hot length invading, the cool leather at her back. How she’d felt when he’d caressed her between her legs, what the sound of their harsh breathing and the scent of Finn’s shampoo and sex had been like in the emotion-charged air of his loft.
Which were exactly the wrong kind of memories to be reliving in the workplace. There was a passel of customers in the next room and everyone knew she was all-business Bailey. She had to get him out of here.
The tissue shoved in the toes of the Santa boots crinkled as she took a cautious half step back. “I don’t have time to talk. There’s forty-something Whos from Whoville out there, Whos who’ll be clamoring for the promised refreshments as soon as the movie’s over.”
“You’re missing the Grinch-green face paint, but you’ve got the outfit. Nice.” He nodded at her.
She glanced down by instinct, then wished she hadn’t. Without a better Santa substitute, she’d had to settle for herself. So far she had on the boots and the big red pants, held up at her shoulders by suspenders. But of course it was all too big, so red fleece bunched at her boot tops and gaped at her hips. On top she wore a skinny-ribbed tank top, because she’d yet to don the pillow she’d brought from home and the red jacket that would go over all of it.
“What do you want, Finn?”
“I thought we could talk.”
“I told you. I don’t have the time.” Stacked on the worktable was the tissue she’d been using, along with a jumble of other items. As she reached for another sheet, her gaze snagged on the pieces of the vintage heart ornament she’d dropped the week before. With a big ocean swell coming in from the south, no one had gotten around to trying to repair it. By the twenty-sixth, though, it wouldn’t be the only battered and broken thing in The Perfect Christmas.
She looked back up at Finn. “Go away. I’m busy.”
“I’ve come to the conclusion we can’t unring the bell.”
Her fingers slid off the sleek white paper. “What do you mean by that?”
“We had sex. I can’t just forget about it.”
Who was forgetting? Finn’s body had changed in a decade. What had been bony and boyish had become muscular and manly. There’d been dark hair on his chest that had once been smooth and she’d wanted to touch it, run her fingers through it. His thighs were different now too, heavy with muscle. The thick length of his erection had been longer, felt smoother, hotter without a condom. More flames rose along her neck and she looked down at the stack of tissue, ruffling it with her fingers as she tried to play it cool.
“I was thinking…” Finn drew the word out until she looked at him again. “How about a replay or two?”
She stared. Was he insane? This was a man she’d known for only about, what, oh, seventeen years? Okay, he wasn’t anywhere near a stranger, but still…It wasn’t going to happen.
“Just because we rang the bell once, Finn, doesn’t mean we have to go all merry and jingle it again.”
“Don’t you think it would be…fun?”
Bailey wiped her damp palms against the dumb red pants. “I’m only here until the twenty-fifth.”
“Brief fun, then. Even better.”
Oh, but she didn’t want brief! She wanted hours with him. Long hours to explore him in all the ways she’d never dared when she was seventeen and so afraid of how he made her respond. What would the curve of his biceps feel like under her tongue? Would his nipples harden beneath her fingers as hers did at his touch? Even thinking about his touch.
She crossed her arms over her chest. “Can’t we chalk it up to a one-night stand?” There was the practical solution.
“A one-night stand?”
“Come on. That’s all it was. You needed someone that night, and I happened to be there. That’s why we ended up together.”
He frowned. “Are you telling me it was a pity fuck? Thanks a lot.”
Through the door, she could hear swelling music. Santa needed to get of here. Bailey too. “Look, I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings.”
He pushed off from the door and stalked closer, appeared anything but wounded. Instead, he looked… predatory.
Bailey took another step back and then another, until her shoulders hit the far wall.
“I know how you can make it up to me,” he said softly.
Her palms pressed against the cold surface behind her. “Finn…I thought we agreed there was no such thing as magic.”
He smiled and reached out to slide his forefinger under one suspender. “I’m not talking about magic, sweet thing.” His finger rode the elastic until his knuckle bumped into the hard nub of her nipple. “I’m talking about all the ways I didn’t get to touch you. Taste you.”
“No fair.” Those were
His finger slid back up to toy at her breast. “Aren’t you just the tiniest bit…tempted?”
There wasn’t enough air in the room. And the air that there was smelled like Finn, the spicy scent she’d inhaled the first day she’d seen him again and realized he’d grown up-but maybe she hadn’t grown out of her overwhelming attraction to him.
However, surrendering to attraction and temptation was what she should be fighting against. Yes, it was self- protective, but it was also smart. When she was eighteen she’d decided it was safer not to bother committing to anyone too much. Then she would never have to feel the soul-destroying hurt that she’d witnessed at the end of her mother and father’s marriage. That she was witnessing now with the demise of her mother’s relationship with Dan.
She cleared her throat. “Don’t you think this is a little weird? Admit it, two days ago you still resented me for the way I left you.”
His wandering finger halted. “I’m a man. I compartmentalize. And the compartment that’s getting all my attention right now is the one that has me in it, with you, naked.”
While unfortunately that was quite an intriguing one to her as well, something suddenly wasn’t jiving in Bailey’s mind. There was a hard look on Finn’s face that you
Her hands pressed harder against the paint, her eyes narrowing. “So, um, what have you been up to since last we met?”
“Downloading photos of my new nephew. Downloading more photos of my new nephew. Driving Gram to a couple of doctor’s appointments.” His finger traveled from her breast to her chin, so he could tilt her mouth toward his. His voice lowered to a raspy whisper. “Thinking about you.”
Bailey swallowed, still not buying it completely. “How is your grandmother?”
His hand dropped. “On the road to recovery.” He pivoted away from her and stalked toward the door. “So do you want to get it on or not?”
“Gee, there you go with the hearts and flowers again.”
He stomped back. His face was furious now, but she held her ground. He grabbed her right hand and pressed it against his breastbone. “I’ve got your heart.” His slammed against her palm with an angry beat. Her left hand he forced to cup the hard rise of flesh between his legs. “And I’ve got your flowers right here.”
And with those two rough gestures he had Bailey all over again. Not because she appreciated rough-but because that wasn’t the kind of man he was. He’d always, always been so careful with her, and this attitude told her that something besides sex was driving Finn, something dark and tangled and that maybe he wasn’t even aware of.
He might as well have been whispering, “I can’t do it, Bailey. I don’t think I can do it alone.”
Just like that, finding his way once more into her damaged heart.
“Maybe we can cut a deal,” she said, sliding her left hand from under his and away from his erection. More sex shouldn’t be on the table-
“Yeah?” He caught her escaping fingers in his, held them.
Her heart stuttered a little. “Yeah. I have a business to run, customers waiting, and you fill out the Santa suit better than I do.”
