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day,' he said at length. 'At the end, on average, eighty more people will have died.'

    'If that's true,' Callister replied, 'they'd be dead regardless. If we're going to get anywhere, you'll have to understand how hard it is to get there. And why.'

    Kerry looked at him steadily. 'I'm willing to listen, George. And then I may have a proposal for you. If you're willing to come back.'

    Callister considered this, eyes narrow, and then nodded. 'I'm willing, Mr. President. But only if no one leaks it.'

TWELVE

Beneath the ov erhead light in her kitchen, Joan Bowden sat at the table, staring at a stack of unpaid bills. Through the answering machine her husband blamed her.

    I've lost my job. You've emasculated me . . .

    Swallowing, Joan choked back tears.

    Did you hear me, Joan . . . ?

    John's inflection wavered between pleading and hysteria. Hand trembling, Joan reached for the telephone.

    'John?'

    His voice suddenly gained strength. 'You've gone too far, Joanie . . .'

    'What's this about your job . . .'

    'I couldn't work.' His timbre became high-pitched, as insistent as a child shifting blame. 'I told you that. You've taken everything away from me.'

    Through her fears, she could feel his isolation. More quietly, she said, 'I didn't want to. I was just so scared . . .'

    'Why do I hurt so much? I hurt all the time now—physically, like a sickness . . .'

    Impatience overcame Joan's guilt. 'Why is it up to me, John? Why can't you help yourself? I keep asking you about counseling . . .'

    'It's too late for that. I've got no family now. You're sending me to jail. There's nothing left to live for . . .'

    'Stop it.'

    As if he were strengthened by her panic, John's voice calmed. 'What's to stop me from coming to the house and blowing my brains out with a gun?'

    Startled, Joan blurted, 'Marie.'

    'I can't see her, remember? You've taken her from me. But I won't leave her to you, Joanie. That's what you want, isn't it?'

    Joan sat down, trying to stay rational. 'What do you mean?'

    His tone retained its eerie calm. 'I won't go by myself, Joanie. You'll go with me.'

    It was as if, Joan thought, she was caught in John's descent into madness. 'Then Marie would be an orphan . . .'

    'My parents could raise her.'

    'Your parents. How could you do that to her?'

    'It would be your fault.' The words mingled accusation with pity. 'You never face your own responsibility, do you?'

    Nerves frayed, Joan cried out, 'This is crazy—you turn everything around . . .'

    'You've turned my world inside out.' His tone turned soft, ominous. 'But now it's happening to you, isn't it. And you can't take it.'

    There was silence. The sound of the click, John hanging up, terrified her more than anything he had said.

* * *

    Tuxedo tie dangling around his collar, Kerry glanced at his watch. As though she could see him, Joan interrupted her narrative.

    'Is this a bad time?'

    'There's a state dinner at seven with the Prime Minister of Canada. Tell me when this happened.'

    'Last night.'

    'He's threatening you, Joanie. Did you call the D.A.?'

    Kerry heard her draw a breath. 'There's more . . .'

* * *

    Standing alone near the wooden play structure, Marie Bowden saw her father.

    Her heart stopped. He stood at the edge of the playground, gazing at her. Her mother had said he shouldn't be here. But he looked so sad.

    Almost timidly, he approached her. 'Marie . . .'

    She took two steps toward him. Then he knelt, holding out his arms.

    Marie ran to him.

    He held her tight, kissing her hair and neck. When he released her, taking both her hands, his eyes were bright and strange.

    'It's okay,' he reassured her. 'I just needed to see you, one last time. Before I go away.'

    Marie held his hands tighter. 'Where?'

    'Far away.' Leaning forward, he kissed her forehead, and then gazed into her eyes. 'I wish I could take you with me, sweet pea.'

    Fear and sadness pierced her heart. Quickly glancing over his shoulder, her father cradled her chin in his half- closed hand. Then, without another word, he stood and walked away. At the fence, he turned to gaze at her.

    Suddenly, her teacher was kneeling in front of her. When Marie looked up again, her father was gone.

    Miss Suarez's eyes seemed as worried as her father's had been sad. 'What did he say to you, Marie?'

    Marie told her. Gently, Miss Suarez said, 'I'll have to call your mommy,' and Marie began to cry.

* * *

    The bedroom door opened. As Kerry listened, Lara slipped into the room, wearing a simple black gown. Silently, she mouthed, 'Five minutes.'

    Telephone to his ear, Kerry nodded. When Lara approached, he cupped the receiver and whispered, 'Joan . . .'

    Lara became quite still. To Joan, Kerry said, 'We have to call the D.A. For Marie's sake, and yours.'

    'But he'll only get more angry.'

    To stem her panic, Kerry kept his own voice patient. 'If we don't, he'll only be more emboldened. What if, next time, John decides to take her?'

    'God . . .' Her voice broke in anguish. 'I wish I could be sure . . .'

    'Trust me,' Kerry implored her. 'Please.'

    There was silence. As Kerry listened, he saw Lara's eyes fill with doubt and worry. 'All right,' Joan murmured. 'I guess you know . . .'

    To Kerry, this sounded more like exhaustion than assent. As she said goodbye, her voice was faint.