He closed the window then turned back to the bed. Beauvoir had burrowed into his pillow.
It was just after seven A.M. and Agent Lacoste had called. She was in her car, turning off the autoroute. She’d found something in the archives.
Gamache wanted his Inspector part of the discussion when she arrived.
He himself had returned to the B and B, showered, shaved and changed.
“Jean Guy?” he whispered again, lowering his head so that he was face-to-face with his slightly drooling Inspector.
Beauvoir pried his heavy lids open and looked through slits at Gamache, a goofy smile on Beauvoir’s face. Then his eyes flew open and the smile turned into a gasp as he jerked his head away from the Chief’s.
“Don’t worry,” said Gamache, standing up. “You were a perfect gentleman.”
It took a moment for the bleary Beauvoir to grasp what the Chief meant and then he chuckled.
“Did I at least buy you champagne?” he asked, wiping the crusty sleep from his eyes.
“Well, you made a nice pot of coffee.”
“Last night?” Beauvoir asked, sitting up in bed. “Here?”
“No, at the Incident Room.” Gamache looked at him, searching. “Remember?”
Beauvoir looked blank, then shook his head. “Sorry. I’m still half asleep.”
He rubbed his face, trying to remember.
Gamache dragged a chair up to the side of the bed and sat.
“What time is it?” Beauvoir asked, looking around.
“Just past seven.”
“I’ll get up.” And Jean Guy grabbed at the duvet.
“No. Not yet.” Gamache’s voice was soft, but certain, and Beauvoir’s hand stopped then fell back to the bedding.
“We need to talk about last night,” said the Chief.
Gamache watched Beauvoir, still exhausted. There was a puzzled look on the Inspector’s face.
“Did you mean what you said?” asked Gamache. “Is that how you feel? Because if it is you need to tell me now, in the light of day. We need to talk about it.”
“Do I believe what?”
“What you said last night. That I wanted the video released, that in your opinion I’m as bad as the hacker.”
Beauvoir’s eyes widened. “Did I say that? Last night?”
“You don’t remember?”
“I remember watching the video, getting upset. But I can’t remember why. Did I really say that?”
“You did.” The Chief peered at Beauvoir. He seemed sincerely shocked.
But was this better? It meant Beauvoir might not believe what he’d said, but it would also mean his Inspector couldn’t remember. Was in a sort of blackout.
Chief Inspector Gamache studied Beauvoir for a moment. Beauvoir, feeling the scrutiny, reddened.
“I’m so sorry,” he said again. “Of course I don’t think that. I can’t believe I said it. I’m sorry.”
And he looked it.
Gamache held up his hand, “I know you are. I’m not here to punish you. I’m here because I think you need help—”
“—I don’t. I’m fine, I really am.”
“You’re not. You’re losing weight, you’re stressed. You’re testy. You let your anger show last night in the interrogation of Madame Coates. Lashing out at the Chief Justice was reckless.”
“He started it.”
“This isn’t a school yard. Suspects push us all the time. We need to stay calm. You let yourself be thrown off balance.”
“Fortunately, you were there to right me,” said Beauvoir.
Gamache regarded him again, not missing the slight acid in the words. “What’s wrong, Jean Guy? You need to tell me.”
“I’m just tired.” He rubbed his face. “But I am getting better. Stronger.”
“You’re not. You were for a while but now you’re getting worse. You need more help. You need to go back to the Surete counselors.”
“I’ll consider it.”
“You’ll more than consider it,” said Gamache. “How many OxyContin pills do you take?”
