about to prepare a statement for the media. I will show it to you when we’ve finished.”
Malina brought the statement in to her. It was short, prepared on a word processor.
My wife, Zillah, and I fully understand the sensation that recent circumstances-the tragic death of Mr. Jeffrey Leach taken in tandem with our marriage-have occasioned in the media. While absolutely concurring in the opinion of national newspaper editors that this matter is in the public interest and should not be kicked into the long grass but openly aired, we would nevertheless like to assure those kind enough to take an interest in us, that we were totally innocent of any offense.
My wife sincerely believed that her marriage to Mr. Leach had been dissolved twelve months ago. She had implicit trust in Mr. Leach as did I. Not for a moment did either of us believe we were guilty of wrongdoing. If we had, in spite of our love for each other, we of course would have deferred our marriage until we had secured a formalization of the divorce and could start afresh with a level playing field.
Needless to say, we shall remarry as soon as this is feasible. We would both like to extend our best wishes to those good enough to be concerned for us and ask them for their understanding, indulgence, and, indeed, forgiveness.
“It’s a bit formal,” said Malina, “but we deemed that suited to the seriousness of the subject matter. Jims decided it might be best not to mention your husband’s passing setting you free. It looks bad. And we were minded not to use the word ‘bigamy.’ It sounds terribly twentieth-century, don’t you think?”
Because she dared not ask Jims, Zillah asked Malina, “What will they do to me?”
“What, for being married to two men at the same time? Not a lot, I should think. After all, your husband’s dead, isn’t he? It’d be different if he were still alive somewhere. They’ll be focusing on the murder.”
Malina went off to do whatever she did to disseminate the statement. Jordan cried himself to sleep. Eugenie said that if someone would take her there she’d like to go round to her friend Matilda’s for the afternoon but first she was starving.
“There is no food in the house,” said Jims.
“I know there isn’t. I couldn’t go out shopping, could I? Not with all that lot outside.” Zillah very much wanted to placate him. “I could now if I go through the basement. They aren’t in the back.”
“They are. They nearly flattened my car when Malina and I came in.”
“Miss McMurty says that if you don’t have enough to eat you’ll get a vitamin deficiency. Your eyes will go blind and your teeth drop out,” Eugenie said.
“I will get one of the porters to shop for us,” said Jims.
Zillah wondered when the showdown would come, when he’d ask her why she’d deceived him over the nonexistent divorce. She prepared lunch. The porter had bought inferior quality food from some corner shop, besides getting all the things the children didn’t like. The lettuce was wilted and the tomatoes soft. Jordan screamed when he was expected to eat corned beef.
“Can I phone Matilda and get her to come here?” Eugenie suggested.
“I’m surprised you condescend to ask.”
“Well, can I?”
“I suppose so. You’ll have to play in your bedroom. I’ve got a splitting headache.”
Too late Zillah remembered Matilda’s father would probably bring her. But when the child arrived half an hour later she was in the care of a very young and beautiful au pair. She supposed she ought to be thankful Eugenie’s friend was allowed to come at all, permitted to associate with the Melcombe-Smiths, after what had been in the papers.
“I’ll come back for you at six, Matilda.”
They had to have her for three whole hours? That meant Zillah must find something to feed them. She watched them go off toward Eugenie’s room, chatting happily, her daughter giggling like a normal child. The phone began to ring. Zillah lifted the receiver fearfully. It was her mother, saying nothing this time about newspapers but asking if she was so indifferent to her father’s fate that she had forgotten he’d had a heart bypass that morning. After making wild promises she knew she’d never carry out, once Nora Watling had slammed down the phone she was left alone with Jims.
He took from the bookcase an as yet unread biography of Clemenceau, returned with it to his armchair, and, in total silence, opened it at the preface. Zillah picked up a glossy magazine and tried to read a piece about collagen lip implants. Suppose he never spoke to her again? What would she do? She remembered, back in December, how she’d foreseen this marriage as the chaste and charming companionship of two best friends, two people who would have fun together, enjoy life, and at the last have a greater affection for each other than either had for any lover.
“What do you want me to say?” she asked him when she could bear the silence no longer.
He looked up, a shade of irritability crossing his face. “I beg your pardon-what?”
“I asked you what you wanted me to say.”
“Nothing,” he said. “There is nothing to say. The newspapers have already said it.”
“We can get through it together, can’t we, Jims? All the fuss will die down. You’ve done nothing wrong. The statement will stop it, won’t it? Oh, Jims, I’m so desperately sorry. I’d have died before I let something like this happen, I’m so
“Don’t be ridiculous. Abjectness doesn’t suit you.”
She’d have gone down on her knees to him but for the phone ringing at that moment. “Don’t answer it, let it ring.”
He got up, crossed the room to where the phone was, and lifted the receiver. His expression changed subtly as he listened. “Yes,” he said, and “yes” again. “May I ask why?” She couldn’t remember ever having seen him dismayed before. “I would like to phone my lawyer first,” and then, “Half an hour, right.”
“What is it, Jims?”
“They want me at the police station. Here won’t do. They’re coming to fetch me.”
“My God, Jims, but why?”
Instead of answering he lifted the receiver and dialed the home number of his solicitor.
Eugenie came in, trailing Matilda behind her. “You owe me five pounds, Mummy. You’d better write it down or you’ll forget.”
Chapter 22
ALONE AT HOME, Fiona hadn’t set foot in her garden or conservatory since the news reached her of Jeff’s death. Nor had she been back to work. She had barely been out. When Violent Crimes and Miss Demeanor weren’t there, and their visits grew shorter and shorter until they no longer happened, she sat in her living room, not reading, not watching television or listening to the radio, but just sitting. Her hands were usually folded in her lap, her knees close together. It was days now since she’d cried. She’d phoned no one and when the phone rang she left it to ring.
Michelle, who had been with her every day up until Thursday, hadn’t been back since. She’d have liked to see her, for her next-door neighbor was the only company she wanted. But Michelle, she supposed, had grown tired of comforting a grief-stricken woman and had doubtless run out of things to say.
Fiona marveled at the intensity of her own sorrow. She was as wretched as any widow after a twenty-year marriage. Her heart was broken. In the past she had laughed at the absurdity of this phrase and others like it: heartbreak, heartbroken. “You will break my heart,” her mother had said to her over some minor offense she’d committed while at university. What nonsense. So she’d thought then but now she understood. Her own heart was broken, shattered to bits, and she told herself that since Jeff died she hadn’t been able to feel it beating. When she placed her hand under her left breast there was no fluttering movement, nothing but a dull ache. Sometimes, sitting alone, she worried over this and took her own pulse, not knowing whether to be relieved or not at its gentle regular throb.
Every day the newspapers had a fresh story in them about Jeff. His marriage, his idle life. Fiona swore not to
