This Heart Of Mine

underneath so he could cup those round little cheeks. And she had the gall to be mad at him because he'd been ignoring her! Didn't she understand he couldn't ignore her?

He wanted to push aside the notebook she was writing in, toss her over his shoulder, and carry her straight to the bedroom. Instead, he headed for the bathroom and filled the tub with very cold water, once again cursing the lack of a shower. He washed himself quickly and slipped into clean clothes. All week he'd been driving himself, but it hadn't done a damn bit of good. Despite the carpentry and painting, despite the daily workouts and the miles he'd added to his run, he wanted her more than ever. Even the game films he'd started watching on the TV in the office couldn't hold his attention. He should have moved back into the B &B, but Lilly was there.

A stab of pain shot through him. He couldn't think about her now. Maybe he'd drive into town for another workout in the tiny health club at the inn.

But no, he found himself moving toward the porch, all his vows to stay away from Molly evaporating. As he stepped through the doorway, he realized he was in the only place he could possibly be right now, in the presence of the only person who might understand his confusion over what had just happened.

She gazed up at him, her eyes full of that generous concern she showed for anyone she thought might have a problem. He couldn't spot even a hint of censure toward him for being so surly, although he knew she'd get around to putting him in his place sooner or later.

'Is everything all right?'

He shrugged, not giving away a thing. 'We talked.'

But she wasn't impressed by his tough-guy act. 'Were you your normal repugnant self?'

'I listened to her, if that's what you mean.' He knew exactly what she meant, but he wanted her to pull the story out of him. Maybe because he didn't know what she'd find when she did.

She waited.

He wandered toward the screen. The plant she'd hung from a hook brushed against his shoulder. 'She told me some things… I don't know… It wasn't exactly the way I thought.'

'What way was it?' she asked quietly.

So he told her. Leaving out how muddled his feelings were. Just giving her the facts.

When he was done, she nodded slowly. 'I see.'

If only he did.

'Now you have to adjust to knowing that what you believed about her wasn't true.'

'I thinks she wants…' He shoved his hands into his pockets. 'She wants something from me. I can't-' He whirled on her. 'Am I supposed to feel this sudden attachment to her? Because I don't!'

Her expression flickered with something that looked almost like pain, and it took her a long time to answer.

'I doubt she expects that right away. Maybe you could start just by getting to know her. She makes quilts, and she's an amazing artist. But she doesn't know that about herself.'

'I guess.' He jerked his hands from his pockets and did exactly what he'd been trying to avoid since last Friday. 'I'm going stir-crazy. There's this place about twenty miles away. Let's get out of here.'

He saw right away that she was going to refuse, and he didn't blame her. At the same time he couldn't be alone now, so he whipped the notebook off her lap and pulled her to her feet. 'You'll like it.'

An hour later the two of them were soaring over the Au Sable River in a sleek little German-built glider.

Chapter 18

Sexual daydreams and fantasies are normal. They're even a healthy way to pass time while you're waiting for the right person to come along. 'My Secret Sex Life' for Chik

'It's nice that Kevin finally decided to spend some time with you. Maybe he'll agree to marriage counseling.' Amy finished putting the strawberry jam cake on a Wedgwood plate and regarded Molly with her familiar pitying expression.

'We don't need marriage counseling,' Kevin snapped as he came through the door with Marmie padding at his feet. They'd just gotten back from their gliding adventure, and his hair was windblown. 'What we need is that cake. It's five o'clock, and the guests are waiting for tea.'

Amy moved reluctantly toward the door. 'Maybe if you'd both pray…'

'The cake!' Kevin growled.

Amy gave Molly a look that indicated she'd done her best but that Molly was hopelessly doomed to life without sex. Then she disappeared.

'You're right,' he said. 'That kid is irritating. I should have given you a hickey.'

This was a topic Molly definitely didn't want to discuss, and she focused all her attention on arranging the tea tray. She hadn't had time to change out of her rumpled clothes or straighten her own windblown hair, but she forced herself not to fidget as Kevin took a few steps closer.

'In case you were worried, Daph… My ears have just about recovered from that scream.'

'You were heading right for the trees. And I didn't scream.' She picked up the tray and shoved it at him. 'I squeaked.'

'One hell of a squeak. And we weren't anyplace near the trees.'

'I believe that our female guests are anxiously awaiting you.'

He grimaced and disappeared with Marmie.

She smiled. She shouldn't have been surprised that Kevin was an experienced glider pilot, although she wished he'd mentioned it before they'd taken off. Despite their afternoon together, things weren't much better between them. He hadn't said a word about his interviews that morning, and she couldn't bring herself to ask. He'd also been strangely jumpy. Once she'd accidentally bumped into him, and he'd sprung away as if she'd burned him. If he hadn't wanted her with him, why had he invited her?

She knew the answer. After his confrontation with Lilly, he hadn't wanted to be alone.

The woman who was causing his turmoil slipped into the kitchen through the back door. Uncertainty was written all over her face, and Molly's heart went out to her. During the drive back to the campground, she'd brought up Lilly's name, but Kevin had changed the subject.

She remembered what he'd said earlier at the cottage. Am I supposed to feel this sudden attachment to her? Because I don't! It had been a pointed reminder that Kevin didn't like close attachments. She'd begun to realize how skillful he was at keeping people away. Oddly enough, Liam Jenner, for all his obsession with privacy, was less an emotional recluse than Kevin.

'I'm sorry about your cat,' Molly said. 'It was an impulse. Kevin needs lots of excitement.' She traced the edge of the cut glass serving plate. 'I want him to enjoy the campground so he won't sell it.'

Lilly nodded slowly. Her hands slipped in and out of her pockets. She cleared her throat. 'Did Kevin tell you about our conversation?'

'Yes.'

'It wasn't exactly a rousing success.'

'But not quite a failure either.'

A heartbreaking flicker of hope appeared on her face. 'I hope not.'

'Football is a lot simpler than personal relationships.'

Lilly nodded, then toyed with her rings. 'I owe you an apology, don't I?'

'Yep, you do.'

This time Lilly's smile had something more to it. 'I was unfair. I know it.'

'Darn right you were.'

'I worry about him.'