It had been bird seed.
He pushed through the front door, spotted me, waved and smiled brightly. I waved and smiled brightly back as he got in line in front of a cash register. A few minutes later, he sat opposite me holding a steaming cup of black coffee.
“ It’s been a while, Jim,” he said pleasantly.
“ I know,” I said. “I’m sorry.”
His eyes twinkled. “Sorry for what?”
“ For not coming in to see you sooner.”
“ Oh, I’m around more than you know.” And he winked.
Jack was a man of indeterminate age and race. He could have been anywhere from forty to seventy, and he could have passed for Caucasian, Latino or Native American. Hell, if he told me he was Polynesian, I might have believed him. Even his hair color and eyes were indeterminate, but with me that’s not saying much. Hair and eye color were generally lost on the severely colorblind, such as myself.
“ Still, I should have come see you sooner,” I said.
“ You should do whatever you want, Jim.”
“ It’s just that sometimes I feel like I’m losing my mind when I talk to you.”
“ Then don’t talk. Just sit quietly.”
“ But I want to talk to you.”
He smiled at me serenely.
“ I know,” I said. “I should do what I want.”
He smiled again. “Always.”
I picked up my drink and said, “I know who killed my mother.”
“ You are a good detective, Jim. I’m not surprised.”
“ Does God ever get surprised?”
He winked. “Rarely.”
Just then a timid little girl suddenly appeared at our table, a finger hooked in one corner of her mouth. She couldn’t have been more than three, maybe younger. She wore a flower dress and shiny black shoes, and there was ketchup on the tip of her nose. She swayed a little as she stared at Jack. Jack smiled so warmly at her that I thought he must have surely known the little girl. The little girl removed her finger from her mouth and broke into a huge smile.
“ Your mother is looking for you, little one,” he said.
In that moment, the door to the jungle gym burst open. An hysterical woman scanned the room wildly, then spotted the little girl. She moved swiftly through the restaurant, took her daughter’s hand. As the little girl was led away, she looked back at Jack…and smiled.
When they were gone, I said, “She knew you.”
“ The little ones often do.”
“ And who are you?”
“ Who do you think I am?”
We often played this game. Jack was the master of the verbal parry. The spoken sidestep. Lexical double- speak. He would have made a fine politician, actually. God for President. Now there’s a slogan.
I said, “I haven’t been here for many months, perhaps as many as six. Yet, the moment I sit down with my fries and drink, you appear.”
“ And what do you think about that, Jim?”
“ I think it’s damn weird. Who else but God would know I was coming today? Who else but God would know the time and date of my arrival?”
“ Who else indeed?”
“ You tell me.”
He sat back a little. “You think of me as separate from you, Jim, but I’m not.”
“ What, exactly, does that mean?”
He leaned forward and placed his hand on my chest. He rarely touched me, and I was startled at first. His hand, I noted, smelled of dirt and asphalt. “God is in here, Jim.”
“ Yes, in my heart. I’ve heard all that before.”
“ For good reason, Jim.” He kept the flat of his palm on my chest; in fact, directly over my heart. Warmth radiated from his hand, seeped straight through my tee shirt and spread through me. “This is where I reside in everyone. I mean this literally, Jim.”
“ You literally reside within everyone?”
“ You are all not only sons and daughters of God, but you are a part of God. Do you understand this concept?”
“ In a Sunday school kind of way, maybe.”
“ A part of God lives in you. A part of me is you. The spark that gives you life comes from me. That spark lives in you always. I live in you always.”
“ Like a parasite?”
He chuckled. “Think of a flashlight, Jim. Think of all the components that make it work. I would be the battery residing within. A very, very powerful battery.”
I thought about this, wrapping my brain around the concept.
He went on, “You have the power of God living within you. Think on that.”
I did. “So we can access the power of God? Your power?”
He smiled, pleased. “You do so every day, Jim.”
“ How?”
“ With your imagination.”
“ I don’t understand.”
“ Your imagination summons the power of God. Your imagination is God at work.” He paused, letting me digest this. He went on a moment later. “As you imagine something, Jim, the full power of God is summoned to it.”
“ To anything?”
“ Anything.”
“ And what if I imagine a dragon flying over Orange County?”
“ You would not believe half the things that fly over Orange County, Jim.”
In fact, I recalled reading in the newspaper just last year of something black and winged flying over Brea.
“ C’mon, Jack,” I said. “A dragon? A real, honest-to-God dragon?”
“ Put it this way, Jim: something that matched your level of belief would eventually come into your existence.”
“ My level of belief? You mean, my dragon might actually be a balloon or a float parade.”
He nodded. “Now you’re getting it. If you truly believe that dragons don’t exist, then there is nothing that I can do to help you.”
“ But if I could get myself to believe…”
“ Ah,” said Jack, smiling and sitting back, “here be dragons.”
Chapter Seven
“ A local fishing boat caught something in their nets this morning,” said Detective Hansen over the phone.
“ Would that something happen to be Mitch Golden?” I asked.
“ Boy, you private dicks are uncanny. You want me to swing by and pick you up?”
“ Why not?” I said. “I was just thinking I haven’t thrown up yet this morning.”
Twenty minutes later, I was sitting with the detective in his sporty Ford Taurus. He had picked up two
