finished the tale, and the old grifters all laughed appropriately. Grey eventually went to his room. Vicky must have thought he was coming back, but after a half hour she thanked my mother and Dale for the food and said goodbye.
There was still a lot of meaningless chatter, but somehow the emptiness and quiet of the house deepened. All the many secret rooms carried with them a brooding silence across the decades and generations of Rands.
My parents broke from the others and found me with Gramp. My father said, “I’m worried about Grey. He has no one now.”
“He has us,” my mother said. “He has his girlfriends. They help keep him happy.”
“No, we have each other, but he’s alone. Despite all the women, he’s alone. His health, it’ll get worse now.”
“We’ll make sure he goes to the doctor more often.”
“He won’t go.”
My dad looked out the screen door. There was no sun, but he turned away with a hand shielding his eyes as if he’d seen something he couldn’t take. Maybe Mal out there demanding action.
“Who?” he said, his voice firm. “Who the hell could have done this? And why?” My father looked at the floor, and then his gaze settled on me. “Do you have any idea?”
“No.”
He nodded, because that’s all any of us could really do. Nod as if we were in complete agreement with some larger force that would do whatever it wanted with us whether we consented or not. Then he and my mother walked back to the dining area and became proper hosts again for their guests.
Dale gravitated toward us. She said, “Gramp needs to be changed. Ma usually handles it, but I thought I’d give her a rest and do it myself.”
“That’s very considerate.”
“Can you help me get him to his room? On the bed?”
I wheeled him there, eased him out of his chair, and got him onto the bed. Dale got out a set of pajamas and an adult diaper. We turned him over on his belly and she cleaned him like a newborn. It was loving and illuminating. It was possibly the worst thing I’d ever witnessed, because all the time I was watching Old Shep I was seeing myself down the road.
My sister finished up and got Gramp back into his chair. I made sure we put his hat back on him. He deserved a little cool. Back in front of the TV, he perked up a little.
Dale glanced at me and said, “You’re going to do something, aren’t you, Terry?”
“Yes,” I admitted. “Tomorrow.”
“Good,” she said, and slipped off.
I went up to my room, changed out of Grey’s suit, and put on my own clothes. er I didn’t remember crying but my face was covered with salt tracks. I washed up. JFK stood in the door and growled. I looked in the mirror and made the same sound.
32
Wes had tried to reinforce his basement window so that I couldn’t pop it again, but I easily finagled past his lackluster efforts. I hit the stairs and tried his closet again. He’d moved his stash. It took me five minutes to find it in the central-air conduit in his living room. He’d chipped some paint around one of the vent screws. It was as clear to me as a beacon in the dark.
I snatched up both of the Desert Eagles and extra clips. I counted out forty thousand from his cache and stuffed it in my jacket. I drove over to the Fifth Amendment, walked in, and approached Danny’s table with my hands in my pockets. He and Wes and a couple of his soldiers were eating dinner and drinking wine. I could smell the veal Marsala, spicy garlic tomato sauce, and the fried calamari.
One of his boys-the same mook who’d stopped me during the poker game-lazily moved up in front of me and said, “Hold on, you can’t just-”
I drew the Desert Eagle and shot him in the thickest part of his thigh. He shrieked and fell down, clutching the wound. There was less blood than I’d imagined. I’d never fired a gun before. It was easier than I’d expected.
The rest of his crew started going for their hardware and I rushed up and jammed the pistol under Danny’s left ear.
“Let’s converse,” I said.
Fear twisted in his eyes but he held himself together. “Don’t you think this is a bit much, Terry? You Rands don’t use guns.”
“I’ve had a change of heart.”
He tried to turn but couldn’t do it with the barrel wedged into that ganglia of nerves. “Sorry to hear about your uncle.”
“I came to pay off,” I said. I drew the stacks of money out of my pocket with my left hand and tossed them, one after the other, onto the table. They bounced and fell into his veal, then into his lap. “Here’s the thirty-seven g’s my uncle owed you.”
“But Mal-”
“Plus a little interest. Count it, Danny. And count it slow. Make it last as long as you can.”
Wes very quietly said, “Terry, listen to me now. Don’t do anything crazy. Just think this through.”
“I have.”
“No, no you haven’t, Terry. No, you haven’t at all.”
“You really think this is the best time to argue with me, Wes?”
Danny tried to scoot out of the way of the splashing Marsala sauce but he had nowhere to go. “Wait, just wait,” he said. I finished emptying the cash onto his plate. “You’re smarter than this. You’re much sharper than this.”
“Who was the hitter?” I eyed everyone sitting with him. They all looked like your average mook. None of them stood out from another. None of them had any style or hipness or grace. Any one of them could have been the knife man. I looked for shoulder-holster bulges. It didn’t prove anything. Plenty of hitters ca'1ewonwidthala saucrried guns and then made examples of their victims with blades. “You think your father would approve? Hiring a knife fighter to ice an old man? Two in the head is too clean for you now? My mother and father found him dying in his own shit. You brought my mother into this.”
My vision started to light up with red. I moved the barrel of the gun and pressed it hard into Danny’s left eye.
“That hurts! For Christ’s sake! Stop acting so nuts!”
“Who’s acting?” I said.
“I didn’t do it, Terry! I didn’t order it done! Listen to me. I didn’t do this. Grief has made you stupid. I know something about that.”
“I want the name. If he’s sitting here, tell me now.”
“I have no name to give you. Nobody here does that kind of work. You need to start listening to me.”
“Why’s that?”
“Because we’re friends.”
“We haven’t been friends since the eighth grade, Danny. You’re not counting your money. I wouldn’t want you to think I cheated you. Mal said it was only thirty-seven, but there’s forty. You keep the change, right?”
The guy I’d shot was still rolling around on the floor in agony. The crew started getting antsy. Someone was going to make a move soon. I grinned at them. I pulled the other Desert Eagle out of my waistband and held it on them. I knew at least a couple of these pricks wouldn’t mind seeing Danny go down just so they could skip to another syndicate outfit, head off to Chi or L.A.
One mook really knew how to give a death glare. He was drilling it hard into my forehead.
I let out a chuckle and whispered, “Come on, you.”
Danny knew the scene was a second away from detonating. He held his hands up in front of him and tapped the air, trying to get us all to simmer. Half of his crew looked at him like they hated his guts. I wondered if he
