the one in whose body I now dwelt to gather together her possessions (the company having agreed that these were freely mine), and Krip had come with me. 'Treasure which could be many things. And you said that to you it was a ship. Is this still so?'

He sat on one of the chests, watching me sort through the contents of another. I had found a length of rippling blue-green stuff unlike any fabric I had ever seen, cat masks patterned on it in gold. Now they had no unease for me.

'What is your treasure, Maelen?' He countered with a question of his own. 'This?' He gestured at what lay within that chamber.

'Much is beautiful; it delights the eye, the touch.' I smoothed the fabric and folded it again. 'But it is not my treasure. Treasure is a dream which one reaches out to take, by the Will of Molster. Yiktor is very far away. What one may wish for on Yiktor—' What had I wished for on Yiktor? I did not have to search far in memory for that. My little ones (though I could not call them 'mine' now, for I had sent them to their own lives long since). But—with little ones of their kind—a ship— Yiktor did not call me strongly now; I had voyaged too far, not only in space but somehow in spirit. Someday I wanted to go there again. Yes. I wanted to see the Three Rings of Sotrath blaze in her night sky, walk among the Thassa, but not yet. There remained the little ones—

'Your dream is still a ship with animals—to voyage the stars with your little people, showing others how close the bond between man and animal may truly become,' Krip said for me. 'Once I told you that you could not find treasure enough to pay for such a dream. I was wrong. Here if is, many times over.'

'Yet I cannot buy such a ship, go star voyaging alone.' I turned to look full at him. 'You said thatyour dream of treasure was also a ship. And that you can now have—'

He was Thassa and yet not Thassa. Even as I searched his face I could see behind Maquad's features that ghost with brown skin, dark hair, the ghost of the young man I had first met at the Great Fair of Yrjar.

'You do not want to return to Yiktor?' Again he did not answer me directly.

'Not at present. Yiktor is far away, born in space and time—very far.'

I do not know, or did not know, what he read in my voice which led him to rise, come to me, his hands reaching out to draw me to him.

'Maelen, I am not as I once was. I find that I am now in exile among those of my own kind. That I would not believe until here on Sekhmet it was proved. Only one now can claim my full allegiance.'

'Two exiles may find a common life, Krip. And there are stars—a ship can seek them out. I think that our dreams flow together.'

His answer this time came in action, and I found it very good. So did we two who had walked strange ways choose to walk a new one side by side, and I thanked Molaster in my heart for His great goodness.

Chapter Nineteen

KRIP VORLUND

When I looked upon her who had come to me, who trusted in me (even when I had called her back to what might have been painful death, because I believed that a small chance waited for her) then I knew that this was the way of life for us both.

'Not exile,' I told her. 'It is not exile when one comes home!'

Home is not a ship after all, nor a planet, nor a traveling wain crossing the plains of Yiktor. It is a feeling which, once learned, can never be forgotten. We two are apart, exiled perhaps, from those who once were our kind. But before us lie all the stars, and within us—home! And so it will be with us as long as life shall last.