It wasn't here. There was no sign of the self at all. Bane criss-crossed every part of the ruin, finding nothing.
'He didn't get here,' he said at last.
'Surely some delay,' Agape said quickly. 'Proceeding afoot, unfamiliar with the terrain-it might require days.'
'It might. It also might mean he's dead.'
'We must not believe that!' she said. 'I-I have no experience with this phenomenon of dual selves, but I conjecture-wouldn't you feel something if there were demise? Is there not some continuing connection between the two of you?'
'I suppose there should be,' Bane agreed thoughtfully. 'I tuned in to him in the first place by going with the flow. The closer I got, the more I felt it, when I listened.'
'Listen now!' she urged.
He stood and listened. He tried to extend his awareness out, to become perceptive to the soul of his other self, wherever it might be. He could almost see his ambience reaching out in a great circle, sensitive to the ambience of his other identity in Phaze.
He found it! Faintly in the distance, like an echo, he felt the rapport. 'He be alive!' he exclaimed. 'There!' He pointed to the southwest.
'Back the way we came,' Agape said. 'Or a little west; the vehicle curved eastward.'
'We can go directly toward him!' Bane said, relieved. 'Oh, thank thee for the notion, Agape!' He took hold of her, intending to kiss her, but discovered it was impossible while she was in suit and helmet.
They returned to the vehicle. The dome of it sealed, and the air came in. Agape lifted back her helmet. 'Did you have something in mind, Bane?'
'Just to go toward my other self until we intercept him,' he said. Then, becoming aware of her expectant attitude: 'Oh, yes.' He leaned over and kissed her. This time it was about as good as it seemed likely to get, in this circumstance.
That gave him pause. 'When I-thou willst be left here, with Mach.'
'I know you must return to your own land,' she said. 'For you, Proton is more alien than it is to me.'
'Dost thou know, Agape, I almost wish I could take thee with me.'
'I almost wish I could go,' she agreed. 'But even as your place is there, my place is here. I have a duty to my species that I must fulfill. So I think that even were it possible, I would not go with you to your magic realm. I remain glad to have been with you these hours.'
There didn't seem to be much more to say. Agape started the vehicle moving, and guided it in the direction he indicated, this time keeping it under her own control. They proceeded slowly toward the rendezvous with his other self.
After an hour of travel through the wasteland, they were startled by a voice from the vehicle's speaker grille. 'Directive: Serf Mach return immediately to base at Hardom. Serf Agape return immediately to base at Hardom.'
'They are addressing us!' Agape said. 'I must acknowledge.'
'Wait!' Bane snapped. 'Thou meanest we can speak to them?'
'When I invoke the communication code,' she said. 'It will only require a moment.' She reached for the panel.
He blocked her hand. 'Nay! If we speak to them, they will know we hear them. I must find my other self before we leave this course.'
'But to disobey would be very bad,' she protested.
'To obey might cost me my rendezvous! We have been getting closer; I can feel it. I can quit not now!'
'But there will be punishment.' 'They can punish me not after I'm gone!' Then he reconsidered. 'But thou willst still be here-and Mach too. That be bad.'
'Serf Mach and/or serf Agape,' the speaker said. 'Your vehicle is occupied and moving. If you are alive and conscious, respond immediately.'
'We must answer!' she said.
'But if we don't, they'll think we be dead or unconscious, and I can reach mine other self.'
'I should not do this,' she said, keeping her hands away from the panel.
'I'll make it up to thee!' he said. 'I'll show thee all I know about-about being a girlfriend.'
She smiled with a certain resignation. 'Before or after you return to Phaze?'
'Before, of course! I can do it not after.'
'Then that must be now.'
Now he realized the significance of her question. If he took time now, he might lose his chance to achieve rapport with his other self, because there was no way to tell what threat the other might be under in Phaze. He couldn't afford to wait a moment longer than he had to. But if he didn't do it now, it wouldn't get done at all.
'Mayhap thou canst tell the vehicle to move by itself, as thou didst before,' he suggested.
'I must give it a destination-and I think there is none it will understand, for this.'
She was right again. He had to tune in on the other self, and she had to direct the vehicle to the spot he indicated. They could not let the vehicle run itself.
'We shall have to stop for a while, then,' he said heavily.
'No, Bane, I would not interfere with your desire. Go to meet your other self.'
'And leave thee here, without thine information, to be maybe sent back to thy world because thou didst help me,' he said. 'I can do that not.'
'I think Mach would show me, if I explained. Do not delay.'
'I want to show thee myself!' he said. 'It be my job.'
'I release you from it.'
'Nay, what be right be right. Anyway-' He paused with realization. 'I really do want to do it myself. I mean, not because I said I would. I-'
'Do not forget, I am an alien creature,' Agape said.
'Thou'rt a nice person, in human form,' he said. 'Stop the vehicle.'
'But you must not delay! I understand that.'
'We have a conflict of interests. My father taught me to do what is right, no matter what the cost. Thou mayst have cost thyself thy stay on Proton, by helping me; I must risk my return to Phaze, helping thee. It be right. But more: I haven't known thee long, Agape, but I like thee very well already. I
She had a notion. 'Perhaps we could keep the vehicle going, on a semi-automatic course, and you can tell me when to correct it. So no travel time would be lost.'
'Will that work?'
'We shall find out.' She adjusted the buttons on the panel, then settled back. The vehicle kept moving.
'Oh, Agape, I wish I had met thy like in Phaze!' he exclaimed, leaning over to kiss her. This time the experience was intensely rewarding.
In moments she was out of her suit and hugging him hungrily. But the seat restraints would not release their lower extremities while the vehicle was moving, and threatened to confine their upper portions too whenever there was a bump. This severely limited the action.
'I will deactivate the restraints,' Agape said, touching the panel again.
'Serf Mach and/or serf Agape,' the speaker said, startling them both. 'Vehicle safety restraints have been deactivated. This indicates conscious activity. Acknowledge status immediately.'
'Canst silence it?' Bane asked.
'Serf Mach return immediately to base at-' the speaker said, cutting off as she touched another button.
'What should I do now?' Agape asked.
'Come join me in my seat-no, I'll join thee in thine-' Bane hesitated, finding neither location suitable. Each place was made for one person; there really was not room for two, especially not for this type of activity. They needed more space.
'In my natural state, there are no such problems,' Agape said. 'But of course our forms are not fixed.'
'Don't change thy form!' Bane cried. 'There
