'What I want you to do is try some other angles on your own. Think. She's pregnant. She's going to be seeing an obstetrician. She's not going to wait and walk into an emergency room when the baby comes. You're her employer, so try to work with the health insurance company. We're the real customer, because we pay the premiums.'
'They're not going to tell us anything about her medical file. It's private.'
'Try. All you need is the name of a doctor. Hell, even a city would do. Another thing she'll need is an apartment. We're in the rental business. Send a picture of her to a thousand other large owners and say she's somebody who stole from us and we want to find her. Think about her. What does she need to get by? Who does she know to ask for help? Work on it.'
'I will.'
'Be sure you do,' said Andy Beale. 'If you screw around until after she's had the baby, it will be a whole lot harder to persuade her that she needs you.' He stood and walked to the door, opened it, and looked out at the receptionist thoughtfully. 'What's her father's name?'
'Monahan. I think it's Robert Monahan.'
'And where is he?'
'Lompoc.'
'All right. I'll talk to you soon.' He spared Richard only a glance. 'What's the new girl's name?' He returned his eyes to the receptionist.
'Marlene.'
'Don't complicate things by fucking her, too.'
14
The nightmare that woke Jane slipped away before she could hold on to enough of it to remember. Panting and sweating, she sat up and looked around her. Carey was still asleep beside her, the sheet only partly over his leg now. She must have thrown it off when she had jerked awake, so she gently pulled it back over him to the shoulder and looked at the red numbers on the alarm clock. Four already. He would have to be up at five-thirty so he could drive to the hospital. Ahead of him was another morning of surgery.
Again she tried to remember her dream, but it was gone. There was still enough time to go back to sleep, but she knew she couldn't do that while she could still feel her heart pounding. There was a very faint breeze coming through the screen of the open window across the room, pushing the thin white curtains inward an inch or two and making the sweat on her back feel cold.
After a minute she stood, stepped out of her nightgown, walked down the hall to the farthest of the guest rooms, shut the door, and went into the bathroom. She ran the shower until it wasn't cold, and then stepped into the spray. There was no uncertainty about what had caused her dream. She had been home for a few days, and she had been getting used to being Mrs. Carey McKinnon again, the doctor's wife who lived behind the thick, solid door of the big old stone house. But Jane had promised that she would go and see Christine's father. As she stood in the shower she wondered whether she regretted not having kept her promise more than she regretted having promised at all.
Visiting the prison where Christine's father was serving his sentence would be incredibly dangerous. Jane supposed she must have been thinking about it for days without acknowledging it consciously. She knew she would have to do what she had promised. If she didn't, the man would probably be so devastated by the loss of his daughter that he would find a way to kill himself. He was a middle-aged convict who apparently didn't have much left except his daughter.
Even years from now when he was out of jail he would never have a job as good as the ones he'd had, might never find a woman to love him, probably never even have friends who completely trusted him. Jane had promised Christine that at least this man would know that his daughter had not erased him from her life.
When the shower had soothed her and made her feel fully awake, she put on a bathrobe, and went downstairs to the kitchen. She made coffee, set the table for breakfast, took out eggs and butter and bread for toast, then went to the computer in the small office off the den and made flight reservations in the name Donna Ruggiero, then printed out the tickets and confirmations.
At five-fifteen she climbed the stairs to the bedroom and stood for a moment watching Carey sleep, then touched his shoulder to wake him. He opened his eyes, then gave a sigh and looked up at her, smiling. 'I had a dream that we . .. Oh, yeah. I guess that wasn't a dream.'
'No, it wasn't,' she said. 'Good for us.'
He sat up, looked at the clock, and then stood and put his arms around her. 'I'd better brush my teeth before I kiss you.' He went into the bathroom, and as she straightened the bed she heard the hum of his electric toothbrush, then the buzz of his razor.
As she had each morning since her return, she looked out the upstairs window at the road outside, trying to detect any change since the night before. Then she went downstairs and walked out toward the end of the driveway to pick up the morning newspaper. She could hear faraway sounds—robins on the lawns today and crows in the big trees of the McKinnon yard, and others calling to one another along the road. Jane pretended to look at nothing, but she used the walk down the long driveway to scan the neighborhood for unfamiliar vehicles and people who were out of place. There was nothing to disturb her. She stepped back in through the kitchen entrance and locked the door.
Carey was standing beside the kitchen table, and she could see the papers in his hand were the airline tickets she had printed. He looked troubled, but when he saw her he erased the expression and turned to hand them to her. 'You're leaving today?'
'I was going to talk to you about it after you were awake, but you were a lot faster coming down than I thought you'd be. What I have to do will take one day, but it'll take me a day to fly there and at least two to make it back home. I'll be back here on Saturday, probably.'
'Why do you have to go at all?'
'I don't want to. It's just something I have to do.'
'You won't tell me more than that?'
'It wouldn't make anybody safer—you, me, the girl.'
'Look, I don't want to start a fight with you, especially just before you go away. But maybe you ought to spend some time asking yourself why you don't trust me.'
She put her arms around him and kept them there, rocking slightly. 'You know I trust you. We went through this years ago, and I thought you understood. I've made promises. One was that I wouldn't tell anyone where this person is or what I'm doing for her. Not that I'd only tell my husband.'
'Getting married is a promise, too,' he said. 'There's not supposed to be anybody who knows more than you tell me.'
'There isn't,' she said. 'I'm sorry, Carey. Right now just isn't a good time for this conversation. When this trip is over, we can talk. Please, just don't make this harder.'
Carey studied her for a second, then relented. 'Just make it back here safe, and get this whole thing finished.'
'I will.' She released him, then stepped back to look at him. 'What do you want for breakfast?'
'Nothing.'
'Nothing?'
'I'm not hungry right now. I'll get something at the hospital later.'
'I love you,' she said, and kissed him on the cheek, then picked up the carton of eggs and put it back in the refrigerator. 'I love you' had always struck her as a foolish, inadequate thing to say, but it was exactly what she meant in exactly the way she had said it. She remembered times, years ago, when she had called him from various places around the country, only daring to talk on a pay phone for a minute or two. In her memory it was always night, and always raining. She wouldn't be able to tell him where she was because she was afraid his phone would be tapped or he would forget and mention the name of the place to someone else. He would be impatient for her to come home, and she would say, 'I love you,' and what it meant was 'I'm sorry.' And then when it was time to hang up she would say 'I love you' again, and wait, holding her breath and listening, because it meant 'Do you still love me?' In the past five years, since she had quit going away, the meaning had always been happy and sure.
