lived, should be of no interest except for how it bore on my work.
“You sure are a quiet one,” Daisy remarked as we stood at the corral rails watching a frisky mare. “The last preacher I met talked my ears off about sin and the like.”
“Did he, now?”
She bobbed her blond head. “He sure did. About the only thing I recollect is him saying that we’re all of us trapped between heaven and hell, and where we end up depends on the life we live here and now.”
Since I couldn’t think of a suitable quote, I simply said, “He was right.”
“It must be nice being you. Knowing that the day you die, you’ll stroll through the pearly gates without a worry in creation.”
“You’ll stroll through those pearly gates, too.”
Daisy averted her gaze. “That’s kind of you, Parson, but I know better. I’m as much of a sinner as the next person.”
“They say that confession is good for the soul.” I had heard that somewhere once. It almost sounded like I knew what I was talking about.
“Oh, no, Reverend. I would be too ashamed. The things I’ve done would curl your toes.”
Suddenly she did not seem nearly as sweet. The fancies I had built up in my head came crashing down. “Don’t be so rough on yourself. We all have things we’re ashamed of.” My pa came to mind. And my wife.
“You too? I thought men of the cloth always live clean and honest?”
“They try.” I had slipped up, but she didn’t notice.
“Would you like to see my favorite spot in all the world?”
I nodded, and Daisy clasped my hand and hurried us around the corral and along a path through the woods. In a hundred yards we came to a hollow so closely rimmed by vegetation that had she not shown it to me, I could have passed within ten feet of it and not realized it was there. A stream flowed through the center.
On a spur of grass Daisy hunkered and dipped a finger in the clear water. “It’s so peaceful and restful here. I often come and just sit for hours.”
I chose a log for my seat. The peak of Dark Sister hid the setting sun, but enough light remained to cast a golden sheen over everything. The buzz of insects and the croak of frogs were a lullaby that lulled me to drowsiness.
“You’re not falling asleep, are you?” Daisy teased.
“I might,” I admitted, mentally vowing that I had eaten my last big meal until the job was done.
“We have us a fine life here,” Daisy commented. “The best we’ve ever had. I don’t want it to ever end.” She shifted toward me. “Why do the Tanners hate us so?”
“They claim you rustle their beef.”
“But we don’t. Honest to God, we don’t. Can’t you convince them we’re telling the truth?”
“I will try.” I felt awful after saying that. More awful than I had any right feeling.
“It’s Gertrude,” Daisy said. “She’s the mean one. It’s her who is always talking about us behind our backs. The townsfolk have told us as much. She won’t rest until she’s driven us off or wiped us out, and we won’t be driven off.”
“I will do what I can.”
Daisy leaned back, unconscious of how her dress clung and shifted. “Ma thinks they killed Pa. She can’t prove it, but she feels it in her bones.”
I had a thought. “Did the Tanners accuse your family of rustling before your pa disappeared?”
Her smooth brow and her full lips puckered. “Not that I remember, no. They didn’t start in on us until after he vanished.”
“How were they before that?”
“Polite enough, I suppose. They would say ‘howdy’ in town. But that Gertrude always said it like she had a mouth full of nails.”
“Some people are born with too much acid in their system.”
“Ain’t that the truth.”
We sat in silence, the shadows lengthening around us, the birds and the insects and the frogs providing a sort of music. It made me wish we could sit there forever, but presently I sensed we were not alone and I shifted to find Ty and Clell with their rifles.
I was becoming downright sloppy. I never heard them come up. It would do well for me to keep in mind that I was dealing with a bunch of backwoodsmen with as much wilderness savvy as Indians.
“Ma wants you and him back at the cabin,” Ty said to Daisy.
“You shouldn’t have come out here without a gun,” Clell scolded her. “It’s not safe.”
I didn’t like the glance he shot at me. Rising, I held out my hand and Daisy took it.
“Don’t fret about me, big brother. I can take care of myself. I heard you two clomping through the brush like a pair of half-blind bulls.”
“Like hell,” Ty said.
Grinning, Daisy skipped past them, pulling me after her. “I’m not a little girl anymore, big brother. The sooner you own up to it, the sooner you can rest easy when I’m off by himself.”
“So long as the Tanners are out for our hides, I can’t ever rest easy” was Ty’s reply.
So far I had not seen any sign of cattle, alive or otherwise. I reasoned that if the Butchers were lying—and they had to be—then they must keep the cattle off in a canyon somewhere.
Hannah was in a rocking chair under the overhang. Another chair had been set beside it for me. “I like to sit out here and admire the sunsets,” she said as I sank down. “They’re always so pretty.”
The Dark Sister was silhouetted against a sky painted bright hues of red and orange, laced with traces of pink. “That they are,” I allowed.
Daisy had roosted nearby. Ty and Clell were listening with their arms folded. Out of the cabin filed Sissy, Jordy, Kip, and Sam. There was no sign of Carson.
“We need to talk, Reverend. We need to work out what to do about the Tanners.”
“I promise to do what I can.”
Hannah nodded. “And I’m grateful. But how do you intend to go about it, exactly? How can we get it through Gertrude Tanner’s thick head that me and mine don’t steal her cows?”
“I will talk to them—” I began.
“No offense, Reverend, but talking hasn’t done us much good. I sent word to Gertrude through Calista that I would welcome the chance to sit down with her and hash it out, but Calista says all Gertrude did was laugh.”
“Now there is a bitch if ever there was one,” Sissy remarked.
Hannah grew as stern as a riled schoolmaster. “That will be quite enough cussing in front of our guest! You are a lady and you will act like one. Never forget you’re not too old for a tanning.”
“Switch my backside all you want,” Sissy said. “It won’t change the truth.”
Tapping her fingers on the rocker’s arm, Hannah said, “Do you see what I have to put up with, Reverend? I never gave my ma sass like they sass me.”
Sissy snorted. “Since when is saying our mind sass? You’ve always told us to be honest with you, haven’t you? Or would you rather we wear gags all day? If so, I want a pink one. You’ll have to go into town and buy a bolt of pink cloth or I’ll just keep on speaking my piece.”
“We don’t have the money for a scrap of cloth, let alone a bolt,” Hannah said good-naturedly, “so flap your gums all you want.”
They grinned and chuckled and laughed, and I was struck by how much they cared for one another. Genuinely and truly cared. It put me in a funk. I kept forgetting who I was and why I was there. This had never happened to me before. I never let myself have feelings for those I was to exterminate for the same reason you never became too fond of a cow or a hog or chicken you might have to eat. Yet here I was, entertaining preposterous notions about Daisy and feeling sympathy for the rest of her family.
I needed a drink. I needed a drink bad. I needed to get drunk and stay drunk for a week, but I had the job to do. The damned, stinking job.
Suddenly I became aware they were all staring at me.
“You all right?” Hannah asked. “Do I bore you so much that you’re not paying attention?”
“Sorry, my dear woman,” I said. “I was racking my brain for a way to get Gertrude to listen to reason.”
